It felt like it all happened in one moment. Eggsy was assigned the mission, to collect intel on another secret service, get one of the people that was suspected, and leave. So he was not ready for his first major fuck up in the mission, the guy they needed to take was shot. Merlin was assigned to be the regular get away driver, in his van with his equipment and watching Eggsy through his lenses and speaking intel. The mission was going fine, he saw who needed to get. he saw who he needed to get. dead on the ground with three men surrounding now pointing there guns.

"Eggsy fall back" Merlin said in his usual calm voice, he was never worried about the boy in these kind of situations because he knew he could easily get out them. Which is why he was he was surprised when Eggsy froze, staring at the gunman instead of bailing back. Eggsy messed up, he felt his breathe hitch as Merlin spoke again.

"Eggsy, I said fall back. Your objective is dead, you have no reason to risk being there any longer then needed" Merlin glanced at the monitor showing Eggsys breathing and heart rate that was significantly higher than before.

Im so fucked. Eggsy snapped out of his thoughts when Merlin spoke again and so he quickly made his way out of there sprinting to the van. He slowed his steps and came to a complete stop only a few feet from the van. He didn't want to open the doors, he didn't want to go back and see all of there disappointed faces. Before he could turn around Merlin opened the door and pulled Eggsy in, physically Eggsy flinched at the touch but luckily Merlin didn't notice. Eggsy took a seat in the back by the doors, while Merlin got in the drivers seat. Eggsy wasn't talking.

"It wasn't your fault he was killed, we were given bad intel. This happens sometimes don't get hung up over it, ok?" Merlin tried to come off sympathetic, not really working but hey, he tried.

Merlin glanced back at Eggsy as he did not answer, all Eggsy did was give a simple nod of acknowledgement and kept his eyes locked on the floor. It was silent the whole ride back to the Tailor shop, once they arrived and Merlin went to turn back and talk, Eggsy was already gone.

"What's up with him" Merlin spoke, obviously to himself

Eggsy was far gone by now, he didn't want them to hurt him. All he could associate failure with is pain, that's what being abused as a child did to you. As well as Dean was never forgiving with his punches. Moms upset, pain. Daisy's crying, pain. Don't have enough money, pain. Cant afford more alcohol, pain. He admits, in some situations yes he deserved to be hit, but most of the time Dean just beat him just for the fun of beating him. And sooner or later that does a toll on you, especially when it happens so often it becomes a daily activity to hide and tremble in a closet, waiting for the stomping footsteps and banging on the door.

This is why Eggsy always tried to act as good as he can be when on his Kingsman missions. Push away how tired he was, how the bruises and scars on his body still pained him. He felt like if he messed up it would all just turn into the situations with Dean. He didn't want any of that, hed rather shoot JB than disappoint Harry or Merlin. So rather than dealing with any of that, Eggsy had resorted back to his younger self and was hiding in a closet he had found.

Harry and Roxy were all seated at a table, waiting for Merlin and Eggsy to arrive for the mission report, which is why they were confused when only Merlin walked in.

"Where's Eggsy?" Harry was the one to speak first

"Im not sure, the mission didn't go as planned, and was not successful, he looked pretty discouraged. By the time we got back here and I turned around  he was already gone." Merlin spoke looking from Roxy to Harry, seeing if either of them knew anything

There was a silence in the room all of them looking down, trying to figure out either where or why he would of done that, until Roxy made a soft sigh noise

"He's probably in a closet" Roxy spoke up, earning two weird looks from Merlin and Harry

"He used to tell me stories of when he was younger, his father used to beat him daily for anything and everything that went wrong, so he hid in a closet most of the time" Roxy spoke clenching her fist

"Eggsy thinks were going to abuse him? Im ashamed he'd think of us that way" Harry spoke while looking at the ring on his pinky finger

"I don't think either of you understand how much Eggsy looks up to you guys, he'd rather shoot JB than disappoint either of you, I don't think he wants to take any chances" Roxy spoke looking back and forth between the two men, who then shared there own look

Eggsy had his back pressed up against the closet wall, it was small, just the way he liked it, being able to see all of his surroundings at once incase anyone was coming. He had his hands clenched to his shirt and he was curled up, sweating and breathing heavily through his nose. His breathe hitched when he heard the footsteps of someone walking. He straighted his back fully against the wall,

"Eggsy?" someone called through the door, he couldn't make out who it was, he dragged his hands up to his face and went to cover his ears to block out the voice in hopes of them going away

"Eggsy" someone called again, he heard Dean, it sounded like Dean, that's all he could make out, Deans yelling voice, yelling his name, screaming. There was a pounding at the door, it was more of a knock but Eggsy hallucinated it as a loud banging noise, like back then. There was the sound of the click of the lock and the light spilling through the door as it began to open. There was a figure standing outside the door, Eggsy was hyperventilating at this point. The figure bent down into Eggsys view, Harry, Eggsy took a breathe sounding as if he had been drowning moments before.

"Eggsy, its ok" Harry was pushing some of the objects in the closet aside to get to the younger boy, he looked at Eggsy with the light coming in the door that made the swolleness of his eyes more noticeable, from crying before. Harry ran his hand through Eggsys hair, causing him to flinch back at first but falling into his touch, cupping his proteges cheek in his hand he pulled Eggsy into a hug, resting the lads head in the nook of his neck and rubbing his back.

"Its ok Eggsy, no one is going to hurt you here"