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"True love is selfless. It is prepared to sacrifice." - Sadhu Vaswani

The darkness once again welcomed me with open arms, hugging me in a tight grip. The earthy smell of rain-soaked ground hit my senses with an undenying force. The stars shined brightly in the sky as it flickered with hope.

The silence within the darkness roared loudly as I tried to steady my racing heart. A small droplet of water traveled over my cheek, that's when I realized that I am crying. The silent tears drew my emotions out of me, begging me to comply with its demand.

Just let it all go, just breath and give in to the emotions you've hidden this past week. How could I?

Denying that something broke me inside is better than facing the consuming spiral of disaster.

The light shined brightly within the silent darkness, it was out of reach, but still, it drew me in. It shined with so much hope, maybe I'll get to be with her now?

The thought of sweet little Alea put a smile on my face. The tears started to sting in my eyes as I thought of her. They flew out of my eyes like a dam wall, breaking with impact.

Within the emptiness of wherever I am, I felt at home. The familiar door that leads to the light appeared in the distance. The tiny, figure of Alea stood in front of the door, too far away to reach, but close enough to see.

"Do you remember that day, the day the witches attacked you in the shower?" Ella asked within me. Her voice filled the void that seemed to be lingering in my mind. For a moment I thought I was alone, the state of my sanity in question, but here she is. Reminding me of how many times I've been a mess.

"Yes." I choked out, but then it hit me, she was wrong. She said that it was a boy, Alea is clearly a girl.

"I was not wrong," she said again, cutting me from my thoughts. Her matter of fact tone was starting to stir within me. Something rattled her, she was scared. Ella was never one to show any form of fear, she's the stronger part of me.

The moment the realization of what she said hit me I felt my heart beat a little faster as the adrenaline shot through my body. The hot tears started to flow in constant rivers of sorrow. The surreal feeling of confusion slowly faded.

I don't think I've ever cried so much. I felt like I've been hit by a shit load of emotions, all at once. Raging out of me like a spitfire, burning everything in it's parth.

"There will always be light, mummy." I felt the tiny hands, barely able to reach my stomach as she tried to hold onto me. I don't know where she came from, but I was so happy to see her sweet little face again.

Just when I wanted to talk to her, she was gone. Like a cruel joke was played, she was taken, again.

"You still have him, Monica, we still have him. If you give up now, we'll lose him." Ella, once again said, firmly.

My hands trembled as I reached for my stomach, trying to take in the information at hand. I felt like I was in a dream, but what happens when I wake up and this was nothing but my imagination? A dream that will never be real?

"If you don't snap out of this, he will die along with you." Ella shouted at me, her low growl did not go unnoteced as she huffed with irritation.

"Xerxes," I whispered. That is who Alea talked about, he tried to help his little sister. Oh, goddess, why did this happen.

Ella did not answer me, instead, she did what she did best, leave me to deal with all of this, alone.

Time stood still as I stood in the abses of darkness. Alone in thought.

Within moments a second door appeared, this one filled with a thousand different spiraling colors. The swirling sensation sent a shiver down my spine, radiating hope and a sense of familiarity.

The choice seemed simple enough as I looked at the two doors, stay or go. How could the choice be so difficult? What if this was a dream and none of this is real?

Oh, but what if it's real?

Placing one step in front of the other the silhouettes of the doors became more clear, the closeness of the choice I had to make was like a blade cutting into my flesh.

One door let to Alexander, Lily, and Xerxes, the other led to Alea.

How do I choose? I just cant.

The thoughts traveled through my mind like a bullet flying towards its target. No matter how I plan this out, someone will be hurt, I don't want any of them to feel as if I abandoned them. I never want them to feel rejected, alone, and like I did not care. The thought of leaving them, then being with her, and visa versa was just too much.

I love both my pups, I love Lily like my own, and Alexander, he...

My heart felt crushed and out of place, I would give anything to have all of them with me, together. I don't want to go and leave her here, I don't want her to feel as if I don't love her.

Why does life have to be so cruel?

I don't want Alexander, Lily, or Xeres to feel hurt and broken because of me. Everything inside of me felt shattered, I've never felt so lost in my life. I took a deep, sharp breath and clenched my eyes shut. The choice to go, be with her of earlier seemed to drag out my heart even more.

The darkness was starting to suffocate me as I felt the anxiety creeping up on me.

You can't be selfish.

"Mummy." Her voice held so much courage as she called me, I felt her arms wrap around my leg. My heart felt warm, at peace with her so close. How could I ever leave her?

"You need to go back to them, mummy. They need you, I'm safe with Luna, I promise." She said, bravely, not an ounce of sorrow in her voice. Still, that does not mean I can just up and go on her.

I crouched down to face her, cupping her face between my hands, I don't know how it's even possible to have this conversation with her, but still. I needed this, I need her.

Her hands reached for my face as she returned the gesture. "Mummy, you're not abandoning me. I want you to be happy, mummy."

A single tear traveled down her face as I wiped it away with my thumb. The redness of her eyes enhanced her blue eyes even more.

"I'll always be in here-" she said, pointing to my heart. "-and you, will always be here-" she pointed to her heart.

"I love you mummy, but you need to take the door that leads to daddy, this is how it should be." I pulled her little body closer, embracing her in a tight hug. A hug that held emotions that no one would ever understand, a hug that would inspire a thousand dreams.

"Okay, sweetheart," I said, taking in her sent. She smelled like roses and a hint of mint. I closed my eyes for a second and she was gone. My eyelashes fluttered together like I was just awakened from a dream, still, I missed her presence.

I stood up and took a step towards the colorful swirls. Tiny sparks shined brightly as the enhancing colors danced together, like a rainbow of hope.

The door pulled me in and a loud sound of the door closing echoed within the colorful space.

The steady sound of a heart monitor filled the underlying silence, in constant rhythms. With every pound in my chest, the monitor beeped in harmony.

The brightness in the distance started to pull me forward, like it was calling me back to a familiar space, back home. The brightness kindled my soul as I was drawn forward.

*******

The pull towards the light at the end of the pathway felt like forever, stepping into the light I felt as if I was reaching out of water. A cold shiver ran through my body, tingling every sensation as my eyes shot open.

The thirst scratched my throat as I woke up, but the reality of everything had me feeling numb, the need for fluids forgotten.

I quickly blinked my eyes and searched to room for the one person I needed the most. Instead, I found Lily. She was wrapped around my body like a butterfly in a cocoon. The light blue material of my hospital gown was clenched between her tiny hands, her little body shifted as she pulled me closer. A wave of comfort stirred within me, calming my heart.

She is safe.

Scruffing footsteps in the hall drew closer, stopping at my room. The sun beamed through the blue curtains giving the entire room a light feeling of safety. The footsteps started moving again, until it stopped beside me.

The sound of a chair creaking signaled that someone sat down. I didn't recognize the scent at first, causing my blood freeze, like a shockwave my head snapped towards the chair.

"Alpha Marcus," I croaked out, my voice hoarse from the lack of fluids. His hair was a mess and quite honestly he looked like some kind of hobo.

He looked at me with do much affection and love, that I felt my heart reach towards him, just a little. I've never had a father that cared. Do I have one now?

"You're awake." Alexander's emotional voice echoed through the silent room. I could hear the pain in his voice, his blue eyes held onto mine as we silently spoke.

All it took was that one moment as his eyes searched mine, I gave him a slight smile and felt the pain in my chest move towards my eyes, drawing out my own emotions.

A soft whimpering sob escapes my mouth as I whispered, "Im sorry."

Hi there. Well. Here it is. The second last chapter.

I do hope you liked it. I love Alea so much, I just had to bring parts of her back here.

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