chapter 23: I loved you before, now love you more

Kian's POV

"I'm sorry, Archie." I apologise after hearing everything that had happened before he left.

"What are you sorry for? You didn't do anything wrong, you don't have to apologise." He mumbles still sticking close to me.

"Everything that had happened was because of me, Archie. If it wasn't for me, my mother wouldn't think of sending you away from me or to get another person in your place. The real reason behind what my mother had done was me. So I have to apologise." I say because, directly or indirectly I'm the reason for what had happened.

"No, Kian. It's not your fault nor mother-in-law's. If she knew I could give an heir, she wouldn't think of what she thought. I already forgave her because she realised her mistake. I don't want you to think about that anymore. If my presence is disturbing you, I'll l-leave." He whispers after pulling away from me.

"You want to leave me again?" I mutter feeling shocked by his words.

"For leaving you and keeping Gia away from you, you can't seem to forgive me nor your anger reduces towards me. You didn't ask me or want me to come here with you in the first place, all you want is Gia." He reasons, looking down as his tears falls onto the marbled floor.

"Is that all you understood!? God! Archie, the main reason as why I was persistent on having Gia with me is you because I know you'll be where she'll be. If I take her with me, you would follow us. That's why I was so determined on bringing her with me. I was never angry at you for leaving me, all I felt was sorrow and grief. I just wanted you to come back to me and I did everything to find you but you were out of my reach. I lost all my hopes and was left alone."

"When I first saw you after these many years, sure I was brought back to those memories and melancholy days. And on top of that I learned I have a daughter whose existence I didn't even know about. After hearing your conversation with Dean, I headed back to my room and while doing that, I was thinking of what to do and how to get you back. Your words rang in my mind, you said she's all you have and you can't leave her. So, I decided if I should have you back, then it's through Gia. I felt she's like the the anchor between the both of us."

"I was only pretending to avoid you because I couldn't just ignore all the pain and suffering I went through. I just needed sometime after seeing you and I thought being a little distinct with you, I would pull myself back together because I didn't want to say or do anything which I regret later." I tell him why I behaved the way I did.

"Y-you mean you forgive me for leaving you and that your aren't angry at me because you still l-love me?" He still queries not fully believing.

"Exactly the same. I don't have to forgive you because I was never angry at you to begin with. And I love you like I did years before, I love you more now." I reply while tears blur my vision.

The next second after those words left my mouth, he grabs my face in both his hands and slams his lips onto mine. My eyes widen at the sudden action and I stay still for few seconds before slowly closing my eyes and kissing him back. I place my hands on his hips before rounding them around his waist and pulling him closer to me as I kiss him back passionately. His hands moves up and drapes around my nape as he fists some of my hair in his palms. Our kiss turns more heated and aggressive as seconds pass by as we connect to one another after so many years.

I have missed this, missed his touch, his feel, his smell and most of all I missed him. All those days without him was hard to live and I was literally living like a corpse without soul. To think I hated him at first and then reached a stage where I can't even live without him, it feels surreal. Now that he's here, with me, I'm not going to let him go.

"I love you, Kian, just like before and more." He whispers against my lips before pulling away from the kiss.

Nodding at him with a smile, I wipe his tears and gently pull him into my embrace. I rub his back and rock us sideways to calm him down. It takes sometime but he finally calms down.

"Don't ever leave me again, Archie." I plead while holding his hands.

He looks at me in the eyes and says, "I promise, I'll never you again."

Finally, my heart feels at ease.

"Mama.." we hear sleepy voice of Gia calling him and look at her to see her slowly waking up.

We walk to the bed and sit on the edge as Archie helps her to sit up. He pulls her into his lap and she clings to him before opening her and looking at us. I smile when her eyes lands on me and she returns the smile before looking up at Archie.

"Let's get you ready, we have to attend the party." He tells her and she nods eagerly.

With a chuckle, Archie gets up with her and walks to the bathe area while I stay in the room. I wait for them and after sometime, they come back. He dresses her up in royal blue gown. I selected that, I actually got all three of us the same, matching clothes. I didn't know if Archie would agree or not, I just wanted all three of us to dress alike so I bought. Now that we had talked, I know he would definitely agree.

"Will you look after her or bathe first?" He asks while walking to me.

"I'll look after her, you get ready first." I respond and he leaves with a nod before giving Gia to me.

"Papa." Gia calls me after I pull her to sit on my lap.

"Yes, baby?" I say letting her ask what she wants.

"Are you and mama okay now?" She questions and I frown.

"Why do you think we were not okay before?" I inquire.

"Oh! Papa, you didn't talk to mama before, whatever you said you told to me. And mama was scared to talk to you. But now he easily talked to you and you agreed to him. That's why I'm asking you two are okay now." She explains and I wonder if we were that evident in being distant that even a child could understand.

"Yes, baby. We're good now." I reply to her.

"I'm happy you two are good now, papa. I don't like you two fighting." She says with a sad tone.

"We won't ever fight again, baby. Don't be sad." I assure her while rubbing her back and she nods with a bright smile.

Just as we finish talking, Archie walks into the room. He looks at us suspiciously and I settle Gia on the bed before going to him. He raises his brow and I shake my head indicating nothing and walk into the bathe area. I take quick bathe and get ready. Once we're all done, we leave to the venue. By the time we reach there, everyone is already gathered and my parents smile at us when they see us. I still have some talking to do and explain them the things that they don't know but that has to wait until tomorrow.

"Don't worry, I'm here." I assure Archie and tighten our entwined hands as I feel his palms sweating because of nervousness.

He nods and I smile at him before we walk towards the main podium where elders are already there. As it was Gia's birthday two days ago, we couldn't celebrate so I decided to celebrate today. I called the elders so that they could do the rituals and bless her. It's usually done after the birth and maybe during the birthdays if we wish to continue. But as Gia was not here when she was born and I didn't ask Archie whether he performed the ceremony or not, I decided to do this.

As we stand in front of the elders, they chant some prayers and perform the rituals, giving the blessings to Gia. Once that is done, we continue with the celebrations. There's one instrumental set up arranged for this occasion by the generals. We sit and enjoy that before having dinner. Along with all the other people in the kingdom, we eat food and then leave as others continue with other events. We decide to go first because Gia is already tired of spending so much time being here and is feeling dizzy as she clings to Archie.

Going to our chamber, Archie lay her on the bed and then slowly remove her clothes before putting night clothes on her so that she could sleep comfortably. Later, we, as well, change into our nightwear and lie on the bed beside eachother.

In the still rich night, we lay in the dark room where only our breathes are the sounds that are audible. As we laid on the bed, I pull Archie to me and embrace him like how we used to do before. It doesn't at all feel different, if anything I feel more attached to him now. I feel like, now, I have to keep him even more secure from all the possible dangers and ways which may separates us. I survived once, if there's next time, I'm afraid I won't live to see the next day.

"Um.. Kian." he calls, more like whispers, me softly.

"Yes." I whisper back, keeping Gia in mind as she's sleeping beside us.

"Mother-in-law said you called of the wedding, was Jane angry at you or mother-in-law?" He asks me, looking up to meet my eyes.

"She was angry and immediately left our kingdom but later I visited her and explained everything. She said she agreed to the marriage because she thought we don't love eachother and it's my interest to marry her. When I explained her what happened and on what basis we agreed, she said sorry and that she understands our situation. We both agreed to remain as friends. Now, she's already married and has a son. She's happy now." I explain him so that he won't feel guilty for what happened to her.

"Oh, I'm happy for her." He says and I smile.

"Why didn't you attend Dean and Winny's wedding? I was eagerly waiting for you." He states surprising me.

"Were you going to meet me that day?" I question excitedly.

"No, I was going to watch you from far. I missed you alot when I was carrying Gia. My feelings were double as if I'm waiting for you by not just myself but for Gia as well. So, I was waiting to see you." He reasons and tighten my hold around him.

"Because I wasn't in right mind, I didn't want to attend the marriage and make them feel bad by my miserable self." I respond to his question.

"I still can't believe Dean hide you from me for three years." I mumble to myself.

"It was because I asked him." He says hearing my words.

"I can already understand that." I reply and chuckle knowing it was Archie's intention to hide from me.

"Let's sleep now, it's getting late." I remind him when I feel his body loosing the consciousness as he slams onto me completely.

"Hmm.." he hums and goes into sleep.

I smile and place a gentle kiss on his forehead before drifting off of to sleep.

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