I was sitting there on the bed and changed up the clothes for my nikkah and staring right at the wall in front of me.

What turn has my life taken all of sudden.. From the happiness I had in my life to the sorrow's of my life..

No matter how hard I try to forget all this... It all clashes back again...

I blinked my eyes to stop the tears that were beginning to form in my eyes. I can't cry now... What's done is done!!... This all was written up in my faith.. I had to get betrayed by the one who I loved, I had to get hated by my own dad, I had to be forced into this marriage, this all was written up in my faith and nothing could change it now.

I took a deep breath in to control myself from letting my feelings out.

Will I never ever have happiness in my life??. Will I be ever be loved??. Do I really deserve the hate of everyone??. Why is everyone seeing me as I'm the one at mistake??... Am I really that bad to be hated by each and everyone in the house...??.. I never knew that my life would ever take such turns from happiness to the sadness...!!..

The opening of the room's door made me get out of my trance...

I looked up to see who it was...

Mannat beta utho Molvi Saab a gaye hain...

I still sat in the bed and made no movement in getting up.

I could feel the hands of my mom on my shoulders...

Beta mein jaanti hoon yeh sb theik nai ho rha tumharay saath... Pr jo bhi go rha hai Allah ki marzi say ho rha hai... Issi mein behtari hai...

Uth jao aab beta...

I got up from the bed and started to make my way out of the room...

Reaching downstairs we headed out for the living room.

Entering in my mom made me sit on the sofa...

I saw my dad, uncle, Badr and the molvi Saab entering in.

Badr came and sat beside me on the sofa.

I just wanted to get and run away from here. But I couldn't do such thing.

My mom came and stood behind the sofa.

Chalain molvi Saab shroo krain aap nikkah.

Theik hai Saab...

The molvi Saab started the nikkah...

Badr Muneeb kya aapko Mannat Mehmood apnay nikkah mein qabool hain??..

G.. Qabool hain...

He said it 3 times and he sealed his faith with me...

I didn't have the courage to look up so I kept looking down...

Mannat Mehmood kya aapko Badr Muneeb apnay nikkah mein qabool hain??..

I didn't say anything... The falshbacks of Alyaan and mine started to flash in my mind.. I wanted erase them forever but couldn't... I still loved him. Him saying I love you came flashing in my mind... I could say anything....

Kya apko Badr Muneeb apnay nikkah mein qabool hain??....

I wanted to say no and get up... But I didn't..

G.. Qabool hai...

I said it 3 times and this way l sealed my faith with him...

Chalain aab dua krtay hain...

After the dua was done my mom came towards me and hugged me...

But I sat there still not moving at all.

After few minutes I felt someone nudging me.

I looked up to see who it was.

Beta utho aab rukhsati ka waqt hai.

I got up from the sofa and held mom's hand tightly not wanting to leave her. But nothing could happen I had to leave her and go forever.

I took a deep breath in to calm myself down.

We walked out of the living room.

I looked at the hose for the last time.

Mehmood akhri baar beti keh sur pr hath rkh dain or ossay khood rukhsath kr dain.

Kahan krain gay papa in hain sirf apni izzat ki fikr hai kaheen doob na jaye na... Or mein toh in keh liye toh mur chuki hoon koi taluq nai hai inka mujhsay aab toh..

I could see that my father had felt stiff after hearing these words.

Mera na he apsay taluq hai na kisi or say iss ghar say.

I walked away not caring to look back anymore.

Once I reached outside I spotted Badr who was already standing there with the cab.

Chalo yahan say aab Badr.

G

Once we sat in the car I looked outside.

How my life has taken such turn all of a sudden and I had no idea what else did I have to face more now..

I rested my head on the head rest and closed my eyes.

I felt Badr looking at me but I didn't daee to open my eyes up.

Because of me he's here in this state if I wouldn't have planned off running this wouldn't have happened.

Mannat uthain hum pohanch chukay hain.

I opened my eyes to look outside. Indeed we had reached.

I opened the car's door and got out.

I looked around my surroundings it was a beautiful place where his apartment was located.

Chalain.

Haan.

We walked there together and he took out the keys from his pocket to open the door.

Unlocking it we entered in.

I couldn't help but look at it in awe. It's really beautiful the place where he stayed. No matter if its small but the way he has set it up is completely wonderful.

Ayain mein aapko bedroom dikha dayta hoon.

He led the way. Reaching there he opened the door.

The room was set up neatly.

Aap change krna chahti ho toh krlo phir ooskeh baad aap bed pr so jaana mein neechay mattress daal kr so jaoon ga.

I nooded at his words and entered in.

I took the clothes out from the bag and went on the washroom to change them.

Once changing them I walked out of the washroom.

I saw Badr had changed and was now preparing to sleep.

Badr tumhay neechay sonay ki zaroorat nai hai tum bed or so sktay ho.

Hearing my words he looked stunned.

Ayesay kya dekh rhay ho so sktay ho apnay bed pr tum. Bohat cold hai yeh na ho keh tumhay cold lug jaye neechay sotay hoye.

Theik hai.

I walked towards the other side of the bed and layed down.

After the lights went off I felt the other side of the bed dip.

Will I be able to live my happily or there will be more pain and sorrow in my life... For this I had no idea what else was to come up in my life....