Why have you done this? Why is it... every time your darkened, emotionally scarred brown eyes meet mine, or when I hold your dainty lightly trembling hand in my own, two urges arise and clash, putting my mind into a maddening whirl. One side of me wants to put a nice image in your head to distract you from what chaos goes on in your mind, and the other wants to see you fall apart. I just want to drink you, break you... and see how you take it as I do this. I want to absorb you.

Last night, for the first time in longer than I can remember, I allowed another's embrace. Your embrace...

I brought out your fantasy; I made it real.

At first, you were frightened. You were unsure. It was completely new and you had this feeling you'd never experience that in your life. Ohh, how much I enjoy your fear, Addison. You spin my world with pure unbelievably tasty ecstasy every time your heart races with it and the jumbled mess of thoughts running through your head is the icing on this beautiful cake of ours.

I wouldn't allow a second of hesitation from you. When you feel this way, I can taste you're begging for me to take control, and I listen to your pleas.

How you couldn't believe the way I slammed you against that shower wall. I loved your protest. I scared you. You tried pushing me away and I fought against you. I slipped my hand behind your neck and grabbed it, pulling your face close to mine while I pinned your other hand to the wall. You're playing games with me. I knew you wanted it. You seem to have a habit of forgetting that I can see what you see, know what you know, and feel what you feel.

"It's just you and me, Addison." I huskily purred against your lips.

Your eyes were big and you were shaking. You turned your head, weeping at the thought that I would possibly hurt you and all the memories, all the voices in your head from the realm, were running wild in your mind again. So many horrible thoughts pounded away at you. You wanted one good thing to come and take it all away. Just one good thing.

I couldn't help but smile at you as if cooing over your behavior. Every thought, every sound, every moment. You are so beautiful to me.

I ran my nose along your neck, smelling you and savoring this time we shared. "I will mend your broken mind. I made you this promise."

"Mend my broken mind-? How could you!" You wept.

"Remember me, Addison. Remember how you ran to me all those times." I slowly licked your neck and pulled your hair, forcing your head to gently hit the wall. Your chest was moving so fast, and you jerked as I put the visions of how you always called for me, wishing for me to rescue you from the realm and Reuben himself. The dreams you had of me, and of us together. They all seem to override the other thoughts. You want to deny what you're seeing, but you know it's all true.

I quickly picked you up and you gasped so loudly in pain and shock when I suddenly squeezed your thighs around my waist so tightly I broke your skin and thrust inside you the first time. You whined and panted in my ear while I kept you there, holding you as I breathed lustfully over your neck.

"Atta girl..."

Blood started running past my fingers and the smell of it hitched my breathing slightly. You flinched as I opened my mouth over your neck and teasingly pinched your skin with my fangs. You knew I wanted to bite you right then. Frightened as you were, I heard it in your rapid beating heart and mind how you truly wished for it.

But no.

I was not going to allow this.

I then nuzzled my nose into your shoulder and spoke in a deep, predatory voice; "Painful? You believe this is painful?"

Suddenly I thrust into you again, rougher and harder, making you gasp louder and more painfully. Your fingers stabbed into my shoulders and I unintentionally responded with a sharp exhale and shivered as the sensation surged throughout my body. For once in a long time, this particular feeling stung like the first time I'd experienced it. I felt the type of pain when something hits unexpectedly. I heard guilt in the shaky sound you made when I shuddered under your touch.

I then slowly looked into your eyes. You blinked rapidly at me with such conflict. You were full of emotion. You were guilty and so frightened, yet somehow... somehow, you wanted more? Had I changed your tune a little? Which side was stronger, Addison? I told you with eyes burning with desire, I was going to make your fantasy come true - whether you wanted it or not. And that terrified you while it excited your masochistic inner self.

"You hurt me," you sounded some kind of defeated. You tried to free your legs but I held them tighter. "Gabe-!" you complained. I kept my darkening gaze on yours.

The way I took in every detail of your face made you want to turn your head again. Was I too much for you? I snatched your chin and made you look back into my eyes. "Don't you look away from me again." I almost whispered, and slid my hand down your neck, between your breasts and down your beautiful stomach. Then I dug my nails into your thighs again, slamming into you one more time, watching your eyes flash wide and mouth dropping in pain.

I thrust into you again, rougher, receiving a louder cry. "Gabriel, stop!"

I growled possessively at you.

And I slammed you again, harder.

"AHH! Gabe-!" Ohh you're so delicious...

"Look at me!" I snarled, "This is what you wanted DAMN IT!"

You looked at me with watery eyes, wincing each time I moved, but then... you did something I never saw coming.

You breathed fast and suddenly pulled me into a rough kiss of submission. Tears streamed down your cheeks and you wanted to throw your fears away. You fought it and gave yourself to me -- finally.

I squeezed you tighter, pulling you closer and felt you moan loud at the feeling of me being all the way inside you. I began moving faster, and I wasn't going to stop. I was going to fuck you like an animal and I wasn't going to stop until I said so. Just like you wanted. You WANTED this!

I pounded you like I hated you. I bit your neck and sucked on it viciously. I could feel all your pain and embraced every bit of it. You were so afraid but you kept on fighting it. You pushed yourself against me like trying to prove the world a point. Good girl Addison, good girl!

I released your legs, turned the shower off, yanked you out of the bathroom and pulled you into your room where I threw you on your bed. You saw the blood on your legs and then looked at me in panic.

I wiped my mouth with my arm, grinning wide and toothily.

You began backing up to the headboard and I jumped on the bed, snatching your legs and holding them at both sides of my waist.

"What are you doing?" I chuckled wickedly.

As you slightly shook your head in a pleading way, I lowered my gaze to your legs again and devilishly side-glanced at you while lifting one up.

Your mouth opened and you instantly threw your head back when I bit down on your calf. I loved how you moaned as I drank from you. 

"Gabriel, ohh!" You were hurt and pleasured.

I sucked up a good bit of blood and moved up to your face, grabbing your jaw again and meeting your lips. You didn't want the taste of it while I pushed my tongue inside and played with yours. You choked on the blood and I bit your lip as punishment.

I forced your legs apart as you panted at me and I buried myself inside you again, taking you by surprise.

I held your wrists down firmly and lunged at your neck to drink more of your blood. You were lost in a paradise of great pain and pleasure while I fucked you fast and mercilessly. So confused, so helpless. So wonderful, my kitten.

And now, right now... I'm sitting in your bedroom window with a cigarette dangling between my fingers as I carefully pick at my nails.

I glance up at you again as you sleep... in your cozy warm bed, dreaming about your family. Dreaming about something random like shopping, and they're treating you as if you're a teenager again. It sure feels that way to you. 

I wonder how many times I'll be lulling you to sleep from now on? For some reason... I find something nice about that. I held you in my arms and told you to listen to the ticking clock as I helped you drift off. This is what you dream of?

Somehow, it puts you in tears. It must be the feeling of nostalgia mixing with the broken pieces of your heart and mind. It's like a battle between light and dark. Is this what you really wish for? To go back to that?

You can't go back, Addison. You must always look forward. Take it from me, a person who has lived through many generations.

And now, I imagine how I can relate... Dreams have been a blessing and a curse for me, because almost every one that I have is an echo of my past. I already let a lot of it go before I destroyed the realm and Reuben. I wonder what will become of them now...

A clash of thunder breaks me from my train of thought.

I rest my head back against the window, looking at the clouds and taking a puff of the cigarette. "I'm broken too, kitten." Nothing is going to be the same now. This is a new life.

Our life.

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Author's Note:

Hey everyone! This one is unbelievable. I DID say it was going to be messy, didn't I? Lol

So, the 2nd book has been generating a nice bit of notoriety over the past couple months. Here we are beginning the 3rd one so soon! I know I don't have a description yet, but believe me, I have a big plan going on!

I hope you've enjoyed this chapter. I can't wait to write the next one! Remember to keep Jack in mind, because he's VITAL to this story! :)

Ok ladies and gentlemen, thanks again and I'll see you soon! Ciao~! ^_^