I can't help but feel the way my heart beats faster when you're mentioned and I hate it.

You're so lovely, I hate to waste your time,

Don't think I'm avoiding you,

Don't think I hate you,

I'm avoiding myself and the way I feel because I can't stand the way it burns me from the inside out.

I don't want this and I don't like this yet I find myself in this situation again.

Forgive me, love. For I have hurt myself in the most metaphorical of ways.