"Wait all three of you want to play guitar?"I asked as Boone and Trevor stood behind Troy by my room door. I thought they were just coming over to hang out with Troy.

"Well, I want to learn. They just came to stare at you."Troy said as Trevor just stared at me like the other times he met me.

"Hey, I just want to see you guys play. I want to learn how to play the drums but she probably doesn't know how to play that."Boone said brushing back his black hair. Pffft, doesn't know how to play the drums? I destroy the drums.

"I can teach you. I play a lot of instruments actually."I smiled at all three of the boys.

"Seriously?"

"Yeah, come look."I gestured inside my clean room. See? It's not messy yet.... I said yet. I pointed towards the drum kit and my two guitar cases I already had set out."My other instruments are over in the corner in their cases."

"Cool. Where's your guitar?"Troy asked, putting both of his hands in his pockets. I unlatched both of my cases but I pulled out my most prized possession.

"This is my most prized possession," I revealed the blue electric guitar from its case. The most beautiful thing I have seen in my entire life, other than myself. Just kidding...not really."This beauty is Blue Valentine."

"Wooooah."The boys awed in her beauty. That's right, bask in her glory.

"Got this baby back in 2010. I saved up so much money for this."

"How much?"

"$830."I said causing Troy to snicker at the price. Oh god, here we go. I'm beginning to feel the affluence in the room now.

"That's it? That's not a lot!"He laughed with Boone while I gave them the straight face.

"You do know that I'm not rich right? I was a college sophomore when I got this. I worked my ass off at a local Applebee's to afford this and I don't regret a penny I spent. Wanna know why? Because it wasn't just given to me, I had to work to get this. And you're gonna work to play this. You don't automatically know how to play, you work for it. Soon you'll be just as good as me."I said strumming Blue as I looked at the three of them.

"I understand...so uh...why did you name it Blue Valentine?"Troy asked loosening his tie as his green eyes wandered around the room. Judging by his body language, I totally made him uncomfortable.

"I named her Blue Valentine because it's blue and I got it on Valentine's Day. Also, I named her after my favorite movie with my celebrity crush-one of my celebrity crushes: Ryan Gosling."I flipped my hair playfully then walked over to the other case.

"Ryan? He's a really cool guy. Went bowling with him last week."Troy said I instantly snapped my head up. Did he just say he was with him last week? Like physically with him? Like breathing the same air as him?

"You-you-you went bowling with him? With Ryan Gosling? Ryan Thomas Gosling?"My words were fumbled as I tried to speak. Oh my god, I'm in the same room as someone who was in the same room as Ryan Gosling. Am I saying his name too much? Because I feel like I am.

"Yeah. Him and Chris Evans. It was really fun."My heart. Oh my god, my fucking heart. The two men who I am desperately in love with was hanging out with the son of my boss. Why didn't I get fired from my old job sooner?!

"Oh. My. God. Are-are...Are you serious? I love them! Like I literally love them. Chris Evans is just such a delight to look at and he's damn near perfect! Next time you hang out with them, I am coming. As your nanny, I have to watch you at all times. You are my responsibility."I squealed as I pulled out the acoustic guitar for Troy.

"I had dinner with Chris on Wednesday night."Trevor finally spoke up. His face was so red, it almost matched his hair. Awww, he must be shy.

"You need a nanny?"I smiled and you would have sworn I sucker punched the kid by the look on his face."You okay?"

"Do you have a boyfriend?!"He blurted out. Okay wow. Well I slept with a guy who I never had the balls to call back but I also have to see him tomorrow because he's Darlene's dance instructor, so no, no boyfriend. But I can't tell him that answer. Or anyone for that matter. Holy shit, wait, I have to tell Jan and Richie. I can't believe I didn't tell them. They are gonna be so glad to say 'I told you so!' Ugggh. I'm dreading that conversation already.

"Uhhh, do you wanna learn how to play something?"I asked pointing at my instruments in the corner. I'm not answering a teenage boy about my love life. Mostly because I don't know.

"I actually play the piano. It was kind of easy to learn. How many instruments do you play?"Trevor asked me. Oh cool, he's finally having an actual conversation with me!

"Uhhh 33. It took me many years to learn to play all of those. It's because I started learning at a really young age and continued learning as I grew up. It's really fun to play stuff. By stuff I mean instruments. Sooooo who's ready to be amazed?"

***
Okay so I'm going to see Cotton today. Mostly because I have to. Because he's Darlene's ballet instructor...Have I mentioned that before? Of course I did. I'm sorry, I'm just really nervous. Usually, this wouldn't be a problem but I don't know what will happen between us since I haven't spoken to him since we had sex, which I should mention was absolutely mind-blowing. That boy is truly fucking talented. I wonder-

"Oh my god! Change the station!"Rebecca shouted at me, interrupting my Cotton thoughts.

"No."

"No? I don't want to listen to classical music!"

"And I don't want a 14-year-old girl yelling in my ear while I drive. Also, I like classical music, it keeps me sane. If you don't like it, I'm sorry dude. My car, my music."I shrugged my shoulders as I focused on driving. I honestly don't know if she's worse than Cali.

"My dad bought this car. So basically it's my dad's car so in other words, I can tell you what music I want to listen to and I want to listen to what I want!"She began to reach for the radio buttons-is there an official name for those buttons? I don't know, but I would like to know about if there is. Anyway, the minute she reached for it, I grabbed her slender wrist. Before I crash, I am going to park right here in this unknown ass area before I forget what I'm about to say to this girl.

"Okay look here, there's some rules about me that I should probably let you know about. Rule number one: Never ever touch my food. Ever. Rule number two: Never ever mess with my music on any device. Rebecca, I am growing really tired of this attitude you got here. I don't know if you know this but I'm a very chill person and I can tolerate a lot of crap but you are literally pushing me, kid."I chuckled as I released her skinny wrist."I'm different from your other nannies. I was raised differently from your other nannies. I'm way more determined than your other nannies. I know this attitude is your attempt to get rid of me but you're doing a terrible job, man. Now, I already mentioned this attitude three times, You don't want it to happen a fourth time. Cool Bonnie is gonna be gone that fourth time. I can't be any more serious about this. Do you understand me?....I said do you understand me, Rebecca?"

She hesitated but shook her head."Yes."

"Awesomesauce! Let's get you to ballet, Darlene!"I smiled moving the car and we drove in silence for five blocks. I'm honestly a really happy person you rarely catch me in a bad mood but I'm kinda getting a little stressed out. Just a little bit. Reaching our destination, I parked in the parking lot and we all got out the car. Okay, time to face the sexy beast named Cotton.

When we walked in, I noticed that no one was actually ready. They were either warming up or just chilling.

"Prissy!"Darlene ran to her best friend on the other side of the room. Rebecca, who walked behind me like a zombie, was on her phone. I spotted Cotton leaning against the wall looking absolutely delicious. I should probably just get this over with.

"I have to talk to the dancer.....I'll be back."I told her and began to walk his way. I ruffled my curls and adjusted my boobs in my shirt. Hey, I gotta make sure I look okay. As I approached him, he looked at me with a small smile."Hi Cotton."

"Hey Bonnie....You uh never... you never called me back. Or texted me. I mean you didn't have to but it would've been nice... to hear from you."He nodded his head as he crossed his massive arms. Dear God.

"I-I know. I'm sorry! It was a dick move, really. I was just really scared and nervous to call you because I don't normally have sex on the first date but I've done it before like once and I didn't mean to do it with you but I don't regret it because I had an amazing time with you so I was super-Woah."I stopped my rapid babbling when I realized something."Why didn't you call me?"

"I-I-I was gonna b-but....I died."His face turned beet red from being put on the spot.

"You died? Dude, that is a whole new low."

"Yes. I died."He said then let out a sigh."Okay, the truth is I'm a huge pussy. I was scared to call or text because I thought you wouldn't-"

"Like you? I had the same reason. I guess we're both pussies, huh?"I joked leaning on the wall next to him. He smiled at me as he stared at me with those green eyes.

"I mean I do like you. You're a cool kid and I think we should go out again."His smile still stuck on his face.

"Translation: We should just fuck again."I smirked and Cotton doubled over with laughter. Some people turned to the two idiots laughing in the corner. I think I do like Cotton. It's been a while since I had a real connection with a guy who- What the hell happened to Toby?... I met him that one day and never heard from him. I never got his number, the post-it note, not even a carrier pigeon with a note saying hi. Hm, maybe I'll stop by Jan sometime this week. But back to the gorgeous ass Cotton who is an absolute Adonis."But I mean I'm free on Saturdays and the circus is in town."I wiggled my eyebrows at the word circus, hinting at his fear.

"Bonnie, don't even joke like that! You know I'm going to find out what you're afraid of, right?"

"Well, I'm afraid of you so I think the proper way to help me is if I come in contact with you so I can face my fear."

"So, exposure therapy?"He smirked down at me.

"Most definitely. I think we should actually do a variety of things to get rid of my Sidonglobophobia which is a fear of cotton balls."I smiled as I caused him to laugh once more. Am I really that funny?

"Oh my god! You are hilarious and your treatment begins on Saturday and will end Sunday morning."He placed a hand on my waist and just stared down at me with those beautiful eyes. I truly do believe that the eyes are the windows of the soul because everything hides or resides behind the eyes. The eyes hold the truth and lies but we can never figure out what a person truly....Was I high? I think Cotton makes me like this. I never get that deep but my mind does wander so maybe I am deep....Phrasing, boom!

"Okay, Dr. Fairchild and keep in contact with your patient this time. See ya around, doc."I winked and strutted away. Don't trip, don't fall, attempt to look sexy. I safely made to my seat next to Rebecca as he continued to stare at me. Mission completed! God damn, am I awesome or what?!.... Don't answer that.

***
Since coming home hours ago, I just laid in bed watching tv. I'm actually watching Rick and Morty right now because that show is my shit. The kids are loud and rampant which is good, if they were quiet that would be a problem. Hmmm, Rick and Morty would be a good costume idea this Halloween. I could be Rick and Darlene could be Morty. What the hell am I thinking? Why was I thinking about that?... That would be awesome, though.

"Ms. Sinclair?"Mr. Kane knocked on my door. I just decided to stick with calling him Mr. Kane because I always respect my elders. Well, that's not exactly true but he signs my paycheck, man.

"Come in."I threw a blanket over my legs because they make him uncomfortable and I didn't shave them this morning so yeah I can feel the stubble already. He opened the door with a smile. He is really, really handsome! Those blue eyes just kill me. They're so pretty and amazing -and I am checking out my boss. Nice. But I mean ain't no harm in just looking, I'm not interested or anything.

"Good afternoon. It's been awhile since we last spoke. I just wanted to see if you were okay."He smiled as he scratched his head.

"I'm great, thanks for checking up on me."I smiled back at him.

"Hopefully the kids aren't giving you any trouble."

"Of course they are but they're kids. It's nothing I can't handle, I mean I am a professional babysitter."I flashed him a cocky grin. We both jumped from the screaming that came from the tv but it was just Beth and Summer. I thought it was one of the kids, thank god it wasn't.

"Rick and Morty huh? Pretty cool show."He tucked his hands into each of his pants' pockets. He actually knows what this is? He seems like the HGTV type.

"Wait, you watch this?"

"Of course. I'm not completely lame or that old. I love this show but I watch it after the kids go to bed."He leaned against the door frame, watching it. I could tell he really wanted to watch it but he's acting like he doesn't.

"It just started actually...You can watch it in here if you want. You're not doing anything, I'm never doing anything. It'll be like boss-employee bonding."I smiled at him once more causing him to blush a little. Why are you blushing, dude? There's no need.

"I-I really shouldn't. I don't want to be a burd- Wait so that naked meatball thing took Jerry to Birdperson's wedding?"He asked slowly walking into the room."I didn't see this one."

"Yuuuup. I mean there's a nice comfortable chair right over here and Rick and Morty the season finale is on. Might as well watch it with Ms. Sinclair."I looked at him then at the chair. Finally, he just sat in the chair and was glued to the TV. Finally, I have someone to watch Rick and Morty with again.

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