Yuki sat up on top of the clock tower. Her mission had been surprisingly easy. Just kill a rather large Heartless in Neverland. She had noticed a group of Somebody's while fighting. They were goofing around looking for treasure. Yuki couldn't help but smile at them, despite how rude the red-haired boy in green was being to the rest.

While sitting alone Yuki's mind wandered. Her eyes scanned the horizon, though she didn't take in any details. She was too wrapped up in her own thoughts. Something wasn't making sense to her.

If Heartless and Nobody's couldn't feel, why did it seem like they could? If you needed a heart to feel any sort of emotion, why did it seem like they could feel anyway? Was it really just acting or was there something more? Yuki didn't remember her human life to judge if she felt just like she did then, but she knew there didn't seem to be any difference between her and her friends and the Somebody's she had seen. What made everyone think they couldn't feel?

"Hey, Yuki." A voice said bringing Yuki out of her thoughts. She glanced over her shoulder to see Xion smiling at her. Yuki jumped up and rushed over to Xion. She hugged Xion tightly earning a surprised gasp from Xion. "Why are you hugging me?" Xion asked. Yuki stepped back, releasing Xion and shrugged.

"I don't know. I was just worried about you is all." Yuki replied. She sat back down with Xion beside her. Xion looked at her with a soft smile.

"Don't we need hearts to worry?" Xion asked. It might have been Yuki's imagination but she sounded bitter.

"That's what they say. But I don't think so." Yuki said. "I know that I feel something with you guys. That's all that matters." She sighed heavily. Xion looked at her for a minute in thought before turning away with a small smile.

After a few minutes, Roxas came up with X and Y laughing. Y's face was red while X was smirking. Roxas was smiling as he glanced up at Yuki and Xion.

"Hey Yuki, hey Xion." Roxas greeted, taking his seat beside Xion. X and Y dropped down beside Yuki. Y crossed her arms and pouted. X pat her shoulder still smirking.

"Hey, Roxas. What happened?" Xion replied looking to Y in question. Roxas just laughed looking at the twins. X's smirk only grew.

"Y accidentally called me Ven. Apparently, she used to have a friend that looked just like me and that was his name." Roxas explained. Y's pout grew as she looked away, her face turning an even brighter red. X laughed at her embarrassment.

"I won't deny he does look like Ventus, but I'm surprised you messed up before I did," X said. Y shoved him playfully. X glared at her. "It's all cool, just completely ignore the fact you're on top of a damn clock tower and continue to shove your friends, smart one." He snapped playfully.

"You're my brother." Y said. X rolled his eyes.

"That doesn't make it ok." X said. Y laughed.

"Yes, it does." Y replied. The entire group burst into laughter at the look X gave Y. Y just shrugged, obviously proud of herself. "Payback." She whispered so only X could hear her. He glared at her but eventually looked away.

"I wonder where Axel's is." Xion said.

"I dunno." Yuki said thinking. She looked at the others who all shrugged.

*<3*

Day 194- Feelings,
I'm starting to think that we can feel without a heart. Maybe it's all in my mind but, the Somebody's haven't seemed to notice that we can't feel. And I dunno, how can I know a feeling I don't remember? It's really starting to confuse me.

*<3*

Yuki sighed nervously glancing around the Olympus Coliseum. She really didn't want to do this mission. Another shot at turning the hero into a Heartless. But this time she wasn't allowed to fail. She was being babysat.

Yuki had tried to think of another way to word it but had come up with nothing better. That's what it was. She was assigned to come here with Aysui, who rarely went on trivial missions like this. It showed in the more elites face that she was annoyed with having to watch Yuki.

"You know the goal. If you fail this time, well, it won't be tolerated." Aysui said. Her voice cold and made Yuki very nervous.

"Yes, ma'am." Yuki said quietly looking at her feet. She missed the smirk that appeared on Aysui's face. The blonde Heartless turned away walking into the arena. Yuki followed after her silently, still looking to the ground.

In the arena the hero from before was training. The little goat man was yelling out advice that didn't seem too helpful. Aysui smirked entering the stands. It only took a short while for the goat man to notice the two.

"Hey, uh, ladies. This here is a private training session, the games aren't for a while now. Why don't you come back then?" The goat man called. Aysui ignored him, her eyes narrowed at the hero. The hero glanced up at them, his eyes quickly meeting Yuki's.

"Phil, I wouldn't mess with them." The hero said cautiously stepping towards the goat man. The goat man scoffed.

"Come on Herc, don't tell me you actually think these girls are capable of taking you down?" Phil said. The hero continued to look at Yuki gravely.

"The smaller one nearly did the last games." Herc replied. Phil looked at him quickly then back to the girls. He repeated the action trying to uncover Herc's meaning. Aysui turned her glare to Yuki who cowered from her glare.

"You were spotted?" Aysui asked, venom seeping from her voice. Yuki pulled away from her even more.

"I didn't mean to be. He just picked me out of the crowd. I'm sorry." Yuki said softly. She was afraid of the elite who stood beside her. She had heard rumors she could be turned into a Shadow by the more elites. She didn't think she'd enjoy being a Shadow.

"Useless." Aysui snapped at her. She took a few steps towards the two in the arena. They stepped back, sensing the cold power that radiated off of her. She pushed her red bang away from her green eyes and snapped her fingers. Electricity jumped off her fingers as a vortex of shadows appeared behind her. Yuki gasped watching a huge Heartless step out of the vortex. It's front half looked like that of a lion with a blue Heartless emblem outlined in red on its forehead. It's back half was that of a goat with a snake as its tail. "Feeding time Chimera." Aysui said softly.

Herc stepped forward to fight the Heartless, while Phil ran away from it yelling for Herc to attack. The Heartless moved in a flash, so fast only a blur was seen. In seconds Herc was pinned to the ground by its massive front paw. It roared loudly as Aysui laughed.

Yuki covered her ears and closed her eyes. She didn't want to see this happen. It was wrong.

"Stop it!" Yuki yelled. Aysui turned to her looking in shock. The Chimera that had been ready to devour the heroes heart froze looking to the young ravenette. "Just stop it and leave him alone! He didn't do anything to us!" Yuki cried out.

The Chimera stepped away and vanished as quickly as it had appeared. Its snake tail tucked down between its legs. Aysui watched the Chimera leave then glanced at Yuki with a disgusted look.

"Spoiled brat," Aysui said before summoning a corridor of darkness and leaving the world. Yuki glanced up to see Herc and Phil staring at her in shock.

"They left?" Yuki asked, uncovering her ears. Herc nodded, still looking at her in shock. Yuki seemed to realize she was alone with unfamiliar people just then. She stepped back looking for her escape.

"Why did you decide to help?" Herc asked. Yuki looked at him in surprise. She studied him for a minute with wide eyes. It reminded the hero of a deer caught in bright lights. Yuki finally looked away, looking at her feet.

"The hero always wins." Yuki muttered. Herc looked at her in even more surprise. If she was controlling the Heartless it would be strange for her to think like that. But she was none the less. Herc smiled at the girl.

"Thanks. But, why were you with that woman?" Herc asked. His voice was gentle, trying not to frighten the young girl.

"I, I messed up the last time, so she was supposed to make sure I didn't fail." Yuki answered. Herc frowned.

"Will you be in trouble?" He asked. Yuki shrugged.

"I don't know. Probably." She answered. "But I have to go back." Herc nodded, still trying to work out the young girl before him. She was different but still seemed to be just a kid. Trapped where she didn't want to be because there was nowhere else to go.

"Good luck. If you ever need anything you can stop by here. We'll help you out." Herc offered. Yuki nodded slowly watching him cautiously. She summoned a dark corridor and left through it. Her mind raced as she returned to the castle.

Why had she made the others stop? Why did she think it was wrong? Why did she fight what was supposed to be instinct? It didn't make sense. If Heartless had no hearts and no emotion what made Yuki feel sick at the thought of hurting others? What made her care so much about Somebody's she had no connection with?

*<3*

Up at the clock tower, the twins sat together. No one else had arrived yet. Y kicked her feet back and forth childishly like always. X had his head angled down, his eyes closed. Y glanced at her brother curiously. He didn't react to her gaze though he did notice it.

"Hey X." Y said. She waited for his reply patiently, knowing he had heard her but was debating on answering or not.

"No," X replied. Y rolled her eyes, not at all surprised by her brother's decision.

"You didn't even hear my question." Y said with a grin. X shrugged still not looking up. Y sighed. She decided to ask her question anyway, despite her brother's unwillingness to answer. "What was Vanitas like when he wasn't trying to kill one of us?" X opened his eyes and looked at Y confused. He blinked a few times, keeping his gaze calm.

"Why the sudden interest?" X asked. Y shrugged calmly.

"You always get mad when I just talk like he's nothing but evil. I figured, maybe if I knew about him in the way you did I wouldn't do that and you'd stop getting mad." Y said looking away from X. X smirked turning away.

"I don't want to talk about it right now. Ask me again another time." X said. Y opened her mouth to argue but was cut off by Xion and Roxas arriving. There was a casual exchange of greetings but not much more. Axel arrived last.

"Hey." Axel greeted as he sat down. He looked at the group and frowned. "Where's Snowy?" He asked. X and Y looked at each other and shrugged.

"Weird. She hasn't been showing up a lot recently." Roxas commented. He frowned looking at the ground. There was silence for a moment but it was broken by Xion.

"Axel, X, Y," Xion said gaining their attention. "You all have been to Castle Oblivion, right?" She asked.

"Yeah." Y answered while the other two nodded.

"What's it like?" Xion asked.

"Confusing and a pain in the ass." X answered. Y elbowed him with a glare.

"It's just a pretty big castle. Nothing special." Y said still glaring at X. X rolled his eyes at her reply. He muttered under his breath saying something about except for the stupid cards.

"It's a research facility usually." Axel explained. Xion nodded, frowning.

"You get sent there a lot." Roxas noted, looking to Axel. Axel shrugged calmly.

"Why don't Roxas and I ever get sent there?" Xion asked. Y frowned to herself glancing at X. X met her gaze and gave a slight nod. He noticed it too. Xion was up to something and Castle Oblivion was involved.

"They probably just don't need you there." Axel said. The tone of his voice gave away he didn't want to have this conversation. X and Y could both tell this probably wouldn't end well. Xion nodded and suddenly stood up.

"I'm going to head back." She announced. Before she could leave, however, she began to sway on her feet. She fell forward, nearly falling off the tower. Roxas reached forward and caught her before she fell too far. He pulled her up.

"Xion? Are you alright?" Roxas asked. X stared at him in disbelief.

"She just nearly fell off a clock tower, do you think she's alright?" X asked sarcastically. Y glared at him once again.

"One more word out of you and I will push you off this clock tower." Y threatened. X shrugged innocently. It wasn't uncommon for Y to tell him such things.

"I'm fine." Xion said sitting up. There was a moment of silence. No one said anything as they tried to think of a way to break the awkward silence now enveloping the group.

"I got it!" Axel said suddenly. Everyone turned to look at him surprised. "Next vacation let's all go to the beach." There was another silence as the others took in Axel's words.

"Xion just nearly fell off the clock tower, and your suggesting we go to the beach. I think you need to sort out your priorities Axel." X said in disbelief. Y nodded in agreement.

"I think it's a great idea," Roxas said. "What you about Xion?" He asked. Xion gave a small smile. It was obvious she didn't mean it.

"Yeah, I guess." She said. X and Y looked at each other and shrugged.

"We'll run it past Yuki when we see her." Y said. X nodded in agreement.

*<3*

Day 224- I'm not sure,
It's been a while since something noteworthy has happened. But today I was sent to Olympus Coliseum with Aysui. I panicked halfway through the mission and somehow made Aysui leave before it was over. I really don't know what's going on. I'm not sure if it's true we can't feel, because I know the idea of hurting someone scared me.
I didn't make it to the clock tower today. Hope I didn't miss anything important.