Chapter 64- Night time troubles part 2

A/N: Bad things keep happening, nightmares, panic attacks, attacking others and having Galra features kicking in.
*Contains panic attack, claustrophobia, strong language, child abuse, Dissociative identity disorder (D.I.D.) and mentions of Keith being suicidal*

~For those who may not know what D.i.D. is-
It is also called multiple personality disorder. It is a mental disorder caused by many factors, including severe trauma during early childhood (usually extreme, repetitive physical, sexual, or emotional abuse). It is the splitting of one self. The other personalities are called: Alters. Each personality reveals itself and controls the individuals' behavior and thoughts, it's called "switching." Switching can take seconds to minutes to days and can last for a period of time while the said alter is in control. The alters, or different identities have their own age, sex, or race.

"So what are we going to do next?" asked Pidge and Shiro looked at the others then back to the pod that held his, no...their brother.

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That night the paladins stayed in the med bay sleeping the night away while they all waited for Keith to come out of the pod.

It was dark in the room.
Keith's eyes began to flutter open and he could barely see outside the fogged up glass of the pod. Once Keith's eyes got into focus he just realized how closed in he was and a tightness formed inside his chest. 

''H..He-Help!'' cried out Keith, but his voice didn't reach outside the pod. Keith began to move and panic began to set in as memories came rushing back, chocking Keith in the small pod.

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"You Little Piece Of Shit!!" yelled an angry voice coming closer towards a young Keith. "Get Over Here!!"

"I-I...I" stuttered Keith as he backed up from his mad foster father. "I didn't m-m-mean t-to. It was an a-accident" Keith cried.  His foster father reached out for Keith's neck and squeezed tightly. "P-Please..." chocked out Keith right before his foster father threw him into the small closet right outside the kitchen. "NO!" yelled Keith as the door slammed shut before him.

Keith's fingertips touched the wooden door as tears came into his eyes. He feared how long he would be in here this time. He tried to tell his foster father that it was an accident, he didn't me to knock over the box of cereal, he really didn't and he was cleaning it up as fast as he could but it just wasn't good enough. Keith pulled his knees to his chest and cried, he hated small places.
The space was too small, closing in on him by the second. He felt like he was running out of air, his chest moving up and down very quickly as he tried to catch the last bit of air left in this closet but it was never enough. A sharp, stabbing pain filled his chest and his vision was becoming blurry. He hated this, he hated all of this. Small spaces, never being enough, panic attacks, being in the foster care and never being cared for or loved. Tears came rushing down his face as he was losing more and more air to breathe, soon enough everything was spinning, his hands were tingly and everything went black.

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Keith's violet eyes flashed gold as he began to bang upon the glass of the pod. He couldn't breathe. He could barley move, it was all way too much, too triggering for him.

Keith's fists banged on the glass a few times before there was a sound of a beep and everything went fuzzy then black. 

The paladins laying around heard the beep and got up quickly to see the pod door swoosh open. Shiro went forward to catch Keith but stop when Keith jumped out of it and stood in a fighting stance. His nails had turned into claws and Shiro could see his hands shaking.

"Keith?" voiced Lance and golden eyes landed on Lance before he spoke.

"Keith isn't here right now" he said.

"What?" Lance asked but before he could step forward, Shiro held his arm out to him, telling him to stop.

"K?" questioned Shiro and he watched as the golden eyes narrowed in his direction. "It's Shiro"

"I know who you are" said K.

"Can you bring Keith out?" asked Shiro and watched as his brother took a step backwards from him.

"What The Hell is going on?!?" yelled Lance, gaining a shush from Pidge.

"Lance, I can't explain right now" said Shiro as he moved closer but that only set K off and he dashed out of the med bay.

"Keith!" Hunk yelled just as the door swooshed shut. Shiro sighed and and his hand through his hair as he was beating himself up. For he knew that he shouldn't have put Keith into that pod, he knew Keith was claustrophobic because of a past home he was in. Shiro knew so much about Keith's past but when he really needed him, Shiro let him down.

"Shiro...'' said Pidge as she walked forward and gently grasped his wrist, letting him know that she was there with support. "Does...does Keith have... Dissociative identity disorder?" asked Pidge.

"Dissociative what?" asked Lance who was truly confused about all of this. He was scared for his friend when he saw him going through some Galra changes but this was something totally else and he had no idea if he could help out at all.

Shiro couldn't at the moment answer Lance's question, he needed to find his baby brother. Shiro nodded his head as he made his way towards the exit.

"Wait!" Hunk yelled but Pidge hushed him as Shiro rushed out of the room. Shiro knew that Pidge would explain what that was to the two boys for he had to find his brother and get him back.

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K rushed down many hallways, looking for a spot to chill out and be able to breathe normally. He was surprised when he got out of that pod, he was even more surprised when he saw Shiro, even though he looked much different than the last time he saw him.

He was super angry with Shiro, for he really hurt Keith the last time they were together. He left Keith, he left him and it broke him. K had to come out and protect Keith from everything because Shiro was no longer around to do it. It pained him to see Keith so sad again, for him to feel left behind and abandon once again. Keith felt worthless and to K's worst fears, he was suicidal. 
So, K had to come out again, he had to. He hadn't been out for a while because Shiro had come along and helped Keith out so much. Shiro was his rock and then one day he up and left, knowing full well what leaving Keith would do to him. Keith has been broken far too many times and K was now out to make sure that didn't happen now. He had...needed to protect Keith from everything and that included Shiro this time.




Is this any good?? 

If you have read any of my stuff you know that I love angst and that I like to use topics i am familiar with/deal with. So i have panic attacks and suicidal thoughts so i can take from that and use it. 
For D.I.D. 
I have always been interested in it and at one point in my life almost went to study it. I have a friend right now who has D.I.D. but they don't really like to talk about it because it brings up issues from their past.
Here are some references to Shows/Characters who have this mental disorder:

One Life To Live- Jessica and Vicki.
General Hospital- Connie.
United States of Tara- Tara.
Doom Patrol- Jane.


~Thank you for reading this, please leave a comment about your thoughts and if i should make another part of this. Thanks  :)



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