FUCKING HELL I SWEAR ONE OF THESE DAYS I'M GONNA SNAP AND KILL MYSELF GOD THIS IS FUCKING EXHAUSTING

Like, idk why but I've been getting really depressed lately?? And wanting to cry at everything (and I almost never cry??) or scream at every little thing

I have no fucking clue

It's not like it's fucking PMS, my period just finished like last week or something??

I think I might be bipolar but idk??

I don't know anything and it's pissing me off so much

I just fucking hate everyone and everything lately

And for some reason I'm suddenly getting paranoid in the dark or when I hear noises?? Normally I'm not that scared but lately I've been like "whOA WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT I'M GONNA DIE"

This is a mess hahah like me but idc I'll probably delete it later??

Like seriously I just need to fucking hibernate even though WINTER'S FUCKING PAST IDC

People are so annoying and life just sucks and I don't know how to deal with it??

I've been losing inspiration in art, the one thing that keeps me going sometimes and I don't know why?? I always feel like I'll never be good enough and I'll never develop my style like people I see making art "casually" and their art's fucking perfect

Seriously my art sucks and I hate it??

I have almost no motivation to sketch, let alone line or color anything and that makes me so fucking sad like ???

I just feel like all my creativity is seeping out of me and I'm leaving colorful footprints of my self-esteem and worth everywhere and none is left right now

I don't have the energy to do anything right now and I feel trashier than usual and nothing is helping??

Like just leave me alone to suffer bye

But btw I haven't broke my streak yet so I'm still a little more than 7 months strong

But seriously kill me bye