(It's been so long y'all ✌️😔)

*4 months later*

I was lounging on the couch. I've been throwing up quite often actually. I think it's just a stomach bug, it couldn't be anything more. I don't want it to be anything more then a stomach bug. A stomach bug that has got me gaining weight and I have not stop throwing up for three months now..

As I lay in bed I replay the nights Cole and I have been spending together. The arousing, pleasurable nights we've been having. My hormones have been off the charts lately and he's in love with it. He doesn't seem to notice my gain of weight. Maybe it's my mind playing tricks on me and I haven't gained anything or he's just being a gentlemen. No.. we're still not together. But I treat it as if we still are. He knows I'm not the girl who can handle sex without feelings. We're always cuddled up to each other afterwards, most of the time he leaves when he realizes I'm asleep but sometimes he stays. And it's a beauty to watch him dress in the morning, and he plants a kiss to her head thinking she's still asleep.

She had work, it was around 6 am while she was sitting on the couch. Being lazy while she could. She got up and put on a pencil skirt and a white button up. She realized she ran out of contacts and she let out a frustrated sigh. "Fuck" she groaned grabbing her glasses, she walked out of her bathroom grabbing her black leather laptop case walking down to her old beat up Chevy.  She definitely missed Cole driving her to work in his fancy cars. She didn't feel like she had to worry about a tire bursting when she was in his car.

She walked into her office. She was now manager and editor at the newspaper she worked out so now she had her own office space. She shut the door closing the blinds and she sat at her desk feeling a bit nauseated. She heard a rhythmic knock at her door. She knew who it was even by his knock. "Come in.." she peeped out. He stepped in slowly locking the door behind him. "What's with the glasses?" He chuckled. "Fuck off.." she groaned "I forgot to order new contacts so I had to go with the sexy secretary look today.. is it working?" He grin grew on his face.

"It would be working more effectively if all your clothes were off and you were sitting on that desk with your legs spread wide open and you trying to keep quiet while I fucking the living hell out of you" I looked up at him.

You damn well know that we had amazing sex on my desk.

He strides over to me as I quickly unbutton my shirt his lips attached to mine in a heartbeat. I felt his tongue flicker against my bottom lip causing a soft moan to escape my lips, the minute my mouth parted he slid his tongue in brushing out tongues together. It was a wet sloppy slow kiss. We hadn't had sex in a week and that was obviously to long for both of us.

I slid my skirt down my legs kicking it to the side. I reached for my heels to unstrap them and he stopped me. "No, Don't. They're sexy" he said gruffly as he attached his lips to my neck sucking on my pulse. I let out a gasp letting my fingers roam through his dark locks. He bucked his hips up against more core and I bit my lip. "Cole- I don't want people to hear" I moaned softly and watched as he fumbled with his belt. "Yeah, well I don't care. I can buy and sell this company with the snap of my finger. Don't worry about anything princess. Relax and let's enjoy this" I just nod and help him pull his pants and boxers down. I can tell he was excited by the way his dick sprung up.

He loved to tease me. He pressed himself against me bucking his his slowly. Teasing my entrance. "C-Cole- for the love of god you do this every time.." he let out an exasperated breath. "Yeah and it gets better and better every time" he laughed quietly. He reached his hand down between us rubbing circles on my clit as he kept teasing my entrance. I felt like I was already going to fall apart. I leaned my head back feeling my core ache with need. "Babe- please-" that nickname sent him. Whenever I called him baby or babe or any pet name it turned him into an animal.

He held my thighs apart slamming into my roughly. I let out a moan laying back on the desk. He grunted moving slow but hitting against my skin hard. Even if he was inside me he still wanted to tease me. "Yes- faster-" I said In-between breaths. He moved his hips faster making sure I felt every inch of him inside me. I felt so full in that moment. He makes me feel so full. I arched my back and he watched as my face was glazed with pleasure. It made him thrust harder into me causing me to yelp in surprise. "Cole- I-I'm- close-" I moan loudly, he dipped his head down to my chest circling his tongue over my nipples and I let out a sob of desperation for him. I felt my core burning and I could tell he was close. The way he was thrusting so hard and so fast meant he was reaching his climax. "Yes- Cole! I'm coming!" I yelled out as he gripped my waist tightly.

I clenched around him pulling him closer and he grunted "fuck- baby.. you're so tight and wet" he sucked on my pulse and spilled into me. He rode out both of our orgasms. I shuddered beneath him rubbing the back of his head which was now laying tiredly on my chest. He movements got slower and sloppier. It was sex like this. The desperate sex of wanting and needing each other that was my favorite with him. He pulled out slowly still panting softly. He pulled his boxers up and helped me off the desk.

We got dressed and I sat down watching him. "Cole.. theres something I need to tell you" I sucked in a breath. He looked at me with a smile "yes, darling?" It broke my heart. If I told him then I think he'd flip out and never talk to me again. "I want to try us again.. I want to be yours.." he looked at me. "Me too.." I smiled happily and hugged him. "I never realized how boring my life was without you.. how much I missed being cuddled at night. And.. how much I loved you" I looked at him I'm surprise. 

"The.. Cole Sprouse loves me?" He laughed quietly and nodded "I've always loved you I don't think I could stop no matter how much I try and push you away.. you always seem to come back, Lili" I jumped on him and hugged him giggling. Maybe my little secret could wait. I doubt he would care.

We exchanged hugs and kisses and we said our goodbyes and told each other we'd see each other later.

After work I walked out to my care grabbing a 10 dollar bill out of My purse. I walked to the convenient store across the street and looked for the best test I could find. I bought a couple and paid for them walking to my car. I set the bag in my back seat driving home.

I walked inside setting my laptop bag down and I quickly headed to my bathroom. I sat down on the stool and peed on the three sticks. Feeling quite embarrassed even if I was alone. I let them sit on the counter and I washed my hands.

I walked to my kitchen making myself a small bowl of cereal and my phone timer dinged. I didn't even want to go near my bathroom.

I pushed myself up from the chair slowly walking in my bathroom. I glanced at the sticks on the counter and picked them up one by one.

"Positive.."

Then the next one.

"Positive.."

Then the last.

"Positive..."

I put them in my sink drawer slowly and walked to my room sucking in a breath.

"I'm fucked."