Archie's POV

"I can't do that." He shouts when I put forth the unanswerable question to him, "you know I can't marry her neither I can let you go. I can't choose one."

"Then do as I say." I state while trying not to show any emotions and surpassing my tears.

"What do you want me to do?" he asks while moving towards me and keeping his hands on my shoulders.

"Marry her," I say shocking him and his tears starts spilling out, "I want you to marry her."

"Anything but that, Archie. You know I love you and that I can't be with anyone when I already have you." He cries as he hugs me and I feel his tears on the flesh of my neck where he nested his face.

I want to hug him back and cry along with him. My heart is shuttering as I speak each word to him. It's not just hard for him, it's the same for me as well. In fact, I'm going through more pain than him. I'm literally dying inside. He loves me now but I loved him for so long and knowing I'll never have him just when I thought he's mine is breaking me. But I have no other choice, I have to do this for Kian.

"I'll leave." I utter and forcefully push him away from me, "then you'll not have me and you can marry her." I tell him and walk away.

"No, please don't leave me." He pleads while hugging me from behind in an attempt to stop me.

"You know what you should do in order for me not to leave you." I voice out while turning back and facing him.

"Kian." I call out when he continues to stay silent while crying.

"I-I'll do whatever you want me to do. J-just don't leave me." He finally agrees before collapsing in front of me on his knees.

Not able to witness the scene and see him crying and also unable to control my own tears anymore, I leave the room. Running in the hallways, I go to the room where Winny used to stay when he was here and plop down on the bed. My tears won't stop or my heart wouldn't stop breaking because of the pain I'm feeling. Every word I spoke, I felt like a knife stabbing my heart. I can't even imagine what Kian felt. But this is for his own good, he will feel sad now, painful to digest everything but he'll later realise it's all for his good. When he marries and have children, he'll forget everything and be happy.

I cry more at my own thoughts. He'll be happy but what about me? Why is God so cruel to me? I never wanted anything in life as much as I wanted Kian. Knowing he'll never be mine, I made up my mind to forget him. But at that same time, I had to marry him. Even with all his conditions, I was happy to be with him. The changes that took place later made me happiest in life. He said he loved me and that he'll never let me go. That moment in life, I thought I achieved everything and nothing could separate us.

However, all my dreams and hopes shuttered when mother-in-law said he should marry again for an heir. My life literally came to a stop. I don't see anything wrong with mother-in-law's decision because as a mother, she only wishes and wants nothing but the best for her son. It just so happened that I'm not the best Kian can ever have. He should be wedded with a beautiful lady and have their own little family. Not with me who can't give him anything except for being a burden to him.

My thoughts consumed me totally and without realising I fell asleep. When I wake up, I find myself in our room and on my own bed. Kian laid beside me with my whole body embraced in his. He hugged me so tightly as if I would disappear if he doesn't hold on to me. His fair face turned red and his eyes had a bulge on his lids, swollen because of his cries. By not making a lot of movement, I slowly pull my hand out that's lying in between both of our bodies and bring it to his face to trace his features with my fingers.

His short forehead, thick eyebrows, long eyelashes and those big round eyes beneath the eyelids, his sharp nose and thin red lips, everything is Godly. I trace my fingers and engrave all his features in my mind. I'll never forget him not even a chance of that happening but I just want to print everything about him in me.

I look at his lips contemplating whether I should kiss him or not and when I finally decide for the former, I hear rustling outside our room. Immediately freeing myself from him, I stumble down the bed before the doors opens. There walks in my mother-in-law while Jane follows her suit. I make my way towards her and the smile she had on her face while entering the room vanishes when her eyes lands on me.

"You didn't leave this room, yet?" She questions me with a angry voice.

"I-I did." I shutter while replying, as I said before she scares me.

"Then why are you still here?" She shoots while raising her voice and her eyes held such an hatred for me that made me take a step back.

"He's here because I brought him here." I hear Kian's voice and turn my head to see him standing behind me. His eyes hard as he gazes as his mother, "why should Archie leave this room? It's ours, he'll stay here."

"Kian, because you'll be marrying Jane, she should be staying here from now on." She replies to him with a smile unlike how she was being angry when she talked to me.

"Mom, please, enough with your needs. I agreed for the marriage, isn't that enough already? Why all this now?" He asks her making her smile gets replaced with a frown.

"Kian, if you aren't together how will you have children? It's no use if he stays in this room, it should be Jane." She says trying to convince him.

"Mom!!" He shouts reaching his limit.

Now, this isn't how it should be, he's already recluent to marry her and if mother-in-law continues to irritate him, he might as well stop everything.

"Mother-in-law, I'll talk to him and make him understand everything." I tell her before things could get out of hand.

"Whatever! If it wasn't for you, my son would have already been happy with his own family. Your sister had a child before marriage and you can't even give him a child. I don't know how and why we got involved with your family." She bellows sending daggers at me. I hang my head low at her hurtful words.

But for the good thing, she stomps her feet and leaves the room before Kian could say her anything and a fight would start. I heave a relief sigh and turn to Kian to talk to him.

"You want me to share this room with her, right? And that you won't stay here with me?" He states before I could say anything.

I nod at him to let him know that's what I want him to do, "please, Kian, this is the last thing I ask for you. I won't ask you for anything more." I plead with my teary eyes.

He steps forward before embracing me and this time I hug him back and let my tears out. Why it is so hard? Why can't we be together? I know I'm not hurting myself but Kian as well. However, I can't stop this. Nothing is in my hands. Fate has already been decided and I'll just have to follow it.

"Atleast until the marriage stay in this room Archie, please." He wails defected and I nod at his request.

There are four more days for the wedding, I can convince mother-in-law. She won't accept but if that's what Kian wants, I'll make her accept. Atleast, this I should do for him.

I feel his tears wetting my clothes on my back as my tears moist his. He tightens the hug while pulling me closer and I secure my hands around his neck. I don't know when will I ever get the chance to be this close to him again. And that thought alone makes me cry more. My tears flow like river, not seeming to stop anytime soon. Soft and soundless cries of mine turns into loud sobs as everything came crashing to me. I don't want this to happen and I can't leave him. He's all my life. How do I even live without him?

At my uncontrollable cries, Kian tries to stop me by whispering sweet words to me. But nothing seems to stop me. He then lifts me off the ground, so I wrap my legs around him and he walks us towards the bed. He lays on the bed on his back and I continue to stick to him. He rubs my back and pats my hair trying to console me. But how do I control myself and stop crying knowing he's not going to be mine anymore? I cry and cry until I slip off into sleep.

Four days passes by in a blink of an eye and today is the day Kian is finally getting married. None of us are happy except my mother-in-law who's going to get a daughter-in-law of her choice and Jane, the bride who's going to marry Kian. Who wouldn't be happy to marry him? He's not only good looking but a great person as well. He's everything one could wish for. I wished the same but I'm such an unlucky person that I'm not going to get my wish granted.

We're all already dressed and are now on the way to the wedding hall. No one is invited to this wedding except for our family and the bride's family, much to my mother-in-law's wish. Kian said he's only doing this because of me and that he would stop everything if mother-in-law continues to demand one thing after another. That made her shut her mouth and she said as long as he's getting married, she's fine with it.

Our carriage comes to a stop when we reach the wedding hall. Climbing down, we head inside. As I step in, my memories of our marriage resurfaces in my mind and I see ourselves standing in front of the elders as we get married with so many people witnessing it. But all that vanishes when I blink my tears. I shake my head and continue to walk towards the podium where the elders are already waiting for us.

As we reach, my mother-in-law pushes me away from Kian and glares at me as she signals me to stay away. I look at Kian who's eyes are solely fixed on me with tears glistening in his eyes. I smile at him with a nod while moving aside. They both, as bride and groom, stand in front while the elder priest chants the prayers. I take one last look at Kian who's standing there lifelessly and turn away, leaving the place and leaving him. I can wait until the wedding but I can't see that, I have to leave before seeing my own husband getting married again.

Running out, I run into the forest that's behind the hall and run far away from here, from Kian.