Dad: Why are you depressed?

What I say: I'm not depressed

What I want to say: BECAUSE YOU NEVER LISTEN TO ME AND YOU JUST DISMISS MY PROBLEMS OR JUSTIFY WHOEVER MADE ME ANGRY AND THEIR ACTIONS AND EVERYONE ALWAYS ACTS LIKE I'M THE VILLAIN AND NO MATTER WHAT I DO IT ALWAYS MAKES ME OR ANOTHER PERSON FEEL BAD AND NO ONE EVER LISTENS TO ME UNLESS I'M SAYING SOMETHING THAT COULD BE MISTAKEN AS RUDE OR REALLY MEAN AND THEN THEY DISTANCE THEMSELVES AND IT HURTS TO CARE ABOUT PEOPLE AND THE ONLY WAY I FEEL LIKE PEOPLE CARE ABOUT ME IS WHEN I'M WITH MY FRIENDS OR ONLINE BUT NOT WITH PEOPLE IN REAL LIFE BECAUSE PEOPLE IN REAL LIFE STRESS ME OUT AND ARE MEAN AND MAKE ME WANT TO KILL MYSELF BUT I DON'T BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO DISAPPOINT PEOPLE AND I WANT TO LIVE UP TO YOUR EXPECTATIONS AND I DON'T WANT TO BE JUST ANOTHER PERCENTAGE AND THE SCHOOL'S FIRST DEATH THIS YEAR AND I WANT TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE BUT IT'S SO HARD TO BREATHE SOMETIMES BECAUSE I'M DROWNING AND EVERYONE ELSE CAN SWIM BUT I FIND CLOSURE ONLINE BUT IF I SHOWED YOU YOU'D FIND SOMETHING BAD AND I DON'T WANT YOU TO AND I JUST WANT TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE IN THIS AWFUL WORLD BUT I'M HELPLESS BECAUSE EVERYONE JUDGES ME BECAUSE I'M "JUST A TEENAGER" AND I CAN'T SAY OR DO ANYTHING THAT WILL MAKE PEOPLE FEEL OTHERWISE