Archie's POV

As the carriage stops in front of the palace gates, my heart starts beating rapidly. How long it's been since I left, 3 years, that's how long I was away from here. Throughout the journey, I kept thinking of what's going to happen when I get back to the Kingdom and what everyone is going to think, more so now that I have a child. No one would even believe when they learn it's Kian's child and I was the one who gave birth.

What would father-in-law feel? He might have already thought of me as a selfish person as I left this place without telling anyone. Mother-in-law would have been the happiest person in my absence but that I'm back, I don't know what she's going to say. And Jane, she's the queen now. It's no more my place. Would she think I'm here for Kian again or that I'm going to take her place?

"Mama." My thoughts halt when Gia calls me out.

I snap out of my thinking and look down at her who's sitting in my lap.

"Yes, Gia." I ask her softly.

"Papa is waiting for us. We're here already." She says and I turn to see Kian waiting for us after he got down from the carriage.

Nodding at on one in specific, I hold Gia in my hands as I stand up and try to get down. It turns out to be a hard task as the horses keep moving. A hand suddenly pops out and I glance at Kian whose hand is in the air as he offered it to me. I extend one of my hand while I hold Gia in other. Just as my hand was about to hold his, he stops me.

"Not you, hand Gia to me." He states and I pull my hand back in embarrassment before handling Gia to him.

He takes her from me and walks off with her in his hands without waiting for me. I hurriedly get down the carriage and take long strides to catch him. He doesn't even turn to me or walk slowly for me. Without other choice, I just follow him. It's still early morning, no one is in the hallways except for the guards. Everyone is still sleeping, I believe.

Kian walks directly to our chamber, I mean his chamber and seeing him the guards open the doors. When their eyes land on me, they look shocked seeing me here and their eyes go wide. They all bow at us while Kian walks without acknowledging them and I nod at them. As I go to step into the room, I stop suddenly. It's not my room anymore. There's someone else that shares this room with Kian. How can I go in when that person is already sleeping in there?

"Mama, come fast." Gia screams from inside the room and I contemplate whether I go in or not.

But looking at Gia and seeing her waiting for me with a pout, I keep all the thoughts aside and step into the room. To my surprise, I don't find anyone in the room apart from Kian and Gia. Where is Jane? I think but don't ask Kian. I'm no one to ask him about his personal life anyway. Maybe she woke up already or maybe she went to tend their kids.

"Papa, are we all going to sleep here from now on?" Gia asks Kian as I walk to them.

"Baby, I'll arrange a princess room for you. But it takes few days, till then you'll be staying with me, in this room." Kian tells her while sitting on the bed.

"It's okay papa. I have no problem. I always sleep with mama, now I like papa to sleep with us." She smiles as she says.

"Gia, we can't sleep here." I tell her and then turn to Kian, "allot us a room, I'll take her there."

"As I said before she'll stay with me until her room will be ready." He replies to me being serious.

"Then, show a room for me." I ask, it maybe fine if Gia is but it wouldn't be the same with me.

"Mama, you also be with me. We sleep together, right?" Gia asks and I think on what should I say to her.

From the time I gave birth, Gia is always beside me. I never let her have her own room. It wasn't because of lack of shelter or anything because Dean was the one who was taking care of us. But it was because I didn't want to stay away from her. Even if it meant for few seconds. That's why even now she's asking me to sleep with her.

"I shouldn't sleep here, Gia. That's why I want a room so that we both can sleep." I try to lure her to leave the room.

"But mama, I want to sleep with papa too." She pouts before keeping her head down.

"Archie," Kian suddenly calls me and hearing my name from him after 3 years made me feel ecstatic, "stay here, don't be stubborn, it's just until Gia's room will be ready. I hope you understand."

"But what about Jane? Will she allow us to sleep here?" I query because I don't want to create an issue.

"Papa, this is not your room?" Gia asks him after my question.

"No, baby. This is my room." Kian responds to her.

"Then do you live with someone? Mama is saying that." She insists.

"I live alone in this room. Your mama doesn't know anything, he just always assumes things." He tells her but directs the last line to me, while turning and looking at me for a second.

"Okay, we'll sleep here for now. Let's get to bed." I agree and sit beside Kian while taking Gia from him.

Her eyes are red and drowsy. She needs proper sleep as she couldn't sleep well in the carriage. The bumpy roads didn't make it any easy for us, it was even hard to sit properly.

Taking her from him, I lay her in the middle of the bed but she crawls towards the other end.

"Gia, what are you doing?" I frown seeing her sleeping at the edge because she might fall down.

"Mama, I sleep here." She replies with her eyes closed.

"No, Gia. You shouldn't, you will fall down in the sleep." I disagree while pulling her.

"No, mama. I'll sleep here." She whines releasing from my hold.

"Let her sleep." Kian's voice says and I turn to him, "this bed has a handler. I'll arrange it, let her sleep wherever she wants."

He says and walks to the other side where Gia is sleeping. He bends down and pulls a string. A huge wooden sheet pops out, attached to the edges of the bed and stands, securing Gia from falling down. It looks like the cradle handle and knowing it's no risk anymore, I let her sleep. Kian smiles at her while placing a soft kiss on her forehead. That brings back memories, he used to do that to me, in the past. It's all in the past now.

Getting those thoughts out of my mind, I sleep bedside Gia as I pat her back to sleep. Kian walks back and lies next to me leaving some space between both of us. I don't bother with that and close my eyes to sleep. I move Gia closer to me and cover her with blanket.

Alot of time passes by but I can't sleep. I don't know what's stopping me as this isn't new place to me. This is where I spent my most happiest moments. I never felt foreign here, but now I feel like it's not my place anymore. Since, I left this place it's not mine anyway.

As I stay deep in thoughts, I feel a hand on my waist and I jolt a little at the sudden weight. I turn my head and see kian with his hand around my waist as he's in deep sleep. Taking a better look at Gia and making sure she's sleeping well, I then shift myself and face Kian. He's sound asleep. I take my time and concentrate on him. He still looks the same as he did years back. His features still standing out and he became more handsome. Bringing up my hand, I trace his features just like how I did before leaving him.

Remembering those times we spent together and those times where I had to live alone while carrying Gia, my eyes glistening with tears. I feel sad all over again. But this time, I feel sad for myself, not for anyone. No one understands me but that's fine with me. I just want Kian to know it wasn't my choice and that it wasn't easy to leave him. He didn't even ask me anything, how I lived or what I did. All he wants is Gia. I feel like I'm back to where I wasn't needed by anyone but what hurts more is it's Kian.

I didn't even realise that my thoughts are so deep that my tears are already flowing out. Just one day of peaceful sleep without crying seems impossible thing for me.

My hands settles on Kian's chest and I fist his clothes before burying my face on his chest. Knowingly or unknowingly, thinking it's me or someone else, he pulls me closer to him. Not thinking anything, I drape my hands around his back and drift off of to sleep peacefully after all these years.

I wake and find empty space. Panic arises as I don't find Gia and I sit up immediately, to go and search for her. But as soon as I step down, I see rema walking into the room with a tray in her hands. Her smile vanishes when she sees me and a sad smile decorates her face. She goes and places the tray on the tea table before walking to me.

"How are you, my queen?" She asks me how she used to do before.

"I'm fine, rema." I answer her with a smile.

Even if I'm not, I don't want to tell her that and make her more sad. She's the only one who actually asked about my well being.

"I missed you alot in these 3 years, my queen, we all did." She says as tears well up in her eyes.

I give her a sad smile and choose not to say anything. Instead, I ask her about Gia, "where is Gia?"

"Little Princess is with King." She replies and I nod.

"I brought tea for you, my queen, come and have it." She points to the tray she placed on the table and signals me.

I follow her as she leads me to the table and I take a seat while she pours me a cup of hot tea. Taking a sip, I groan internally at the hotness as it burns my throat a little.

"It's good to see you back, my queen." She voices out in between the silence and yet again, I nod at her.

"I'll go and prepare a bathe for you as you have your tea, my queen." She says and turns to walk out.

"Rema." I stop her as I remember about Jane.

As Kian didn't tell me anything about Jane, I can get some information from rema.

"Umm, where is Jane? Doesn't she live with king?" I query and her expression becomes confused.

"Why would she be here?" She questions in return.

"King married her, right? If it's not here where else she would be?" I speak out.

"King didn't marry her." She states and now it's my turn to be confused.