Tw: Abuse, Unsymp Patton, Implied s*xual assault but it's really vague  choking, Remus levels of death mention

OK OK I wrote this chapter at like 2 am at first and now when I'm rereading it I'm wondering if I was okay that night cause this is some.....I support Patton's right to shut the fuck up let's just say that

It was nearing 3 am and Deceit was having a quite strange dream. More of a nightmare actually. Something heavy was in his mouth making him unable to talk or yell for help. The nightmare got even worse when he could swear on the same heavy feeling going down into his pants.

He woke up gasping and sweating from fear only to find out the nightmare wasn't over. Sure he was awake but Patton was laying on top of him and his tongue was in his mouth and his hand was on his-

Deceit tried to get away and the other man got the message.

"Great you're awake" he said with a sweet tone while sitting up on his stomach. Thankfully he moved his hand away

"You should have asked me beforehand" The snake hissed out while feeling like someone was choking him.

"Oh come on now honey. How long have we been together?"

"4 years" He forced out.

"For a relationship that long isn't the consent kind of an understood thing. I mean if some random guy did this sure it would be weird but I'm your pappy Patton!"

"Please I'm tired, can't we do this tomorrow?" He meekly asked while trying to disconnect from his own body.

Patton pouted "But hooooney you've been so gloomy lately and i'm just trying to cheer you up. How about this I'll even let you top for once"

"Oh right I definitely want this right now" He winced after not being able to stop the lie "I just it's so late and I have things planned for tomorrow. Please just let me sleep" he was practically begging. Something told him it was a bad sign that he even needed to beg but his mind was hazy from years of it happening, so hazy it was hard to phantom any of it not being normal. "Just this once, I don't want to do this again"

Patton swiftly moved his hand up and tugged at Deceit's hair "What things planned? You haven't told me, you know I hate when you don't tell me things" His voice had instantly turned cold.

"Sorry I'm sorry. I'm meeting up with Logan. I wasn't going to help with his psychology test. I mean he's probably smarter than me but he knows I like talking about it so" He rambled out while feeling like he was being interrogated.

The tug in his hair turned so harsh it felt like his scalp was moving away from his skull. He tried to get Patton's hand away from his hair.

"Oh I see. You don't want to give Logan your sloppy seconds so now you're declining me. I wonder how long it'll take before you break up with me"

"I swear we're just frien-" He was shut up when he was slapped. He could already tell it would be one of those bad night without sleep.

"For one day please stop with the lying" patton said while looking absolutely exhausted.

"I'm sorry" He cried out as tears made his vision hazy. It was all to much. He was so tired. Down to his bones. He just wanted to be allowed to sleep. He just wanted to get out of the situation. He just wanted to get away from patton.

He felt biting against his thighs and heard his boyfriend say with an overly cheery tone "I'm marking you so that Logan at least can see who you belong to" Deceit couldn't help but let out a sob "Oh don't cry, the bite marks will disappear in a day or two"

Patton stopped and leaned towards his head. He pressed a kiss to his cheek before murmuring "Though maybe I should mark you for forever. maybe then you'll stop letting others have you" He saw the immediate in fear in Deceit's eyes and let out a laugh "Relax, I was just joking"

He didn't know what to respond. He was pretty sure that if he opened his mouth right now he would either cry or scream.

"Y'know it's a really bad sin to cheat on the love of your life, the only one who loves you. So when you come home tomorrow we'll sit down and talk how about that" Patton said while smiling. his hands trailed over Deceit's neck in a silent threat as he continued "I'll make sure you never hurt me like that ever again"

He shone up into a sweet smile as his eyes got cold. His hands pressed down around Deceit's neck, his breathing was cut off before he could even say no. He couldn't help but struggle and flail his arms around to try and get his hands away from his neck.

Patton leaned his head closer and kissed him while choking him harder. He started to get black spots in his vision as his breath came out in short choppy segments.

He let up his grip just a bit and Deceit immediately gasped for breath. It was still hard to breath but it wasn't completely cut off.

"I could kill you right now" patton murmured between kisses which made his lover's blood run cold because he could tell he wasn't lying. "No one would notice for sooo long"

Dee tried to shake his head but it was hard. Moving his body was so hard.

"I could call Logan and say you were busy and then whenever somebody asked I could say you were sick. No one would know for at least 2 months, probably more than that" He continued while moving the kisses down to his jawline "No one would even notice you were gone. That's how worthless you are"

He managed to get out a whimper before his breath was cut off once more. This time he thought he was actually going to die. He moved his hands up around Patton's wrists to try and silently plead to him to let go.

"There are so many ways I could end your life right now" He was still smiling. Why was he still smiling "I could take the knife in the kitchen. If I cut the vein on your neck you would bleed out in under 5 minutes. I could fill the bathtub with water and let you drown. I could shove you out the window. You have no way to know I didn't bake poison into the cookies I gave you today"

The only sound Deceit could let out was a weird gurgly one. His mind was foggy and he couldn't move his body. He couldn't even breath.

Patton let go off his neck while laughing "Oh you should have seen your face" he giggled "You thought I was being serious. That just proves how stupid you are. Stupid and useless" He kissed him again before continuing "Or well not completely useless. As long as your quiet your body can be pretty useful"

He felt him move down again and he could feel him take a certain something in his mouth. Deceit stared up into the roof and imagined himself being anywhere else while he gasped for breath.

It was as if his body disconnected from his mind. Even if his mind was too scared to move his body acted on its own. He kicked to get away before calmly standing up and pulling up his black pajama bottoms. Everything was moving slowly and nothing felt real.

His mind was still stuck in the bed as his body went out into the hallway. He saw Patton walking behind and he saw his mouth moving but none of the sounds meet him. He took on his jacket before turning around and making eye contact with his boyfriend.

"I am leaving. I do not know when I'll be coming back" He said in a calm tone.

Patton's eyes widened and his expression turned into one of fury. The next 12 minutes would be some of the scariest in Deceit's life. In short things were thrown, awful words were yelled and he had to fight to get away.

He left the apartment limping with a bleeding nose, cracked lip, forming bruises on his arms from being dragged back inside and probably bruises elsewhere as well. Not to even mention the awful marks that would bloom on his neck.

Deceit got on the nearest bus. he sat with his back straight with a completely blank expression. Nothing felt real. He wasn't a person. He was just floating through the world. He'd left his being in that bedroom.

40 minutes went by in what felt like a heartbeat. He knocked on an apartment door and waited. It was a 04:31 and he was so hollow he didn't even feel the cold hitting his skin.

The door opened and a sleepy Logan without glasses looked at him while rubbing his eyes. His hair was for once messy and he had on a unicorn pyjamas with a math pun on the chest.

"Greetings. I think you are quite wrong on the time we were going to meet up but you are welcome to come in" He said while letting his friend in "Besides walking here must have been quite cold in only night clothes. You want some tea?"

It seemed like Deceit had lost the ability to speak as he walked in. Everything was hazy as he sat down in the couch that also acted as a bed in the living room. There wasn't a bedroom, only a living room with a kitchen part and a bathroom.

Logan sat down beside him after going to get tissues to stop the nosebleed. He dabbed the tissue on the snake's face as he asked "What situation caused this? Are there any more injuries I should know about?"

Finally Deceit's mind catched up with his body and he realized what he'd just done. He'd left. He'd actually left.

All the emotions flooded over him at once. He grabbed onto Logan's shirt and burrowed his head into his chest as he started to sob. His entire body was shaking from pain and fear.

"I apologize. It wasn't my intent to set of this kind of emotional peril" Logan tried to think of what made Dee happy "Ehm do you want me to get you ice cream?? We can watch scooby doo or any documentary you want. Please stop crying, I don't like seeing you feeling bad...I will hug you know. Tell me if I should stop"

Logan wrapped his arms around him and held him close. Maybe closer than he'd ever held anyone else. He wasn't planning to let go until his friend was happy again.

Deceit opened his mouth to try and lie about why he was here but all the words caught in his throat. Out of nowhere the sound of his phone ringing came. He must have accidentally taken it with him in his jacket pocket.

He quickly pulled the small yellow phone out and looked at the screen. He'd missed 3 calls from Patton already. His hand started to shake so badly he nearly dropped the phone. His finger hovered over the answer button but before he could click the call stopped and instead he started get messages.

💛💛💛Darling💛💛💛: Dede I'm sorry

💛💛💛Darling💛💛💛: I didn't mean to hurt you, I've had a tough week and I didn't mean to take it out on you

💛💛💛Darling💛💛💛: Please come home again I don't want you sleeping outside you'll get cold

💛💛💛Darling💛💛💛: There's a warm blanket waiting for you when you come home

💛💛💛Darling💛💛💛: I love you

💛💛💛Darling💛💛💛: Please come back I'm worried you'll get hurt

💛💛💛Darling💛💛💛: if you leave me now i'll get so sad I might do something stupid you don't want that do you

💛💛💛Darling💛💛💛: I love you I would die for you I've given everything to you I love you

Deceit knew he had to go back, Patton would probably be nice and not get mad at him for leaving. If he returned tomorrow it would probably get much worse.

He was about to stand up when Logan placed his hand on his shoulder and said with a soothing voice "If you'll please allow me I would like to take your phone away for just this night. I promise you will get it back when you are in a more stable mental state. I believe you are being manipulated. Excuse me for reading over your shoulder"

He let Logan take his phone out of his shaking hands. He moved his knees up to his chest while felling like his entire world was crumbling.

"Those injuries weren't accidents were they?" He carefully asked as if the words would make Deceit fall apart if they were said too loudly.

"It was my fault" He was finally able to mumble out.

Logan stroked his hand through the other man's hair to soothe him as new tears welled into his eyes "I can not imagine the horrors you've been put through. I'm sorry I didn't realize anything sooner. From what I understand I can assure you that none of it was your fault"

"He needs me, I should go back"

"Deception Betrug you are not going back to that apartement tonight!" Logan said with a stern tone "I'm sorry I don't want to be harsh like this but he doesn't need you as much as you need safety. You don't at all have to stay here. I won't control what you do just please don't go back there right now"

"He will get so mad when he finds out I'm staying over at your place" Deceit covered his head with his hands as panic began to take over.

"It is not a question of when, He will not find out I promise. And in the case he does I will do everything in my power to make sure you're not hurt. I promise"

Deceit held onto the other man harder as sobs started to rack his body once more. though this time it was both tears of fear and relief.

Logan hugged back while questioning the last 4 years. How long had his friend been hurt? Could this have been the first time? Hopefully it was the last time. Suddenly he remembered so many instances of Dee flinching or tensing up when Patton was around. Suddenly he could recall so many times when he'd seen glimpses of bruises under his clothing.

Why had he never put it all together. He shook his head and reminded himself that it wasn't his fault Patton turned out to be rotten scum....Patton. He'd never been as good of friends with him as he was with Deceit but they were still friends. He was unsure if he would even be able to look at him again.

Had he ever even seen a glimpse of the real Patton or was it all a carefully built facade. Had the person he'd known simply been ripped off and bloody ears of a bunny sewed onto the head of a vicious fox.

When he stopped thinking he noticed Deceit had stopped crying. He was still holding onto him but his sad expression had turned into a hollow one. His eyes stared down into the floor.

"If you take the couch tonight I can get a sleeping bag and sleep on the floor" Logan said while patting his head "I don't want to make you uncomfortable in any way"

His head shot up and he looked surprised "You'll let me stay here?"

"Of course, I assumed that was an understood agreement....BUt if you want to staysomewhereelseIca-"

"No no it's fine"

Deceit laid down in the sofa and draped the blanket around him. He tried to get comfortable but it all felt so weird. He could barely even remember the last time he stayed over at someone else's place.

Logan rolled out a navy sleeping bag and was about to graciously jump into it like a lil worm baby when he heard Dee whisper

"Could you- could we share the ehm sofa tonight? Please?"

He smiled softly at him before replying with "Of course"

Logan laid down next to him and since they were sharing quite a small space they had to lay very close. The nerd unsurely moved his arms around the other man's waist but when Deceit nodded he held on tighter.

Warnings of danger went off in Deceit's mind. How could he be sure he wouldn't get woken up in the same way Patton had woken him up. Then he shook his head before burying it into Logan's chest. Lo was warm and he smelled like tree pines and red berries. His lips pressing a kiss to the top of his head felt like a soft promise of love and his arms wrapped around him felt like safety itself.

Safe....Deceit was finally safe. After all this time he could think that and know it wasn't a lie.