Austin and I met the rest of the group at the El Lobo. 

To be honest, when we left the dinner, I felt like I was leaving all the past behind. I've got what I needed to have. I heard what I needed to know. It was like the light at the end of this tunnel finally came into sight for me and I was able to move passed by it when we let go of it. It was painful to admit, but it wouldn't be painful if we didn't love each other.

I loved Lukas and whatever we had would be in my past now and an experience to live.

Austin witnessed, not all of it, but how it unfolds.

Bukod sa bestie kong si Cory, si Austin lang din ang halos napagsabihan ko tungkol sa past relationship ko. When I got on the island, I know I had to find a way to keep it away from hindering my happiness. I was able to do it and let it all pass by me, but some days, emotions were too strong it was pulling me back in. Hindi ko rin naman talaga masisisi ang sarili ko.

I only love someone else and there was nothing wrong with that.

As soon as we reached the club, we were the first ones to get there from the group. Kady texted Austin na papunta lamang sila. We started looking for a spot for us. Pagpasok pa lang din kasi namin ay maririnig na ang tugtugan mula sa labas. For sure, marami nang tao sa loob. Lima pa silang papunta galing dinner kaya naman pina-reserve na namin ni Austin ang table with seven seats. It was an open club. Para lang kaming nasa isang malaking cabana. It was on the second floor and as soon as we got inside, the lights were dimmed and shifting neutral lights were blinding.

When someone assisted us to our table, we were able to look around and see what was going on. There were a lot of people and it seemed like everyone was having fun dancing around with drinks in their hands. 

"How are you feeling now?" Austin asked as we settled down.

Huminga ako nang malalim saka ko iyon dahan-dahang pinakawalan. My chest felt so light that the burden I was feeling was finally lifted up.

"I feel so good," nakangiti kong sagot sa kanya.

Ngiti rin naman ang namutawi sa mukha niya. "That's good. I'm glad you were able to talk to him. I think facing him knowing everything that happened recently was a commendable act from you. I'm so proud of you."

"Thank you. . . Can I get a kiss now?"

He chuckled. His arm was resting behind my back on the chair, he put his hand behind my back. "If I could in front of these people, I would. . . But I guess, you'll get it later." Ngisi pa nito.

I know Austin has still reservations about his gender. Wala namang problema iyon sa akin. I wouldn't force him to come out of the closet when in fact, I should be honored in some way because I think I was the only one he told me about it. So, I cannot blame his choices and preferences, but it was nice to know that he likes me.

If I had known about that before I hooked up with Quentin, I would never have pushed myself to Quentin.

Later on, while we were waiting for the others to come, two drinks were served at our table. Mabilis na kinausap ni Austin ang server dahil wala pa naman kaming ino-order na inumin. We even questioned ourselves kung um-order nga ba kami pero sa pagkatatanda namin ay nagpa-reserve lang naman kami ng table.

"These complimentary drinks came from the woman over there." The server leaned to us to tell us who gave it to us and pointed to the woman who was wearing a maroon halter dress that was swinging just above her knees. "Enjoy your drinks, sir."

When the server left us, the woman he was pointing to came over to our table and forced herself to sit between me and Austin, putting her arms above our shoulders. 

"How are you, guys?" she asked, smiling at both of us. "Do you want some fun? I can take both of you together. . . I can do that. . ."

The next thing I knew, she was kissing Austin who seemed surprised by what she did. He wasn't giving it back to her, but she was so into it. She left him so confused when she parted her lips away from him and then turned to me. I was about to leave my seat when she kissed me, too. Literal na napadilat ang mata ko sa ginawa niya at bahagya ko pa siyang naitulak palayo sa akin.

"I'm sorry I can't do this. . ." paliwanag ko. "I'm gay, this is just weird for me. . ."

"Oh, I see. . . What about you?" pagtukoy naman niya kay Austin.

"I am Bisexual," he said, admitting it.

"Oooh," she swooned. "So, pwede? Are you both in a relationship? Maybe you can watch us. . . Uh, fuck?" She looked at me as if she was asking for permission to do so.

"Hey, miss, I'm sorry, but I can't. . ." ani Austin at siya na mismo ang nag-alis ng kamay ng babae na nakapalibot sa balikat niya. "Thanks for the offer, but we're both good. And thank you for the drinks, we appreciate it. It's just not our thing. I'm sorry."

She smirked. "That's alright. . . Have fun tonight, darling. . ."

Nang umalis siya ay sinundan ko siya ng tingin pabalik sa pwesto niya kanina. Nang bumalik ang tingin niya sa amin habang nakatingin ako ay nag-flying kiss pa ito sa akin. I just smiled at her and put my attention back to Austin.

"Was she a local?" I asked.

Austin shook his head. "I don't think so. . . It doesn't look like she was a local. Probably not. Anyway, that offer was kind of crazy. I didn't expect she would kiss me."

"I did, too," I uttered and wiped my lips with the back of my hand. "I didn't kiss a girl for a long since my one-month girlfriend back in High School so that made me really uncomfortable."

"Yeah, me, too. . . But have you tried?" he asked.

Napakunot ang noo ko. "Tried what?"

"Threesome?"

I pressed my lips together when he clarified it to me. Hindi naman maririnig ng ibang tao ang sinabi niya dahil malakas pa rin ang tugtugan sa loob ng club. I couldn't even him properly so I wasn't trying to read his lips as well. 

"Do you really want the truth?" I asked and just shrugged off.

"Hey, guys!" Xander came surprising us to our table. "What's up?"

Hindi ko na siya nasagot nang dumating na silang lima. Para ba akong nakahinga nang maluwag nang hindi ko sagutin 'yong tanong ni Austin. It was so awkward to admit that, pero alam niya ngang nakipag-sex ako kay Quentin. I told him that because that was the time na wala pa akong ideya na may gusto pala siya sa akin. If I knew, maybe I wouldn't tell it to him.

Keegan and Marina have been sweet as hell since we all witnessed their surprise engagement. Hindi 'ko lang alam kung makasasama ako sa wedding nila, but they were inviting me to be a part of it. I wasn't even sure if I really deserved it, but they made me feel like I belonged to this family.

Keegan was the one who went to the bar counter to order some of our drinks. Left at the table, they asked where we went to. Napatingin pa ako kay Austin at unang pumasok sa isipan ko na 'wag na lang sabihin, pero naisip ko rin naman na deserve rin naman nila malaman. They've been there with me since I came to the island.

"We went to dinner with my ex-boyfriend," I said, almost shouting dahil hindi nila marinig ang boses ko. They were surprised to know it. "But, it was a good dinner. Nothing bad happened. Everything's fine. . ."

"Happy to know that, Danny!" Kady said, cheering for me. "When you said you were to get away with your city life and from your past relationship, that was so ironic you met him again here, but brave of you to face him!"

"That's what I told him," Austin said. "Look who's moving on now?"

"Who's moving on?" Keegan asked when he came back shortly after he ordered some drinks.

"Danny!" Marina said, pointing to me. "He met his ex at dinner and he was moving on!"

"Oh, let's cheer for that, Danny! But let's wait for the drink to come. . . Oh, there you go! Grab your bottles and let's cheer for Danny!"

When we grabbed our bottles of beer, they all tossed it for me. I couldn't be happier seeing how these people come to make me feel so alive, happy, and valid. 

The night went wild for the rest of us, we didn't actually spend most of the time at the table when we joined the crowd on the dance floor. Maraming foreigner sa paligid. Halos lingon ko sa bawat maiikutan ko ay hindi imposible na wala akong makitag foreigner. They were all so friendly though. They smiled at me, some even danced with me. Pero no'ng makita nila na nakikisayaw ako sa kanila ay bigla kong naramdaman na may humila sa akin at si Austin lang pala 'yon.

"Who permitted you to dance with someone else?" he asked, whispering those to my ears so I could hear clearly.

Nang tingnan ko siya ay napaismid na lamang ako. "I didn't get a memo that I wasn't allowed to do so. . ." bulong ko naman sa kanya.

"Do you want to leave?" he asked.

"Now?"

"Yes," he said, nodding his head, and seeing my face to see if I was on board with his plan. "Do you want to?"

"If I'm going to leave with you, sure. . . I don't mind."

"Then let's go. . ."

"What about them?"

"Don't worry about them," he said.

We scurried our way out from the crowd and found our way out. As soon as we left the club, I asked him where we were going. Hindi naman niya ako sinasagot kung hindi ay sumampa siya sa motor at inalalayan akong makasakay sa likuran niya. Nang paandarin niy ang motor ay nanghuhula pa rin ako kung saan kami pupunta pero saglit lang din nang ma-realize ko na pauwi na kami sa bahay. Nang makarating kami ay ipinarada niya ang motor saka niya kinuha ang kamay ko. 

There was a hint of something in his smile that I couldn't even read. When we got inside the house, we went to our bedroom, and he closed the door behind us. As he stood in front of me and I kept thinking innocently about what we would do, my heart started to pound so crazy I couldn't think clearly.

"Austin. . . What. . ."

"Can I kiss you?" he asked. "You asked for it. . . Can I kiss you now?"

I swallowed so hard that when I tried to speak, there were no words that came out of me. Dahan-dahan na lamang akong napatango sa kanya hangga't sa mabilis siyang lumapit sa akin. His hands cupped my face and his lips quickly met mine. He pressed his lips so hard against mine that I immediately lost my breathing and gasped for air when he parted away for a moment to look into my eyes.

At that moment, I was totally surprised by what he did, but if this was what he wanted, I would give it to him—like every bit of me. I kissed him back and our tongues came into action then our hands came searching for sensation with our bodies. We waltzed until we fell down into bed while he was on top of me. My hands were wrapped around him while his hands were on my neck making me so good.

As his kisses traveled from my lips down to my neck, I couldn't help but break hard moans. I didn't know he was so good with that. He lifted up his shirt and then he did it as well. The next thing he did was lick my nipples. When I tried to reach for him and grabbed his crotch, I bit my lower lip when I felt him so hard under his shorts. I could feel it pulsating so I kept rubbing it.

"Can I?" I asked together with a moan.

He looked up at me as he was below me. He didn't give me an answer, but we switched places and removed his shorts then finally pulled his underwear down where his rod came sturdy right into my face. I grabbed it with my hand and it wasn't even enough to cover all the shaft. I made him lay down on his back on the bed and spread his spreads to sniff him down by balls. There was so much manly scent in it that when I licked it, he let out a groan. He wasn't that hairy, but that tickled him. The tip of my tongue run through his ball to his shaft until I reached the tip of his cock that was leaking precum. I tasted it, and it was so fucking good. I was looking up at him when he looked at me then I took him mouthful. He put his head back down and I could hear him hiss and moan while he was going deeper into my mouth.

I played with his cock with my tongue while I also jerked it with my hand. All the sensation he could feel was very present from the way I did it to him because the next he found me, I removed my shorts and underwear and positioned myself to sit on his cock. He put his hand on my leg while his other hand is on his cock positioning it to enter me and when I could feel him slowly inside of me, I was in heaven.

It was like, he popped the cherry in me.

I slowly moved up and down through the length of his shaft, I was doing it for a few minutes until he started thrusting his hips to mine. I let him do that while I found balance as he was rocking me. As soon as he got tired, we switched position again I lay on my back while he was on top of me. He raised my legs putting them over his shoulder and put himself inside of me, thrusting slowly until every thrust he did was getting harder and harder. I couldn't be so loud, but I couldn't help it because it was so good. The kisses he shared with me while he was fucking me. It was unimaginable. It was a fucking heaven.

"Where should I come?" he asked me.

"Are you coming? Are you close?" I asked.

"Yes," he grunted and his thrust got harder and faster.

"Come into my mouth, my face. . . Do it," I ordered him, and just like that, in a quick second, he pulled himself out of my arse and jerked himself off to my face. I closed my eyes when he shoot his cum all over my face and when he was done, I put his cock in my mouth so I could clean the last bit of his liquid. "You're so good. . ."

He laid down next to me so tired, but still found a way to share kisses with me even though my face and mouth tasted like him. We were quiet for a bit then he grabbed some towel and wiped his semen off of my face. We lay down on his bed naked together. He was playing with my hair while my fingers were tracing his v-lines.

Not until we heard some noises downstairs and heard them calling for us. Austin and I quickly picked up our underwear and wore it. We went back to our own beds and acted like we were already sleeping. When we heard footsteps coming into our room followed by a few knocks, we heard a voice calling us.

"Guys. . ." It was Marina. "Oh, they were asleep already. . . Oh, well. Good night. . ."

As soon as she closed the door, I waited for a few minutes until I jumped onto Austin's bed and scooted next to him. He giggled as he put his arms around me. I looked into his eyes and they were glistening. I'm not sure what I was feeling with Austin, but maybe, I have the answer now.

"Good night. . ." he said, planting a kiss on my lips. 

"Good night. . ." I uttered, squeezing myself even more to him. If this is what they called the perfect person at the right time, I don't want to lose it. . . But I know, this wouldn't work for me unless things and decisions changed.

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