"There is never a time or place for true love. It happens accidentally, in a heartbeat, in a single flashing, throbbing moment." ― Sarah Dessen,

Watching her sleep in her little bed was such a peaceful experience. Her tiny body curled up underneath her fluffy blanket, held so much innocence. Her lips were slightly parted as she held onto her favorite teddy bear.

She was not mine, she will never be mine, but I love her like she is. The white walls in her room were covered by grey stickers of wolves, the moon, and a quote reading "Your loved, beyond measure, beyond time."

I placed the storybook back in the bookshelf and took a final look at her, before turning off her light, the only light now in the room was that of her lava lamp.

"Is she asleep?" Alexander asked, standing on the outside of her room.

"Yes," I whispered back, scared that I would wake her.

It's only then that I noticed the two cups in his hands, the smirk on his face made him look extremely handsome. I could not help but smile. For the first time, in a long time, I smiled, a true, genuine smile.

"Let's go, we are having a stay at home, date night," he whispered back at me, looking all proud of himself.

I followed him out of the room, closing the door quietly behind me. Walking down the stairs the entire house was darker than it would normally be.

Once I was in the living room I noticed that candles were the only source of light. A warm and fuzzy feeling traveled through my body as I started to feel the butterflies stir within my stomach. Did he do all of this? and when?

The background music was soft and the words of Jacob Lee's song, Chariot filled the silence that tied everything together.

"Here you go," he said from behind me. I turned around and he gave me a cup of something. "Its Hot Chocolate," he whispered in my ear, sending shivers down my spine.

"Thank you, Alec" I took the cup from him and let the warmth of the cup warm my hands. The moment was bittersweet as we stared into each other's eyes. The unsaid words were enough to say everything we needed to.

"So..." I said, "You did all this?" I asked blushing. No matter what, Alexander made me feel awkwardly in love.

"Yes, but only for you," he responded, wiggling his eyebrows. I could not help but laugh at him, this side of him is so different than the mean Alpha King, known as the ripper.

After taking the final sip of my drink, I placed the cup on the kitchen counter. Alexander placed his hands on my hips, pulling my back into his chest. The feeling of our bodies touching was intoxicating, filling me with lust and desire.

"Dance with me," he whispered into my ear softly.

'say yes!! yes!!' Ella squealed. 'Maybe we'll get some' she purred in my head.

'shut up, Ella' I scolded back, she just wanted to pounce on Alexander, in more ways than just one.

Oh Moon goddess, why did you have to give me such a... Alexander-sexual addictive wolf.

'You were thinking the same!! Don't diss me!' She snapped back at me.

"Uhm... Okay" I said back to him, I could feel the heat spread through my body. Okay, so I was nervous... allot.

He spun me around and pulled me into his chest. His smell was intoxicating, addictive, and heavenly. "Do I make you nervous?" he asked, his eyes sparkling with curiosity.

That was all I needed to go into full-on blush mode. I was just too cough up in being well... nervous. My heart was starting to beat out of control as our eyes held onto the silent conversation.

I quickly let my eyes fell to the floor, trying to get out of the current situation.

He lifted my head with his hand "I see, I do" he said smirking. An embarrassed smile covered my face and he just laughed at me. He was clearly very amused by the current situation. Taking my unspoken words as an answer.

"Y... Yes, you do, Alexander." I responded truthfully.

"And why is that, love?"

"You're going to laugh at me, if I tell you," I said taking a shaky breath.

"Just tell me, I won't. I promise." He said, cupping my face.

There are many moments in life, where I think I could be courageous, but this moment was not one of them. I don't like admitting to what I really feel, not after Mitch. I do know that things are much better and different with Alexander. I love him, so much and he knows that, just not my deepest feelings, that is deeper than just love. I'm just scared that if I admit to my feelings, that I will be crushed.

"Hey, love, look at me," he said. I took a moment to study his face, all I saw was truth and love. "I will never leave you, you were willing to stick with me through hell. There is no way that I will abandon you."

A stray tear fell from my eyes as I held onto my emotions, the best way I could. "Now, tell me," he demanded.

I took a deep and shaky breath and looked him in his eyes. I decided that for this moment, just this moment between us, I would let my walls down. Letting him into my heart.

One time won't hurt...

Would it?

I count the seconds before I finally decide to speak up, to own up to his question. His eyes never leaving me, he was just staring at me.

"You make me nervous because, every time you look at me, it's like a wildfire is lit inside my heart and soul. It's like, I took my very first breath of life. For a long time, even before Mitch my heart stopped, stopped feeling, and stopped caring. I thought, Mitch, being my mate would change that. It didn't. Then I met you, and you made my heartbeat again. You set a fire in my soul and every time I look at you, every time you touch me, every time we kiss, all my emotions, my feelings, they all go into overdrive, like a hurricane inside my body, waiting to explode. Its because what I feel for you, Alec, its much more than you know." I said, my eyes never leaving his. "You are everything to me, Alec, you are the reason, for everything that is good in my life. My heart is tied to yours, with a fragile thread, that gives me life."

The lights came on and William appeared from the doorway in the kitchen. I snapped my head in his direction, eyes fixed on him, not knowing what to feel.

"Chop, Chop. Your parents are demanding to see you, now Alexander. " He said in a serious tone.

I mentally cursed and stepped back from Alexander and his grip around me. This is just my luck, spill your guts out and get interrupted. Pffff. I was really embarrassed that William just heard me spill my guts to Alexander, who was just standing there.

'Just slap him.' Ella demanded

Ignoring Ella I watched Alexander closely, his eyes traveled from me to William and all that he said was "Beta of the fucken year award."

William burst out laughing, the amusing smear on his face was enough to make me want to hit him with a darn cake roller.

'Do they have some sort of code for talking?' Ella asked

'No Idea, Ella.'

He kissed me goodbye and before I could say anything he was gone, with William, to goddess knows where.

I decided to head to bed and when I passed Lily's room I heard a slight sobbing sound, I turned around and walked into her room, putting on the light.

She was holding onto a little teddy bear, crying. My heart ached for her, I didn't know what was wrong, or what I can do to help. What I do know is that I remember crying and feeling alone, when I was little I had no one to help me, I don't know who to talk to, no one to tell me that everything is going to be ok. All I had was insulting words and constant abuse.

I never want her to feel alone.

"What's wrong, sweetheart?" I asked, it must have been only then, that she realized that the lights came on.

"I had a bad dream," she said softly.

"I also have bad dreams, princess. Let me tell you something, I will always do my best to protect you from those dreams." I said honestly. The truth is, I would give my life for Lily. I love her that much, I always will.

She gave me a little smile and I decided that it would be good for her to come and sleep with me. "Would you like to come and sleep with me? Daddy went to see your grandma and grandpa, so it's just going to be me and you tonight."

She jumped off the bed and ran towards me, jumping into my arms, as I crouched down to pick her up.

"Thank you, mummy," she whispered in my ear, holding onto my body like it was something that she never wants to let go of. She must have been really been scared

After getting dressed and putting Lily to bed I grabbed an extra blanket and covered Lily with it.

Before I knew it, she was fast asleep in my arms. My mind still racing from the fact, that I, opened my walls and told Alexander what I did tonight. He didn't even have a chance to respond, oh well there goes that moment...

Without even realizing I was crying, I could feel the tears that were streaming down my face. For most of my life I have held onto my emotions the best way I could, I never truly let anyone into my heart. Tonight as I told Alexander what I felt, I could feel the meaning behind every word I told him. I really am in love with him, much more than I should be.

What will happen if he also leaves me?

How could I have let this happen?

A slight sob escaped my mouth, I quickly covered my mouth with my hand and closed my eyes, trying to stop the emotions that were overflowing out of me. My body was at a point of shaking, scared that I would wake Lily, I got out of bed and walked to the bathroom, closing the door behind me.

Once I turned on the light, I sat on the edge of the bath, allowing my emotions to take over.

Yes, it's strange that something so simple upsets me. Maybe it is, but I've never really known love, I've never been loved in any shape or form, until now, until Alexander.

My birth parents threw me away, Mr. Physical and Mrs. Emotional abused me in ways that I never want to relive, Mitch used me, to the point where he drowned me.

Somehow, the people that I thought were meant to love me, were the same people who broke me apart.

Piece by piece, they took everything I was from me.

The only question I have now was one that scared me the most because I fell deeply in love and became dependant on one person.

Alexander, but the question is;

Will I be enough for him?

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