This place doesn't feel good at all
I'm waiting here all alone
I'm waiting for someone who won't come
I'm waiting for you
But you don't know

How could you even know?
I've never told you a single word
About how I feel
When I'm with you
And why I didn't mind when you were touching me
A little too drunk

And how it comes you break my heart
Every time you say goodbye
Every time you hug me tight
I would say too tight
If that was possible

And how it comes you break my heart
When you're dancing with me in the dark
When we dance slowly
To Highway to Hell
Don't mind being watched by everyone
Because after all we are best friends
And everybody knows that we are close

And how am I supposed to feel
When one day you're hugging me
And the next day
We don't even talk
And you don't reply to my texts
And I don't reply to yours

We always talk a little too much
We both want to spend some alone time
Because we kind of like the vibe
Of the presence of the other one
But when we're together all alone
You hold my hand
And I hold yours
And you tell me you like me
Thank me for my presence
And I tell you I like you back
But we still only are friends

And today I went to have lunch
With my good friend of school
The one who threw the party
Where we both got a little drunk
And she asked me if I like you
And I couldn't answer
Because I hate to lie
But I don't want her to know

And so I said
"We are kinda close you know"
And she said
"Yeah, closer than just friends indeed"
And I replied
"No we're not dating or anything"
And she smirked at me
And told me that she could see
How jealous I was of that girl
Who took your hand away from mine
And I simply could not lie

I admitted it was true
That I kind of fell for you
And she said
"Oh, why are you so sad?
He obviously likes you back
He gets so nice whenever you're around
And I know you don't notice
Because you don't know
How badly he treats others
You can't see
That he only treats you like a queen
And I'm so happy to see you with him
Because that's how you should be treated
I'm sure he won't cheat on you baby
Because he can't take his eyes of you
You're the one he writes his school essays about
You're the want he wants to hold
While falling asleep
And if he doesn't
Well than he's a hella good liar
But not to anyone else
But himself"

And I almost started crying
Because I knew it was true
But that the reason was different
We were almost like siblings
But we could probably never be lovers
Because we're just already too far
We crossed the line

And although we are always too touchy
We hug each other
And kiss them on their cheek
It's always just to express our love
The friendly kind of it
To say we're having fun
Otherwise than with words
Neither of us can use well enough

I know you don't feel the same way
But I would like to say
I love how touchy you are
When you get a little too drunk
I love your always messy hair
I love how mean you are for no reason
Because no matter how angry you are
You could never be mean to me
You always rant it off
Tell me how cute I look today
And that you hope I'm more fine than you
And you let me hug you
Run my fingers through your hair

You whisper something sweet to my ear
Like "Thank you for holding me"
You call me pixie
Although I'm almost as tall as you
But you like to call me "cutie"
So you have to act like I'm smaller

And right now we are texting
Again about that stupid girl
Who tried to stole you away from me
And you just said
"That girl's so poor
I still regret I didn't
Spend the whole night just with you."
And I replied
"Spend your nights with whoever you want
You know, I could never mind."
And you typed
"Well it would be better
If I danced with you
At least about a whole night longer"

And although you probably don't mean it that way
I'm stupidly smiling to my phone
At this depressive place
Where I'm waiting for you
Although you will never come
Cause you can't go out with me tonight
And people around me think I'm crazy
Cause sometimes I randomly start laughing
And one old lady smiled at me
And said
"Once I was in love just as you are
And those days were so beautiful
I know I'm probably too curious
But could I see the lucky guy?"

And I showed her a photo of you and me
But told her we are just friends
And she said
"Oh Lord
How cute you two are
Girl, you are blind if you don't see
The happiness in his eyes
I know I'm too old for you to trust me
But in this picture I can see
Two people in love with each other"
And I said
"We only love each other as friends"
And she looked at me
And asked me to define that word
And when I did
She said
"Well you two are clearly just friends then
But I don't know how you would define a lover of yours"

Why are old ladies always so nice and say so so beautiful things? Oh gosh... by the way this really happened. That lady was so kind and so positive. I really hope I'll be like her when I'm old. And yeah, agian it's about my best friend aka crush. Sorry.
Love,
S. D.