In a field where nothing grows but weed
In a world where noone lives but me
In my mind where noone stays but you
In my heart which doesn't know you
In my scars that show my pain
In the night and in the day
In the rhythm of my life
In each shadow of each light

Everywhere I see your face
Kissing my body covered in lace
My olive skin exposed to the world
Hidden only by white lingerie
And your kisses all over me
Exposing my sins to the Lord

And I don't love you anymore
I don't know what I'm looking for
When I try to find what I need
In every poem I ever read
In every song lyrics I listen to
In every movie I watch
In every dream I dream too
In every perfect match

You said you were sorry
That I wasn't what you wanted
You said you were sorry
And I said nevermind
And you said it hurts you
That I've never loved you
The way you think I did
And I said whatever
Nevermind

The problem is it matters
The problem is it hurts
Because I wanted to love you so hard
But couldn't force my heart

Let me say that I'm sorry too
For not being what you wanted
For not being the girl who
Would unconditonally love you
I'm sorry that in my heart
There only lives one guy
And I'm sorry it's not you
And I'm sorry we can't be happy together
But at least I can say I tried

I kind of needed to write this one to help me to get over one guy I dated but never really loved I think. I never wanted to break his heart. I thought I would love him and that we would be happy. I couldn't and we weren't, obviously. Probably because we weren't soulmates. But he was a teenage love I'll probably never forget. I think we both enjoyed te time spent together, but more in a friendly way than as a couple. So that's it. Just a proof I refused another boy because of that one with a palm tree tattoo on his left arm I don't even know the name of... I must be a horrible person.