Before I walk into the class I take a deep breath and force myself to start walking. As I walk into the classroom I see him sitting in the front of the class, he's waiting for the teacher to start. My eyes are glued to him as I slowly walk up to him and I literally want to throw myself out of a window when his eyes land on me. I smile and he pats the desk next to him, even pulls it a little closer to him. My whole uterus almost falls out of my body, gosh damn it. Why did he do that? I just try to look like I didn't poop my pants and walk over to him.

"Jisooooo." He teases, I chuckle nervously. "Seokjiiiin." I say back to him as I sit down. "Has anyone ever told you that you're really awkward?" I stare at him with big eyes, oh my gosh. "Yes." I say quickly. He chuckles, "People tell me that too." I let out a breath of relief. "Really?" I ask him. He nods, "Yes, I think that means we'll get together well." He smiles. I slip my backpack off my arms, "R-Really?" I hate myself for stuttering. "Yeah." He nods. I feel my little heart pop like a balloon. "Okay class, let's get started." Our teacher starts and I continue staring at him as he looks forward and I'm left looking at that jawline.

**

I walk over to my locker and exchange my textbooks, "Hey Chae." I shut my eyes tight and close my locker. "Go away." I tell him. "I hear you're talking to this guy.. do you-", "Why do you care all of a sudden... huh?" I turn to him. His eyes look into mine, I quickly look away. I'd honestly be scared of what he'd see, he was always able to read my like an open child's book. And I say child's book because what I'm feeling is always in huge font for him to read. I'm sure he hasn't lost his touch, just like he hasn't stopped being annoying.

"I just know what kind of guy he is." I roll my eyes, "Oh please, you don't know anything. Stay the hell out of my life." I try to walk past him but he pulls my arm. I give him a glare, finding it hard for myself to even look at him. To even make eye contact with him, or even face in his direction. Gosh damn it he still makes me weak. How did  he even find out that I'm talking to Chanyeol anyways? "Stop talking to him." His voice deepened and he sounds serious.

I yank my arm away from him, "Who do you think you are? You have no say in my life." His hand stays open at his side, he's stunned. I'm not the girl he left broken and ten feet under soil, I'm just a girl who scared to look at the guy who dug my grave for me and helped me walk in. The guy I voluntarily went into that grave for hoping he'd come back one day and remember me. Then I got tired of waiting.

"I don't need you looking after me because I really don't care what you have to say. I stopped caring a long time ago, so stop acting like you still do because I know for a fact that you're doing all thing out of pity for me not because you actually care." I drop my gaze then walk away from him. I set my hand on my chest, my heart is pounding so hard and I really don't know what to think of it. "I hate you Jimin." I whisper as I walk to my next class. "Hey Chae." I smile and I look up, raising my shoulders. "Hey Chanyeol." I say coyly. "Was that kid giving you a hard time?" He asks as he points behind me.

I barely look over my shoulder and I see Jimin stuffing his little hands in his pockets, he slowly walks in another direction down the hall. I quickly look away from him. "I don't even know him." I say. "Oh.. okay.. want to walk to class together?" He asks. I smile once again. "I would love to walk with you to class." I look up at him and he smiles back at me. As we walk side by side I look at his big hand, I want to hold it and it makes me wonder what it would feel like to have his hands hold my face as he kisses me. "So what did you think about the story we had to read about Romeo and Juliet?" He asks.

"I don't really get their love.. like.. maybe the fact that it was forbidden is what made it a little more interesting for them. I mean.. do you really believe in true love at first sight?" He hums to my response. "I get what you're saying, but I personally think that there's such thing as love at first sight." He smiles and I blush. "Oh.. how romantic." I whisper. "What?" He asks politely. "I-I said how sweet." He shrugs, "I'm a hopeless romantic." I let out a breath and stare at his face from the side. "Yeaaah.." He looks at me and I snap out of me, "I'm a hopeless romantic also, if I do say so myself." I nod trying to act less creepy.

His hair was brushed to the side and a little string of hair falls on his forehead, it was a clump of hair that was stuck together by gel. Oof.. I wonder what it would feel like to run my fingers through his hair as we'd kiss. The second my binder slips out of my arms is when I snap out of it. My binder slides across the hall and I smack my hand over my mouth. "I got it, don't worry." He walks over to the binder and picks it up, I walk up to him and I stop in place. He smiles and looks deep into my eyes, "I can hold it for you until we make it to class." He suggests. I feel my cheeks heat up and I know that he sees it. "If you insist.." I tell him.

Oh my gosh, Chanyeol cooties all over my binder? Yes please.. oh gosh.. this crush is getting way too intense. "But besides the unrealistic romance, what did you think of it?" He asks, still talking about the play. "Oh, it was very moving honestly. They showed their parents, in a really messed up way.. but.. they showed them." His gaze was on me intensely. "Oh! Yes I agree." He nods. "I still think that they didn't have to kill themselves, like.. they act like they wouldn't be able to find another person who they could love." He nods again. "Yeah, I guess all of Shakespeare's stories are like that. Apparently someone always dies in his plays."

We walk into the classroom and I'm extremely discouraged. "Here you go." He tells me as he hands me my binder. "Thank you." I give him the cutest smile ever and higher my shoulders to make me look bashful. He smiles and as he hands me the binder he touches my fingers, I want to die. After he walks away I want to turn to soil and die happily. When the binder is in my hand he slowly walks away, I'm left frozen like a hamster when someone passes by their cage too quickly. Finally I snap out of it before my teacher can tell me anything. When I sit in my seat I let out a breath and relax.

**

•After School •

"Tell us everything." Jisoo wiggles her eyebrows at me. "Y'all nasty." I shake my head. "You're nasty." All three girls say together. I chuckle, "You hoes already know I'm going to tell you so I don't know why you're acting like I'm not going to." I roll my eyes. "Aye, ya boy is coming right now." Lalisa teases and my eyes shoot to the school, there he is.. he walks down the steps of the school as he's talking to his friends. I slowly smile to myself as he asks his friend something and his friend points in my direction. Taehyung looks at me and smiles wide, he smacks his friend on the back and they part ways.

"Act cool bitch." Lalisa smacks my ass upward so hard that it hurts and my skirt flies up. I give her a glare but they all walk away, they're all going to head over to Chaeyoung's house. I chuckle and when I turn Taehyung is already in front of me, "Where are the girls going?" Haha, cute.. he calls my friends "the girls." I smile, "They're going over to Chae's for a sleepover." I tell him, his lips pull into an 'O' shape. "You're not going?" He asks me. I smile and set my hand on his chest. "After I spend time with you." I tilt my head up toward. "Then let's not take too long." He tells me. There's a honk and I turn to see my mother. "Let's go." I pull him towards my mother's car.

She has the biggest smile on her face when I bring Taehyung with me, "Eomma.. Taehyung is coming over." I tell her as we get into the back seat. "Hi Taehyung, it's very nice that you're coming over. I haven't seen you in a couple of days." She smiles. "Oh.. y-yeah.." He stutters and I just keep holding his hand as we make it over to the house, the second my mother stops in our driveway I yank him out of the car. My mother unlocks the house and I instantly pull him toward my room. "Would you like me to watch a loud movie?" My mother already knows. "Yes." I tell her before I make it to my room and push him against the wall.

He's already out of breath and I press myself on him as I lock the door. "B-But what about your father?" I let out a breath, "He's at work, don't bring him up when I'm about to have sex with you Taehyung. It's a lady boner killer." It's funny how he wanted this but now he's nervous? We've done this several times, why is today any different? I kiss his lips, "Don't bring up a girl's father when she's about to be a dirty girl." I tell him, I pull the front of his slacks and start to kiss his neck as I slowly enter my hand into his pants. He lets out a breath and I smile.

**

"Oh wow... do you think that Jennie is wrecking that boy right now?" The girls squeal as they stuff their face with rice. We're currently in a restaurant near Chae's house. "Yes, but I'm sure it'll be just a minute." Jisoo says, I nearly choke on my tea. "Are you saying that he-", "Quickest quickster of all quickies." We all laugh. "It's not his fault, Jennie is hot as hell and would make any guy bust a nut in less than a second." Jisoo adds. "Yes, that's true." I nod.

"What do you think she will say about it?" Chae chuckles. "Uh uh, done." I say quickly and the girls laugh really hard. I throw my head back and laugh at my own joke because I'm funny as hell. "Accurate though, probably." Chae nods. "You know, does that mean guys have issues if they can't last?" Jisoo wonders out loud, and it makes me wonder too. "I have no idea." I throw out my bottom lip. For the rest of our feast we talk about something else, just because the empty restaurant was becoming not so empty anymore. "So.. Jimin walked up to me today." Chae says as she moves her food around with her chopsticks.

Jisoo and I look at each other with wide eyes before we look at Chaeyoung. "What'd he say?" I ask. "He was just saying how I shouldn't talk to Chanyeol." She says simply as she picks up a chunk of rice and puts it in her mouth. "Huh.. he acts like he's still your boyfriend." Jisoo sounds annoyed. "Exactly, I told him how he has no say in my life." She shrugs and uses her chopsticks to place more noodles on her plate. She was greatly affected by the interaction with Jimin today, I can really tell. I'd be the same if BamBam came up to me.. but he doesn't give two shits about my existence. He just straight up doesn't care that he ruined my life and reputation.

"I decided that I should ask Chanyeol about what he thinks about me at school on Monday." She adds. "You've been talking to him for the past few months, so I guess it's reasonable." I nod, accepting that she has changed the subject. "I honestly won't be surprised if he likes you, he is kinda obvious." Jisoo adds with a mouthful of meat. I nod in agreement, "He'd honestly be so stupid to not like you." She smiles, and it makes me happy to see her smile finally since she's brought up that prick they call Jimin. We continue eating and decide to walk to a nearby store to buy treats for the sleepover.

As we're in the store there are other guys there from our school, because they have the same uniform as us and the same school symbol as well. There's a group of them and they stare at us as we walk down the aisle they're in. The thing that I've learned about Korean boys since I've moved here, is that they legit don't give a shit if you catch them checking you out. They don't care, they'll do it with no shame. They stare at us from top to bottom and I make sure that my skirt is in the right spot, Lil nasties. The girls and I don't even look at them as we pass through to get what we need.

"Do you guys want to make s'mores at my house? My dad finally cleaned the fireplace." Chae tells us. "Yeah, do you have hot chocolate?" Chaeyoung thinks, "We have Oreo mint chocolate hot chocolate.." She says. "Oh waaow." I say, they laugh. "That sounds good." Jisoo nods. "Let's get little mallows first." Chaeyoung suggests and I chuckle, "Why do you say Marshmallows like that?" She chuckles. "Cause I want to, shut up." I laugh and we stock up on snack, since Jennie is probably with her snack right now. "If I'm completely honest I don't think Tae is a one second man, he's more like a thirty minute." They nod in agreement.

"We're just jealous bitches." Jisoo adds. "Exactly, why else would we say that?" I ask. "Her mother is so open about it too." Chae adds as she puts several candies in the basket. "She reminds me of the mother from Mean Girls." Jisoo and Chaeyoung gasp, "Oh my gosh... yes." They say together. "She's the type to ask if they need lube or another condom.", "Or even if they want water for their break." Jisoo and Chaeyoung add. I nod in agreement, "My mom would slice me into a sausage if I wanted the sausage." I say bluntly. "HA!" Jisoo laughs and shoves me. "It's okay man, it's not really that important anyways." Chae tells me, I nod, "I know." But do I really?

**

I can tell that Lalisa is bothered by the fact that she's still a virgin, which confuses me a bit because I know for a fact she's not talking to any guys at the moment. And I don't even think she's found a guy she likes yet, why is she so stuck on virginity? Because Jennie is the only sexually active one? I guess that could pressure anyone but I don't see why it would pressure Lalisa, she usually doesn't give a shit about stuff like that but here she is.

Even Jisoo looks at me odd and she also sees that Lalisa's behavior is quite strange. "Are we done grabbing stuff?" Lalisa asks as she looks down the aisle. "Yeah, think so." I mumble. "Okie, let's go then so we're at your house when Jennie decides she wants to join us." Lalisa suggests. We all walk up to the cashier and pay for the stuff before we start to walk to my house. "Lalisaaaa.. are you talking to anyone?" Jisoo teases and I feel like it's not the best time. "No." Lalisa replies bluntly. Jisoo looks at me with a serious face. "Lets just not." Lalisa smiles and then goes back to a straight face.

I hope she can talk about her issues at the sleep over, it will make us all feel better honestly.

**

I look up at the ceiling and cover myself in my blankets. "That was fun.. wasn't it?" He asks as he leans into me under the blankets. I smile wide, my body is relaxed and I feel like I'm on cloud nine. "Yes." I whisper to him. He smiles back at me feeling accomplished and good about himself, honestly he should because it was great. I bite my lip and he raised an eyebrow. "I think you should do one more thing." I tell him as my hands run down my body, his eyes follow until he gets the idea of what I want. He smiles wide and he makes an effort to hover over me.

He kisses my lips and his hands hold the sides of my body. "I've been practicing." He whispers. I smile and peck his lips, "I'd like to see that." He smiles back and kisses me back. "I hope it's an improvement." He kisses my neck. "I'm sure it will be." I respond as I close my eyes and my hands latch onto the blankets. I feel his body heat lowering as he kissed my body slowly which made me more excited. He kissed unbelievably slow as he got closer to the perfect spot. I whimper as he lightly uses his tongue, only the tip of it ran up the area. Which is enough to make my body shake.

I feel his hot breath as he exhales and his hands gently hold onto my hips. The next thing I know his whole mouth is on my and I arch my back. He sucks several times which makes me moan. I shut my eyes and lift my chin up toward the ceiling, I grip the sheets like my life depends on it. I feel nothing but pleasure as he takes his time and displays the passion with his mouth. Honestly it must look strange under the blankets. Okay, defeats the purpose of what I should be thinking about at this moment.

Soon Taehyung and I are getting dressed and I'm walking him out of my house. He smiles as he stands on my doorstep, "When can I see you again?" I lean my head against the door, "In what way?" I ask, "Just us.. not in this way." He makes it clear. "Ah." I chuckle. "Like a regular date." I add. "Yes." He says. "Oh I don't know." I smile and bite my lip, "I'll text you." He lowers his head. "Okay.. I'll be waiting." I walk up to him. He just stares at me with those eyes, oh gosh those eyes. I see his hands drip the straps of his backpack. "I'll text you tomorrow so you can have your night with the girls." I smile.

"You're so sweet." I fix his shirt that is tucked into his slacks. I set my hand on his cheek and kiss his other cheek. "Bye.." He whispers deeply in my ear. "Bye Taehyung." I try not to sound like his voice just punched me in the uterus. "Have fun tonight." He takes a step back as his hands continue to hold the straps of his backpack. "Okay." I smile. He slowly bites his bottom and smiles back. I watch him walk away, oh gosh his ass is so damn nice. I close the door and let out a breath. "That boy ought to stop doing squats, his butt is like a balloon." I gasp. "EOMMA!" I feel my face turn pink.

"Oh honey! It's okay to be flustered, I'm sure you just released so many stressful chemicals with that boy and you feel relaxed and want to go to sleep an-", "I need to get my stuff ready for the sleepover that's what I need to do." I try to walk away from her but she grabs me, "Wow! That boy made you a woman!" She cheers. "Eommmmaaaa!" I cry. "How precious my love, I hope it was great.", "I might cry if you don't let me go.", "Oh! This is an emotional time for you.. I get it.", "Only because of you.", "Oh because it's so special!" She ignores me. I stare off into space as my mother ignores that she's making this unbelievably awkward for me.

"OKAY! Go get ready for the sleepover." The second she lets me go I sprint for my room, that's enough fitness for today. I close the door and look around. I see my school clothes on the floor and a condom wrapper on my night stand. I let out a breath and decide to get ready for the sleepover so I can get out of this house before my mother asks for details.

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