We went to the bathroom so I could clean my face. After that we went in the parking lot. Toya had a blunt and I wanted to relieve some stress.

"That was so wild. I can't believe they lied on my name like that and with Chris at that. They just wanted you mad at me." said Toya. She light the blunt and took a puff.

I reach for the blunt. "Girl I'm not worrying about them hoes. Amanda better be glad Shad pulled me off her or I would have done more damage than that." I said taking another puff off the blunt then pass it to Toya.

Somebody knocked on the car window. It was Chris, I rolled the window down to see what he wanted. "Umm the police are on the school ground. Is y'all okay or something" He said getting in the backseat.

"Yeah we good, why you asked?" Toya asked him.

"Because y'all smoking and we still at school. Let's ride to the park."

Toya started the car and pull out of the parking lot.

"Pass that blunt back here to me." Chris said holding his hand out.

"Wait let me hit it again." I said than took a pull then pass it to my boo.

"Damn what kind of weed is this?" He asked.

"Loud. My mother friend got it for me." Toya said pulling in the park parking lot.

Chris shooked his head. "Damn this shit good. Too bad I don't have any white powder. I really would have got us high."

At the mention of that I started laughing. I don't know why, but I couldn't help myself.

I told Chris to give me the blunt. He handed it to me. I was feeling good.

"Girl you bet not get to high. You know your mother would be fussing." Toya said.

I told her I'm not going home anytime soon. We got out the car. Some boys were playing basketball. I recognize one of them, because he was dancing with me at that party on Friday night. I am so glad he didn't saw me.

"Dang, nothing is happen out here today." Chris said taking a seat on a bench.

"You wanted to come here remember?" Toya said tying her shoes.

Chris said he needed something stronger, I don't know if he mean crack or not, but I didn't want to know. I am not trying to do that again.

"I can get us some white powder from a dude I know." Toya said.

"What dude?" Chris said getting mad looking at Toya real hard. Why did that got him so mad. She wasn't his girlfriend. Maybe what Courtney and Amanda said was true, but maybe he didn't want nothing to happen to her.

"He is a friend of my mother." Toya said.

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For the next month everything was starting to get bad. I was skipping school and my grades was dropping. I started stealing from my mother. I started sniffing that white powder more and more. I was addicted. Chris was hitting me more and having sex with me when he wanted too, but I still didn't walk away. My life was going down the drain. I started cutting myself. I was a low life seventeen year old teen.

It was a Friday night, I was getting ready to go to Chris's house when my mother came into my room. She sat on my bed and just looked at me. I didn't like how she was looking at me. I was ready to go to Chris house to get high. I'm not talking about getting high off weed, I needed something stronger. I know that it was bad to do what I am doing, but I was addicted. No one could help me now.

"So where are you about to go?" My mother said.

"To my boyfriend house. He is having a party."

"I don't like that boy. He seem dangerous."

I looked at her then. "Well mama, I love him and he is not dangerous at all."

"Okay if he is not dangerous, why do I see bruises on your arm and face?"

I rolled my eyes. "I told you I got into a fight at school."

"You can't lie to me, I am your mother. I know that boy been putting his hands on you." She said getting off my bed.

"You don't know a damn thing mom okay."I yelled at her. I was tired her saying bullshit things to me about Chris. He is not dangerous. He just be high alot and he don't mean to hit me.

My mother slapped me in my face. I want to hit her ass back. What the hell was her problem, putting her damn hand in my fucking face.

"Don't you ever raise your voice at me again. Do you hear me?" She shouted at me.

"You don't tell me what the fuck to do. I am almost grown and I be damned if I sit in this damn house and listen to you." I had never said those things to my mother before. I almost regret it. I think it was the drugs talking not me, because I still was high from today, when I smoke with Toya and Chris.

"You know what you little bitch get your shit and get the fuck out my house if you so grown. Go live with Chris, and watch his ass end up killing you." Damn that hurted when she said that, but I will not back down.

"I would be glad too. You don't give me shit anyway." I said walking out my room and out the front door.