OK, guys this is my first try to write in guy's perspective. I am definitely not trying to speak as a guy, neither will I be good at it.I am sorry for the flaws.

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Commitment,  a strong word,  a lock, a decoy.

  Commitment, To the girl I date, I need to keep.  

Commitment, a tie I won't break, I can't break.

Commitment,  so I left my  girl behind instead.

But "My girl" I called her, without knowledge.

Was she my love-the girl I left behind?

But "My love" I called her, my heart did, uncontrolled,

Was she my love-the girl I left behind?

I can't be the guy who cheats,the one who uses,

I am obliged to the girl I am with now, my date.

"My love"I called her too, but not uncontrolled, 

"My girl", I called her with conscience not heart.

My life she saved, a life she gave and built- a drug,

She is the drug-the girl I left behind.

She is the shoulder I always relapsed to, like a rebound,

Or even my antedote- the girl I left behind.

All she asked was my smile, she tried for it too,

The girl of any guys dream, the dream catcher,

She never demanded more,but always hoped ,

She always wanted to be my girl. Alas,if only I  ..

She was the girl I needed, the girl I wanted, everything,

But I had one already-So I left her behind.

She was my first, and my very last, if only I knew her heart,

We could have been-but No, I left her behind.

(...to be continued.....)

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Quote:

"A man who acquires the ability to take full possession of his own mind may take possession of anything else to which he is justly entitled."-Fifty Shades of Grey.

Written in hope by the day dreamer I am.

Written in my dreams for a day to come.

~Chaahat