Jungkook couldn't sleep thinking that you were in the other room crying because of him

He heard you unlocking your bedroom. he hesitated at first to face you again especially when he didn't have any excuse for his mistake.

He took a needle and brown thread from his drawer and walked to you.
You were nowhere to be seen in the living room so he assumed you went back to your bed

He sighed, anxiousness taking over him, he knocked in your door and didn't wait for you to answer he just held the doorknob and was surprised that it wasn't closed as it was earlier.

You were laying in your bedroom cuddling your blanket and your teddy bear, you weren't crying anymore but your puffy eyes spoke about how hard you cried the last hour.

He crawled toward you and sat in the edge of your bed, he didn't look into your eyes instead he kept his head down

" sorry " he mumbled, the silence engulfed the room for a minute

" why did you do that? " you asked with your faint voice

He bit his lips before saying " I don't know "

" you don't know what exactly, jungkook? Why would you do that to a toy ? "

" I really don't know "

He looked so sad although you were angry you couldn't scold him anymore

But he was weird

" jungkook " you gently called him and his eyes finally met yours " do you have multiple personality disorder ? "

He took his time before saying " what makes you think that I do? "

" you're sometimes nice and sometimes a bully, you're a fuckboy at school but the last time you said otherwise, and now all of a sudden you ripped a toy and you don't even know why you did so "

" am I weird ? " he enhaled before continuing " do I scare you? "

" no you don't, I'm sure you're hiding something "

After the incident jungkook visited a psychologist, he couldn't easily go back to how he was after killing. After checking him the doctor said that it was all coming from his imagination and that the death of the girl he loves has affected him a lot that he couldn't get over the shock

But he was sure that it wasn't imagination, she was watching him all the time, he didn't tell the doctor that he has killed a girl with his bare hand but after investigation the news said that no proof was found and the pressure on her neck was inhuman.

The doctor wasn't believing him and he somehow convinced jungkook that it was all his imagination. He used the remedy he gave him and since then he didn't see hani around. He thought that the doctor was right and he was relieved, he came back to his cheerful side and especially after moving to usa he believed that he left everything behind in the past.

He wouldn't have accepted to live under the same rooftop with you if he knew that it wasn't over yet, and that he was a danger for you. In the other hand, he couldn't tell you that he has to move out when he didn't have any excuse.

He was scared from himself,
scared that one day he may kill someone again. And the thought that that someone may be you was torturing him.

Hani showed up again, after a long time, the first day when you slept together on the ground but as he remembered that she said she was going to make him kill everyone he loves, so he believed that as long as he won't grew feelings for you, you will be safe.

You cleared your throat when he kept staring into your eyes for consecutive 60seconds without moving

" Let me fix it " he took the plush from your arms and started sewing its ear, he looked so handsome when he was focusing on what he was doing.

You felt that your lips curved a smile.

You sat up " why did you become nice with me after we came here? " you asked curious what his answer will be

" wasn't I before? "

" seriously " you rolled your eyes " I was bullied because of you don't tell me you don't know, I was called an uptight girl in the middle school and bullied by strangers and then the slut thing came out from you again and everyone was calling me that. I even received plenty of anonymous messages offering me amounts of money for one night stand " your eyes got teary remembering the hard time you had at school

" why were you acting like one then ? You were 7/24h with different guys each moment, I was disappointed of your behaviours and I had to say that word I didn't know it would get spread all over the school "

" you don't have the right to be disappointed of me you're worst, I was doing that because of you jungkook I thought it was the only way to push them away from me and I was thankful that at least they couldn't touch me anymore " you whispered the last part

He put the teddy on his lap and looked at you " were they physically bullying you ? "

You chuckled " I almost got raped while your girls were watching if it's not thanks to a senior who saved me "

His eyes widened, he hugged you tightly " I'm sorry I had no idea about that, that's cruel and I.. I feel disgusted that those trash cans were around me, why didn't you tell me? "

" you hate me jungkook why would I ask for your help ? "

" right I used to hate you but not to the rate that I will accept seeing you getting hit and raped "

You put your hands on his waist and gently pushed him away breaking the hug

You wiped the tears on his cheeks " that was like 7 years ago I was saved before he gets to touch my skin, it's the past that made me stronger " you chuckled " why are you crying, uwu you look like a baby now "

He chuckled when you pinched his cheeks " but I'm really sorry I don't even know what to do so you can forgive me "

" there is something you can do " you weren't letting that chance get wasted

" anything for you " he smiled and his heart fluttered at how you were trying so hard to not let him blame himself

" take me to a night club " you pulled the puppy eyes card

" how about you go to sleep already " he playfully threw the blanket on your face but you slid it away in a second and pouted " please I've never been there, mom didn't allow me to even attend friends party, and I heard that it's not safe to go alone "

" get a boyfriend and go with him, why would I spend a night with you think about it "

" be my boyfriend for one night "

His heart beats raced because of your sudden request

" please " you added

He had bad memories with night clubs, he has never go there since the day of that incident

But he couldn't say no to you " Ok I promise you but not these days I will tell you when it's the right time "

You claped with a wide smile " it's ok as long as you promised "

He went back to fixing your toy with a grin on his face thanks to you being excited for the smallest things

You laid again on you bed

" jungkook you can do this tomorrow, it's too late and we have lecture tomorrow " you were worried about him, that was a new feeling

" it's ok I will finish it quickly, I couldn't fall asleep anyway don't worry about me and sleep "

" sorry I overreacted I guess, this teddy bear means the life for me it was the last gift from my grandmother before she died. I was a scary cat, I couldn't sleep alone so she used to sleep beside me and she has never left me alone. She handmade mizoo and gave it to me for my birthday, she told me that I should keep him with me bcs he will protect me forever. She died one week after that, I grew up on believing that he is protecting me and actually I've never seen ghost in my dreams since the day she gave it to me. Maybe I look immature right now I hope you understand "

" that's precious of course I understand you you have the right to be angry "

" mizoo will love you from now on " you grinned

" maybe I need a mizoo in my life "

you chuckled and the next minutes passed while you were watching him till you fell asleep

The next day

The first thing you looked for once you opened your eyes was mizoo
You eyes widened when you saw your teddy bear as good as before with a note stuck on its belly " I'm more handsome now but not more than jungkook "

You smiled while mumbling " this boy's cuteness is overflowing "

That was the last cute moment you shared

He was getting busy with his new so called 'friend'

And you barely see him in a week
He tends to come back home so late and you started to think if you did something wrong

He said she was just a friend but their relationship seemed more than that. The girl was so pretty you started to feel jealous because she stole your friend and you became a lonely soul in the appartment that looked bigger in his absence.

You were sitting on the couch when you heard his footsteps going toward the door

You turned your head behind and you noticed how he put more effort than he usually do on his outfits

" jungkook " you huffed

" em "

" where are you going? "

" Lisa called m- "

" not again " you murmured " you promised to spend the day with me "

" yes but- " you interrupted him " you're breaking your promise again for her "

" I have to go y/n I'm late "

You stood up and ran toward the door spreading your arms to stop him " jungkook do I mean nothing to you ?"

" you're my best friend y/n.. "

" when was the last time you stayed with your bestfriend ? Every time you promise me something she calls you and you throw me aside "

" I don't y/n, you just don't like her and that's all "

" is it my fault? " you put down your hands feeling down

" no it's not anyone's fault, but you should stop comparing yourself to her and counting how many second I spend with her "

" you prefer love over friends "

He rolled his eyes " again with this bullshit, I told you I don't love her, now please that's urgent "

You moved aside slowly while your eyes didn't leave his figure " jungkook if you step out of the door that means the end of our friendship "

His fist tightened on the doorknob and he looked at you

" I had enough of being the girl that you only remember her existence when you're free, I tried for a whole month to hide how hurt I'm I can't do it anymore "

It took him only seconds of staring and his feet moved leading him to the one he prefered, tears rolled down your cheeks, you felt you knees weak

Our friendship means nothing to him

He threw it away in seconds without hesitation

He rushed to the address the girl has sent to him

In a park where they agreed to meet

He fastened his steps when he saw her figure " lisa are you ok ? What's wrong ? "

she looked at him confused but she smiled at the end " I'm fine "

He furrowed his brows " what was the message you sent then ? "

" which message ? " she frowned

" you said you're scared and you need help " he rolled his eyes

" I didn't ! Isn't it you who asked me to meet here ?"

They were clueless till he felt the new presence

His eyes went directly to where the girl was standing watching them and his eyes widened immediately.

" hani " jungkook blurted out

The girl in front of him smiled mishearing it as 'honey'

He took a step backward but this time she was faster than his reaction, his gaze changed in a second and a smile was plastered on his face in the same speed

" whatever let's go somewhere " he grabbed lisa's hand and dragged her.

At that time, you were doing your duty trying to focus on your futur instead of crying over a friend who hadn't considered you as one.

You were thirsty so you took off the earphones and walked to the kitchen but some noises caught your attention

Moan

Your heart shattered into pieces
Your eyes got teary and fist clenched
You don't know how to feel about that
Were you angry? Annoyed? Or jealous?

You darted to his room and opened the door although you knew that you won't like the sight but he should respect that he wasn't living alone

The door slammed open and the sight behind it made you take a step back
He was kissing lisa roughly against the wall

Your eyes got teary but when you were about to leave and give them their privacy, something caught your attention.

The girl started groaning like if she was calling for your help, she was pushing him but he didn't stop, even your presence hasn't stopped him

" jungkook " you yelled in disbelief,

He's not that type of guys

You gasped when you saw a drop of blood rolling down her chin, you knew that you had to do something to stop him

Jungkook, what are you?