I've come to realize I want to be so many things and nothing at the same time once I'm older and looking for a job. At the moment, between the three jobs I'd want to have, one would make me struggling and struggling, another would make me sad and sad, and the last one would make me struggling and sad.

Honestly, all of the career paths I'd wanna take either are unrealistic and full of all sorts of struggling or just would make me really really sad.

Because, of course, I wanna be an author, which is quite a difficult job to get started in and all in all doesn't make much money unless you're award winning. I also wanna be a psychiatrist, because I wanna help people, but honestly, even though it brings in a lot of money, it would honestly be fatal to my own mental health. And finally, I've always had a love of acting and becoming someone I'm simply not, so I would love to be an actress. But that sounds so unrealistic. The majority of actors struggle a hell of a lot more than sad and struggling than authors, and that seems like an even more unrealistic job option. Also, with my speaking disability if you'd call it that, it makes it difficult to pronounce my 'r's and you need to be able
to speak clearly in the acting business.

Why are all of my dreams impossible ahhHhhhH-

Even though I'm only in 8th grade, and I have years until a really have to choose, but like, it's what, 5 years until I graduate high school, and then I'll have to figure out what college I wanna go to and I'll be thrust out there into the real word. 5 years isn't that far away.

Sorry that I have mid-life crisis's like once a month, oops.