Today I had a lot of work to be done. I had been absent since weeks and now the load of work to be completed as soon as possible was on my head.

Stella my assistant has been helping me alot. But I do feel bad for her that she has to leave her work especially for me so I can get rid of the work load soon.

My almost half of it has been done but still the remaining half was left to be done and be submitted by this week. So the company's ceo could see the progress of this company till how much have they reached.

Work has kept me alot busy.. This way I could focus more on my work.

The past days were like something that I couldn't express in words. It was a turning point of my life. Thinking about it now makes me shudder.

But still there's always this one question that keeps bugging me. Did Alyaan really ever love me??. Or did he just take my love for granted and used me as a ragged doll??.

What if he really did use me like a ragged doll.. Didn't show up the day we had to run away.

The words Farrah told me when she had stopped me from running away... Were they really right about Alyaan!?.

How could I be so blinded with his fakeness that he had shown me by his love!?.

He would have by now got know about my marriage with Badr.. He would have shown himself some or the other way in the office.. But he didn't!!.

I wish I shouldnt have planned on running away with him... I wish I shouldn't have listened to him.. I wish I would have just said no to him the day he told me to run away with him... I wish I should have listened to Farrah when she had tried to warn me about this all.. I wish I shouldn't have dragged Badr in this.

Just because of me Badr is suffering from the deed that I had done.

I wish and really wish that I shouldn't have done this all...!!!.

All I could do was I wished..

Hearing stella's voice snapped me out of my daze.

Ms. Mannat have you completed the today's work.

Umm.. Umm.. Yeah I have done today's work.. Is there something else to be done.

No Ms. Mannat that's it for today...

It's almost off now you can go to your home now...

Umm.. Yeah sure...

With that Stella walked out of my office.

I got up from the chair and packed my things up and kept them in my bag.

Walking out of the room I quickly entered the lift and pressed the ground floor button.

Once reaching there I got out of the lift and made my way out of the company.

I took out my mobile to call Badr but looking at the time made me stop from calling... He might be busy at this hour.

So I quickly booked the Uber.

It came within few minutes.

Sitting in the car I rested my head on the headrest and closed my eyes.

Ma'am we are here.

Uhh... Yeah..

I payed the fare to the driver and got out of the car.

Reaching at the door step I took out the key from my purse and quickly unlocked it.

Entering in the house I went towards the bedroom.

Opening the door of the room I entered in and kept my things on the sofa and made my way towards the cupboard to take out the clothes and then went to the  bathroom to get freshed.

Coming out i walked towards the dressing table.

My eyes landed on my reflection in the mirror.

I stared at my self for few minutes. I was no longer the happy cheerful one that I used to be but now replaced with the one that who doesn't even knows the meaning of happiness in her life.

I took the pony from the table and tied my hairs.

Now I had nothing to do so I got out of my room and went to the living room to watch the TV.

Sitting on the sofa I turned on the TV and flicked through the channels.

There was nothing interesting that I could watch. But still I saw what ever was there on the screen to watch.

My mind once again drifted to the thoughts that I now wanted to get rid off.

Everything that happened kept on replying in my mind like a flash back. No matter how hard I try to forget nothing changes. Everything out there is still fresh in my mind and will never leave me.

I had no idea when the tears started to form in my eyes.

I wiped them off but they being stubborn didn't stop.

I let them fall down. I deserved this all in the end its my fault that this all had happened. I deserved it.

Kya hua Mannat q ro rhi ho tum??. Kisi nay kuch kaha hai kya tumhay??.

I got startled after hearing his voice. When did he come back?.

I quickly wiped off my tears and looked up at him.

Badr.. Tum??...

Haan...

Kya hua Mannat??.

Nai nai kuch nai hua bs ayesay he..!.

Umm.. Acha..

Yeh dekho mein khaana laya hoon yeh khalo tum...

Umm.. Nai Badr mera dil nai chah rha.

Mannat apna khayal rkha kro. Wrna is tarah toh tum beemar prh jao gi.

I kept looking up at him. Why does he care for me??.

Kitni fikr krtay ho naa tum meri Badr mut kiya karo.

At this I looked away from him.

Mein deserve nai krti itni care.

Mannat mein nay tumhay kaha hai ayesa na kaha kro tum bohat achi ho.

My head snapped at his direction.

Kya kuch nai kiya mein nay tumharay saath Badr. Kitna bura salooq or kitna insult kiya tha mein nay tumhay jb tum mujhay smjha ay ki koshish kr rhay thay.

Chahay tum kuch bhi krlo Mannat na mein tumhay kbhi bura smjhoon ga, or na kbhi nafrat kroon ga. Yeh meray liye bohat mushkil kaam hai.

Bawajood is keh bhi keh meinay...

He cut me off in between.

Mannat... Iss baray mein koi bhi baat nai krna chahta...

He looked away from me and I kept staring at his face.

Ek sawaal poochoon Mannat..

I kept looking at him..

Haan poocho Badr..!.

Then his gaze landed on the foot that he bought.

He bought it closer to him and opened it.

Badr woh sawaal..?

Nai abhi nai Mannat phlay khaana khalo!.

Agr tum chaho Badr toh hum dosno saath mein kha laytay hain.

He looked up at me a little stunned.

I gave him a reassuring smile.

He filled the spoon with rice and gestured me to open my mouth.

At this care of Badr the tears started to fall. I sniffed.

Badr kept on feeding me with his hand and ate along with me.

I kept on sniffing.

Looking up at me he kept the spoon aside that he was holding and moved the food aside.

He came a little closer to me and bought his hands upto my face and wiped off the tears.

Yeh ansoo naa bhao Mannat. Mein wada krta hoon tumsay keh mein kbhi bhi koi dukh tumhay pohanchnay nai doon ga. Waada hai mera tumsay.

Then Badr wrapped his arms around me and hugged me.

I wrapped my arms around him. In his comfort I felt safe from everything.

I didn't want him to leave me.

At this moment I realised that Badr will never leave me and never let me suffer as long as he was with me.

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