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"Sometimes you don't realize your own strength until you come face to face with your greatest weakness."

Monica POV

Do you know what it feels like to have your heart ripped from your chest? The feeling that no matter what you do, fate is against you. Life is nothing but a game, one you chose to play. 

What if in the end, you end up losing? Will it be worth it? Worth the pain?

I don't think anyone would ever have an answer, at least not me. 

When it hurts, that's when you know that it was real, that it was true. It's when that place in your heart, that part you hide away from almost everyone, comes to life. 

That place can also be your weakness, your downfall, and your worst enemy.

For a moment my thoughts got the better of me as my eyes landed on the document. Taking me back, back to when it started.

"We need to get a handle on this!"  William shouted across the hospital hall.

"You need to relax, Monica. Alexander will take care of them and my orders were to keep you here, safe." William said, his annoyance with me was as clear as daylight.

I woke just after Alexander left, but it feels like hours already, I can't reach him and now I am starting to get worried.

I just need him to be safe.

"I am not a baby that needs to be looked after, William," I shouted back at him.

"No, you're not. Now you listen to me! Lily is safe with Bella and Cole, you are here safe and I'll make sure the other patients are safe as well. This place is surrounded by our top fighters."

"That's the problem!" I said my voice trembling as the tears started to creep up on me.

The moment of silence was short-lived as the Doctor came into the room.

"What's the problem now?" William spat out. He was in a dark mood, but he ain't seen nothing. I'll show him a darn mood.

"Out. Now, William." I demanded.

"No," he said, his eyes flashing black, showing me his wolf.

"William! I don't know what your problem is, but this is a private matter and I don't think you need to be in here?" I said softly. I don't need him to hear how I fucked up.

"Alexa-"

"I don't care. out," I cut him off, "this is my personal space, William. Please, just give me five minutes with the Doctor." I pleaded with him

"Fine." He mumbled in annoyance. Fuck, what is his dam problem?

William left the room and then Doctor Green smiled at me. His smile was all sparkly and full of happiness. 

Great, at least someone is happy here.

"The results, Luna," he said, handing me a brown folder. "It's all in there. I tried to tell the Alpha Alexander, but he had to leave."

There it is, the moment of truth. Somehow, I can't bear myself to open it. My fingers traced over the edge of the folder, somehow I thought this would be easier. We have known the facts, we have known the possibility, the chances, and the odds.

Still, it was just too much to bear the thought that I failed, I let everyone down.

"I'll give you a moment." The man in white said, closing the door behind him.

My five minutes were barely over when William opened the door. He peeked into the room, his eyes locked with mine and his expression softened. "So, what did he say?" He asked.

"Nothing, just handed me the folder."

"So, what did the folder say then?" he asked, stepping into the room.

"Don't know," I responded, truthfully. I don't think I want to know. Not knowing is better than knowing, right?

"Oh," he said sitting at the end of the bed.

"I... I'm scared, and I want Alexander to... well, be here when I open it, I know it-" my sentence was cut short by a loud crash, the room started to smoke and William was on his feet in seconds, storming out of the room.

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"Monica, we need to go. Now." William said, shaking my shoulders. Shit, I must have zoned out.

The crashing sounds of broken glass traveled through the hospital hitting my room with a shattering sound.

"What the fuck is going on?" I asked confused.

"Well, that's not very ladylike, now is it, Luna Queen." My head snapped towards the familiar voice of Mitch. My entire body felt frozen, not because I was scared of him, I'll never be scared of him again.

"Take another step, Mitch, and I'll cut your head in half," William warned. The warning in his voice was evident as he stood in front of me, covering my body and view of Mitch.

"Move along, Beta," Mitch growled loudly.

"You will have to kill m-" I couldn't let William finish that sentence. I won't allow him to. "Move. Now, William!" I commanded him. I never understood the power of being a Luna, until now. I needed to use it, I need to keep them all safe.

"Monica! Are you fucken crazy! I can't let you- "

"William, stand down. As your Luna, I command you to move away. Now." I said again, I could feel Ella push through, but I needed to control the situation. If I want everyone to be okay.

William gave a warning growl and stepped aside. I could tell it took everything in him to comply with my request.

"Good." Mitch purred.

Fucken sick bastard!

"Come with me, and I'll retreat, I'll leave and stop the attack," Mitch said. My heart started to slam in my chest as he stepped closer.

Again, William growled, his hands clenched in fists as his eyes flashed, showing his wolf.

"William, please," I said softly. At this rate, I need to beg him to just calm the hell down. "I got this."

Mitch stepped closer, his eyes fell on the document in front of me but before I realized it he snatched the folder and gave me a wink.

Asshat!

He opened the folder and for a moment anger washed over me, how dare he? His eyes fixed while reading until he gave me a knowing look.

I could feel my stomach hurl in anticipation. Now he knows, I don't even know, Alexander doesn't even know.

"This should make things much more thrilling." was his only words as he stepped towards me. His body inches from mine as I sat on the bed.

"Stand, now," he said, flashing me his black eyes.

Great, jackass Jack is on display.

"Monica, please, don't," William begged me.

"I have to, for all of you," I said softly.

"If I go with you, you'll leave the pack and kingdom alone?" I asked, showing him my wolf. Ella was relentless, she kept pushing me, she wanted to just kill him. I knew that I need his men to just back off. I need to keep the pack safe, for now, that's all I want.

I just hope Alexander is okay.

As if he knew what I was thinking he responded. "Your mate is alive, for now," he said, gripping me by my hair, he lifted me in one movement to my legs from the bed.

"Come and I'll agree," he growled. He threw the folder across the room and the pages flew in different directions.

"Lie to me, Mitch, and I'll burn you alive." I spat out.

"Monica. You can't do this, this is none of your business. Alexander's orders were clear. This has nothing to do with you. Just don't-" William's words felt like a knife in my side and with that, I snapped at him. I walked toward him pushing him into the wall. My heart pounded in my chest as I looked him in the eyes.

Rage fuming out of me. "How dare you! This is my pack, this makes it my business!" I shouted. His eyes grew wide in shock.

Ha! Who is the walk over now!

"Let's go, Mitch." I spat out. He held my hand in an iron grip and walked me out of the room.

Walking with Mitch felt like I was headed towards my end, at least I knew that now, they will be safe.

I hope so.

He leads me to a secluded part of the hospital. The noise and sound of fighting were long gone as the silence started to overwhelm me.

A bright orange portal appeared at the back of the room, the spiraling waves of magic-making tiny sparks as it drew me closer, calling to my soul.

Weird.

"Well step through together," he said, pulling me towards the strange sparkly portal.

This is it, this is what I wanted. This is the only way to keep those I love safe. Safe from him.

I closed my eyes, trying to steady my rapid heartbeat. I would still feel Alexander, the only good thing about all of this.

He is still alive.

Before I knew it, we went through the portal, I clenched my eyes shut, only to open them in a cell. A dark, gloomy cell that smelled like death.

Great.

"Now, first thing first. Shall we?" Mitch said, the portal disappeared, taking the little light that shined in the cell with it.

A sharp, shooting pain hit me in the stomach, the burning and familiar sensation of silver-coated wolfsbane hit me like never before. I could feel the forceful pressure of the knife, the twisting blade drawing blood.

I refused to show him any of my pain, I tried my best to contain it, to not let it show.

"Gotta get rid of that baby first," he said, pulling the knife out of me, only to hit me again, this time I flinched a bit, I tried to stay on my feet but the pain was just too much to bear, too much to take.

"What?" I choked out, my voice barely above a whisper.

"That fucken baby, it's the first to die. Goddess only knows how the shit survived!" he shouted, pulling the knife out of my stomach.

The confusion was not even a word at the moment. I didn't understand until the realization hit me.

No. No. No. This can't be happening. Not after everything, no, please, please. No.

"You didn't read your file, now did you?" he started to laugh, his evil pure sadistic laugh echoed thought the cell.

Silent tears started streaming down my face, all I wanted was to keep those I love safe, and still, I failed. I wanted this pup so much, I needed this pup. 

Alexander will never forgive me, even if I make it out alive, he will hate me.

Forever.

My legs started to tremble, the loud sound of chains being dragged was the only sound now. Mitch pulled me to the corner, dragging my body, only to tie me up. The burning sensation from the silver chains drew the last bit of strength I had.

"Darling, I'm only getting started," Mitch said, slicing me across the face.

Blood traveled over my eyes, like a river it traveled down my face, drowning me in my own regrets.  

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