This chapter is dedicated to Crownsangel67. Thank you for all your support, love and awesomeness. 

Ive chosen two songs for this chapter and honestly I could not pick one. So I decided to split the chapter in two. You can eater listen to the songs to get the feeling I want to create or not. This has been one of the most challenging chapters. I wanted to have this one perfect and sometimes my brain and my writing are on two different planets. 

All my love

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Alexander POV - song of choice above

The sound of machines is echoing through my mind, consuming my life, my thoughts, and everything I do.

I hear the constant beeping of my mate's heart, through a machine...

Over,

and over,

and over again.

Another week has passed, or so they say.

I have never been such a mess in my life. I've lost all control of all situations around me. Me, the King, an Alpha? How can one person have such an impact on my life?

I feel lost and incapable of doing anything other than sitting here, waiting? 

For what?

I'm a prisoner of my own thoughts and regrets. Hoping that she will come back to me, to allow me to be the mate she deserves. Wishful fucking thinking, I know.

All I do know is that I need her; I need her to get better, I need her because Lily needs her, I need her because I want her, I need her because I am not as strong as I thought. 

All I want is for her to come back, to me.

We have seen slight improvements and she has been moved to the hospital of choice. For the time being, Lily and I are staying in the palace, we need and want to be close to her. Not that I have been able to function much.

Since in the care of Dr. Green, her blood pressure is back to normal, and with that her heart rate.  

Katy is still missing, my guards have been searching non-stop for that evil sadist! Luckily, Lily has fully recovered. She is a strong girl, but she has started to withdraw herself from us, not understanding what is going on.

Today she will spend some time with me, here. Seeing Monica and spending time with her will do her good... will do both of them good.

"Alpha.... we are leaving now and will be there soon."  Bella mind links me.  Bella has been blaming herself non stop for the incident with Katy, but none of us saw this coming. Especially me. I did not sense anything that would make one think she was on the dark side. She was locked in a cell, with chains and everything. Her mind and aura were clear of any and everything. 

The door to the room went open and there she stood. My little girl, her lips trembled as she started to cry. One look at Monica and she falls apart crying, I can't blame her, she has become her favorite person, her mother.

I picked her up, "Daddy... when mommy going to stop sleep?" Lily said softly, grabbing onto my shirt. 

"Soon Princess." that's all I could say to her. I did not know what else to say. How can she possibly understand what is going on... Goddess, not even I, the Alpha King understands. 

I placed Lily on the bed next to Monica and she lies next to her, hanging onto her body like she is her lifeline, her beacon of hope. In some way, she is just that, our hope. I have a lot to make up for and I knew it.

I felt a pull on my mind, I blocked all pack members, William, everyone out of my mind when I was here. I will not be bothered here. Not now.

I heard my phone vibrate on the table, I quickly looked at the screen.

William

I answered the phone, not even able to say any sort of greeting, with William on the other side screaming my ear off. "Alpha! We found her. About two hours from the pack border in a warehouse, along with other hunters" 

"Coming." That's all I could say. 

I mind linked Bella to stay with Lily here today and asked two guards to be outside the room at all times.  

Bella was there even before I could say anything to Lily, she has fallen asleep.

"Bella, keep her here until I come back if she wakes before that take her to the palace. I have asked two pack guards to be here at all times. They will keep both of you safe." 

After leaving the room I got outside the hospital and shifted. 

Shit is about to get real.

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I walked through the forest, I can tell that we are near... 

Leaves were covering the forest floor, the silence echoed throughout the land, no one dares to interrupt the sound of the forest, the sound of the silence within. 

As I walked closer towards the warehouse I saw William and some of our guards, warriors, and trackers. Zane is restless, he wants Katy dead and quite honestly so do I.

"Don't kill her, not now, we need to know what she knows and then we can go from there, please," William begged me through our mind link.

I just nodded. How can he just ask me that? 

I growled at him and suddenly birds scattered out of the trees surrounding us, causing William to tremble backward. 

A few other guards came out of the warehouse with Katy, a few hunters, and rogues in custody. They started to load them at the back of a truck, each one handcuffed in silver and wolfsbane. 

I walked towards Katy, the bitch had the biggest smirk on her face, she lifted her head and spat in my face. Then I lost it.

I picked her up by her neck and pressed her against the truck. My one hand around her neck and the other pulling her hair back so that she faces me.

"Killing you, it's going to be my greatest chase!" I told her. Her face started to turn white as she tried to get out of my grip. I let go of her and she falls on the ground. Her body trembling as she tries to breathe.

"This is not the end Alexander," she said laughing. It was not normal, something was off about her. William was the one who then picked her up by her hair and he threw her body into the truck. Her body landed at the back with a loud thud and then she collapsed. The guards closed the doors and locked it.

"take them to the pack prison, lowest ground and each one in their own sell, silver chains on all" I instructed the guards and they left.

For hours William and I tried to find more leads, anything that will point us into the direction to who is involved, or even who is leading this. Wasting hours, we found nothing. This place was just that. A place. No clues, no leads, no scents, fuckin nothing.

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William stopped in his tracks, almost making me walk into him. His body went stiff and his hands started to shake. I walked around to face him as he was not responding when I talked to him. He just stood there. His eyes were pitch black, he looked at me like he was about to tell me something horrid.

"Luna. Monica. She... she. I don't know. They said something is happening. They don't know. the heart monitor, the straight line, she-" William was rambling, but I stopped listening to Luna. I knew. I could feel it in my core. Something was wrong, terribly wrong. 

Before William could finish his sentence I shifted and ran.

Pushing my legs back and forth, I ran, I ran as fast as I could, I jumped over fallen trees and boulders. The cracking sound of the leaves and twigs crushing under my paws filled the silence within the forest. My destination was home, the hospital.  

Flashes of her come and go in my mind, I was coughed in the middle of a living nightmare. Losing someone I pushed away.  I shacked my head, clearing my mind, and forcing my legs to go faster. My body was reaching its utmost limits, but there was no time to feel the pain of pushing yourself over the limit. 

I lost William along the way, I could not sense him, but I knew he will understand. I don't have time to wait for him to catch up. I can't believe this happened the one time I am away from her... maybe because she wanted me to not be there, with her? 

The thoughts that ran through my head scared the crap out of me. I ran a two-hour run in an hour.  An hour of pure hell. 

I shifted and pulled on a pair of shorts I left here before I  went to the warehouse. At this point, I could no longer feel my body. There was only one thing that mattered. Monica.

I stopped in my tracks in front of the hospital door. Suddenly I did not know if I really wanted to know what uncertainties lie within this building.

Zane was busy getting irritated with me and was fighting me for control. Too tired to fight him I gave my body over to him. Sitting in the back seat. Looking at my life through the eyes of my wolf.

"Momma!!" a little voice screamed, crying. I already knew who it was, Lily. Zane rushed to the location where Lily's cries came from. She was with Bella and two nurses and a Dr. 

She was crying her heart out. I could only watch through Zane the sadness that consumed my daughter. My heart clenched and tears started to form in my eyes. I quickly hid my emotions, forcing myself to conceal any for of feelings. I will not show them how week I am.

This just can't be happening.

I slowly put one foot in front of the other, walking towards Lily, Bella, and the others. I could sense the unease and fear of the nurses and the doctor as their bodies stiffened.

Bella wiped her face from all the tears and Lily just sobbed harder when she saw me. 

I did not know why I did not say anything. I was waiting for them to explain, to tell me what is going on and why I was called here, what happened and why they were all in such a state. 

Never could I have imagined how their words would impact me.

"She is gone."

Hi everyone. Here is the long overdue - in my own world chapter. Please vote and comment and thank you all for your support. 

In this chapter I have tried to show a little of Alexander's emotional side. A side he hids so well and keeps locked within himself. I hope that I could portray this in the correct way.

M

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