Gon's P.O.V
I slowly reach my arm out to Killua, realizing I've just let him slip away again... I slowly fold my hand closed and place it over my heart as I knew his love for Alluka was so much stronger than I thought... I could never be able to win him back like this... I slowly and sluggishly head back to Mito-sans and head to my room to look at an old photo of me, Killua, Kurapika and Leorio. I smile from the memories of me and Killua training, having adventures and then I remember when Killua and I first split ways... I guess I have to try and understand though, he has to take care of his sister... I can't help but become pretty depressed thinking back about everything... Pitou and Kite in particular.... I wonder what Killua did in that time while I was just sitting, waiting for Pitou to finish healing the girl. I probably should've asked him when I had the chance. Just as I was about to drown in my own stream of thought I hear Mito-San call me down for dinner and I instantly wake up from my own nightmare. I head downstairs as quickly as my legs were willing to carry me at the time, when Mito-San, my grandmother and I sit down. I barely touch my food from me missing Killua..
(Italics in Mito, normal is Gon and bold is the grandma)
Gon? Is everything alright? You're barely touching your food!

O-Oh, yea I'm ok I just...

Got something stuck in your head?

Yea! How'd you know?

Heh, I've been around for a while now, Mito was no different when she was stuck

Grandma!///'

Hehe! If you s-say so!

So... What IS stuck on your mind?

O-Oh, um... I-it's kind of hard to explain...

See any girls??

Grandma! Don't embarrass Gon at the table! Especially at this age!

(Short break)
I begin to blush slightly from the two commenting on my age and what's supposed to happen...

N-No, it's ok Mito-San I just...

Just...?

I guess I'm just stuck, I don't know if I could explain it...

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I begin to scratch the back of my head from the tension and I really hope they don't ask what I'm stuck about over and over... I hate to sound typical but I don't think they'd be able to understand... Ugh, I really am becoming a teenager aren't I.... I hope Killua's not as depressed from our second separation as I am... I finish my dinner pretty slow then head up to my room, get changed and get ready for bed. I grab my pillow as I lay flat on my back on my bed, I begin to hug my pillow thinking of Killua.... Wow, is this what it's come to...hugging a stupid pillow? Am I that desperate?