nothing feels real

even something that felt so real as it happened, looking back, feels so unreal now.

it was loud, and it hurt, the way we all screamed, it was real. i felt it. but did i really? i can't remember how it hurt, i can't remember how i yelled, or how my hands shook, but im sure it happened. everything feels so real and unreal at the same time? is that normal?

nothing but the current happenings feel real. am i over thinking things