Y'all know that moment when all you want to do is cry yourself to sleep and then never wake up because then you'll have to face the outside world that makes you wanna cry yourself to sleep and never wake up so you don't have to face the outside world?

I'm literally hating myself because I was sick earlier today and I missed out on my church's Confirmation for our youth when today we were gonna go to a hospital, and I know how disappointed my church and friends are at me, and that I missed out on so much fun stuff.

I also hate myself because literally no one around me believes that I'm sick ever because I'm sick all the time, but really it's just me being to weak to face the people around me, being unable to fake a smile or laugh, and unable to keep up this facade.

I'm just gonna listen to Jekyll and Hyde the Musical now if anyone needs me :,)