Law refused to admit it, in fact, he never told anyone, at least not yet, who knows what the future might bring, but he still had a chance, and although it painfully killed him inside, Law had to resort to anything to try and overcome this vile disease, all for the greater good.

He only had one shot to do this, love was eternal, but only if you let it bloom into love first, he was thankfully still in the beginning stage of it, the bud, he was sure he merely still had a lust based crush on Eustass, not yet in love, and the only way to keep it from progressing any further, was to run away from him, from it, avoid anymore contact with the man named Eustass Kidd, no more extravagant fights, no more occasional trips to the bar to battle in a sharp conversation of wits with their worn down pride hanging on their shoulders like a battle scar, it was better if he never heard the man's name ever again.

Of course, the crew was concerned when their captain started to ban the name of his very passionate enemy, but they blamed it on his wounded pride, they thought that in that last fight, Law lost and merely refused to show his face to the victor again, refuse to admit his crushing defeat.

But that was not what Law was running away from, that wasn't the reason he was so afraid to see the redhead again, he was running away from his emotions, they were always the thing he couldn't control, that he couldn't understand, and now they finally had him, begging for mercy, leaving him sleepless at night, depriving him from satisfaction, because in his heart his emotions were howling, to completely conquer one Eustass Kidd.

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The Kid pirates were a scrambled wreck, ever since their last run in with the hearts, the captain was an explosive powder keg, blowing up on them at every chance he got, and the anger only increased along with the time.

Where the fuck was Trafalgar!? Ever since that confusing match it was like the man disappeared off the god damned planet, like he went and died or something.

The thought of someone killing his rival other than himself made him roar out in rage and throw as much metal as he could into the opposite wall, then afterwards the anger would morph into some dull state of depression, but he knew better, Law was avoiding him, and he didn't like it, not. one. bit.

What the hell was wrong!? He knew that something on that day changed inside the man, and then he ran away like the coward he knew he wasn't, Kidd was not only pissed at him, but he was pissed at himself.

Why couldn't he find out what was going on? What indeed was going on? Did he drive Trafalgar away somehow? If so, then why did he feel empty inside? Easy, he wanted closure, as far as he was concerned, they never finished the fight, Law was still his equal and he wanted to drag him underneath him, he still wanted to come out on top, but more than that, he wanted to know what the fuck was going on.

Law was his closest rival, and he should be able to know how he thought, how be behaved, but he didn't, while Law read him like a child's picture book, Kidd saw nothing but infinite blank pages on his infamous poker face, he was unreadable, and Kidd hated that, but he hated the thought of losing him even more, as a rival of course.

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Two months, it's been two months since Law last saw or heard from Eustass Kidd, and yet he was still yearning for him, in fact, he could swear it was worse, Law could hear his voice, calling out to him, nagging for him, but everytime he turned around he was only found with an empty room.

His thoughts would always trail back to him, his wild gorgeous hair, his perfect milky complexion, his glowing gold orbs, even his annoyingly cocky grin sent needy shivers down his spine, and then there was the worst of them all, the dreams.

He would fall asleep at night and then find himself among the stars, floating in the very deepest fabric of pitch black space, and then he'd feel his hands softly gripping onto him, metal and flesh alike, Kidd would appear out of the pitch darkness and grip onto him, he would squeeze them so close together that Law could once again smell his intoxicating aroma, wrap his fingers into his luscious red locks, cling and tangle onto him with the affectionate purr of a house cat, and just when he would claim those painted lips, he would awake again with the phantom memory of Kidd being within reach, fading away once more.

What would it be like to actually meet those lips? What would it be like to kiss him? To take him? To make love to him? Law ran away to escape from these beginning thoughts, but the raven only succeeded in making them stronger than ever.

What should he do? It was only a matter of time until these feelings would engulf him, destroy him, turn him into a wild beast, just like that beautiful brute he was so smitten with.

Just when Law was about to question it even further, a loud knock that resembled the sound of thunder came booming on his office door, he quickly came to the conclusion that his subordinates were back from drinking and were now trying to get him to leave his room again, yeah right, like he'd ever leave and risk spilling something to them.

"I thought I told you go away, I'm not coming out" the surgeon almost wanted to laugh miserably at the double meaning in his words, oh how life loved to mess with him and his intelligent brain, but instead of leaving, the intruder banged onto the door even harsher, making Law immediately rush to the door in a rage, "hey!! You're going to dent th-" Law stopped when he was met with an all too familiar pale and scarred chest.

Oh merciful fuck.

No, it just couldn't be...Law heard his heart beat race within his ears, a loud symphony of panic and desire, so much desire, and with all the daring he had left, he looked up into the blazing eyes of Eustass Kidd, who almost looked like he was about to explode.

Immediately, Law backed away, he wouldn't be able to stay sane much longer with him being so close, but that seemed to have ticked the other off even more as he stepped into his office and slammed the door shut, using his devil fruit powers to activate the lock, the doctor was trapped.

"Trafalgar, you have some fucking explaining to do" Law could only stand as rigid as ice and prevent himself from shivering at that gritty voice he oh so missed, no, he was falling.

When Kidd took a step forward, the other almost lost his shit right then and there, "fucking stay back!!" As if he was hit with a branding iron, Kidd swiftly shuffled back, Law was frightened, he was never like this.

The redhead couldn't help but compare him to a cornered predator, wild, crazy, and incredibly dangerous, and for some reason that made him feel hot to his very core, never has Trafalgar bared his fangs so desprately like this, but again this change filled him with rage.

"Not until you tell me what the flying fuck's going on! I know for a fact that you've been avoiding me! When the hell did you ever become afraid? I want to know what's going on!"

Kidd took a step forward and once again Law forced him to take it back, "I told you to fucking stay back!!! Why do you care!? You won didn't you!!? You've fucking won!! So just leave me be!!
Dammit!!!" This made Kidd see red, with a fast movement, he ran forward and trapped Law at the wall, but what he didn't expect was how the other went completely mental once he did.

Law screamed, almost as if in pain and desprately clawed onto the other's fleshy arm to push him off, "get off of me!!! Fucking get off of me!!!" It took Kidd almost all of his metal arm's strength to pin the other to the wall without getting nailed by one of the fists he was waving around, what was going on!? Law was becoming a savage animal- and why the fuck did that make him feel so hot!?

"Tell me what the hell is going on!!!" Law finally went still and silent, Kidd's order was absolute, his command obviously promised a full load of his brutal wrath if he didn't tell him right now, and Law...gave it up, Kidd stiffened as an almost pitiful whine left the smaller male and felt himself subconsciously soften at his desperate and almost angry gaze, "..you fucking did this" his whisper was filled with pure hate.

"What?" But Kidd had no time to react when Law's eyes suddenly flashed paired with a suprisingly vicious growl, and he weakly shouted as Law turned the tables and pinned him to the wall.

They were face to face, so close that if he just leaned forward just a little bit, he could meet Trafalgar's lips, wait what? But his mind was immediately on the male who was currently staring him down with a most primal stare in his grey orbs, Law's grip was like iron and his voice boomed like lightning, making Kidd feel his body get even hotter.

"You did this to me!!! You fucking turned me into this, an animal!! You've fucking made me fall from grace!!! I'm- I'm- I'm fucking in love with you, you fucking ignorant bastard!!!"

Kidd lost his breath, what? What? That's why he ran away? That's why he avoided him? But Kidd only gasped again as Law yanked him off the wall only to slam him up against it again, Jesus! Did this love sickness make him this strong too? "Undo what you did to me right now!!! Or I swear to the devil I wil-" Kidd silenced him with a kiss.

Law instantly felt his brain malfunction like an electronic dipped into water, the love sickness he so desprately tried to keep at bay, instantly came flooding into him like a blocked stream that was finally broken open by the brute force that he once mocked and despised, he was hooked onto him for that very moment.

But before Law could even fully process the kiss, or even try and devour the redhead's lips in responce, the other backed away as soon as he pressed himself onto the raven.

Law stared in confusion and fear at Kidd's blaring and still passionate eyes, "Jesus Christ Law, that's the reason you ran off like a little girl!? Do you actually think I give a shit if you like me!? You're my fucking rival, and to hell if I'm just gonna let you get away just because you like me! I'm still kicking your ass!! Being lovers or not"

Lovers? Did that mean?..Kidd would return his feelings without any disgust? Law gazed deeper into the ruffian's alloy-like eyes and found nothing but truth and acceptance, and so this caused Law, to finally lose it.