Katsuki x Suicidal Reader

( Let me back track before all of you get confused, the reader doesn't really have anything going wrong to the point were they are suicidal it is more based on  the reader having depression, insomnia, and just bad thoughts in general)

(Y/N)---Your Name

(E/C)---Eye Color

(S/C)---Skin Color

(L/N)---Last Name

(F/C)---Favorite Color

(F/A)---Favorite Animal

(Quirk)---Camouflage-- able to blend into any color-- able to turn things into choice of color

(Author P.O.V)

The sound of quiet sobs echoed through the quiet house, even though the door was closed it did not stop the sniffling from leaking into the hallways. The cold blade of a knife made contact to the rough,scratched, and beaten up (s/c) skin. You tightly closed your already wet (e/c) eyes, you winced in pain as the knife dug deeper into your skin. You pointed the knife at a vertical angle before going down blood slowly seeped out of the cut, you repeated this action many times in different spots on your arms. The strokes began to get more aggressive and quicker as you started getting reckless, your quiet sobs quickly transformed into loud gross sobs. Your breathe hitched as you accidentally hit a vein you let the knife hit the floor, you stumbled over to the mirror to get to the first aid kit and washed out the cut. Your tears kept rolling down your already soaked cheeks, you tightly wrapped the bandage around your wrist making sure to stop the bleeding. You let out a shaky sigh, you bent over and grabbed the knife and proceeded to open the door and make your way to your room. Crawling under the (f/c) sheets, you shoved your face into the pillow. You softly whimpered as you turned your face the other way, over time your noises quieted down soon just being small sniffles and you fell asleep.

TIMESKIP (Next morning)

The sound of your alarm going off interrupted your sleep, you cracked open one of your droopy (e/c) eyes. You grabbed your phone and reading the time, you rubbed your eyes desperately trying to readjust to light that was emitting from your phone. The sound of bones popping flooded your silent room as you stretched, you used your phone to make your way around your room trying to find the light. Once you turned on the light you looked around you room, you walked over to make your bed and did your best to tidy up your room which involves picking up the some of the old blood stained cotton balls,bandages, and other first aid essentials from other previous cutting sessions. Taking once last glance over your shoulder once last time before heading down towards your kitchen, you sighed as you ran your hand through your messy (h/c) (wavy/curly/straight) hair . You let that hand travel to your cabinet that held the packets of instant (coffee/tea), grabbing the box and setting it on the counter before walking over to the other cabinet and grabbing a pot. You headed towards the sink and filled the pot up with water to a good amount, you turned the faucet off and headed to the stove and placed the pot on the stove. You turned the dial up to high, letting the pot sit you lazily walked into your bathroom and turned on the light. You grabbed the (f/c) brush and raked it through your mangled hair, after looking back at your reflection you stretched out your arm. The cuts littered your (s/c) arms , you closed your tired exhausted eyes and focused your quirk on your arm the cuts took some time but slowly began to fade not enough to the point you wouldn't feel them but to the point were they weren't visible anymore. Drowned out by your thoughts you quickly snapped back into reality, returning back to the stove turning the dial to the off setting. You let the pot sit for a few seconds as you retrieved the cup and the (coffee/tea), it didn't take long after you finished making your fresh brewed drink. It was always like this, you would get up hours then you were actually supposed to but you weren't going to lie you enjoyed it.  It hurt knowing you were lying to your dear friends. Sadly, it was the only way to keep them safe when it comes to you they just wouldn't understand the trouble you are currently going through. Someone sooner or later was bound to find out about your little secret, but for now you had to prevent that from happening. The thought of burdening someone made you sick to your stomach, yes it may hurt when you lie through your smile but you would rather have them not suspect a thing than knowing. Reading the clock on your phone you decided to try and get done some chores around the house before the sun rose from the shadows.

TIMESKIP (again im sorry im horrible with transitions)

"(Y/n)............(y/n).........(y/n)!" you jumped in your seat, your eyes focused on the person in front of you.  "O-oh good morning Midoriya", the green haired male tilted his head his eyebrows furrowed indicating that he was concerned about his rather silent friend. "(Y/n) a-are you alright?, you have been spacing out ever since school began." Izuku stuttered, you tried your best to show the most positive smile you could before speaking "Yes, i'm just thinking about the tests that are coming up sorry for worrying you Midoriya.". It almost pained you when he returned the smile back, Midoriya is your closest friend yet not even him understands your troubles. Many times you questioned how someone as sweet and kind as Izuku could ever be friends with someone like you, you took a deep breath "Izuku, th-there is someth-" "Oi, Deku!" a raspy voice cut through your soft tone. Your friend showed a nervous expression "K-kacchan!", he didn't dare try to look the blond in the eye knowing it would only infuriate the male even more. "Get the hell out of here Deku!" Bakugou growled, Midoriya sent a pitiful look before turning away and walking to his seat behind Katsuki(You sit in front of Bakugou). You put your head down, facing the window looking outside a jolt of pain went through your arm you clasped your arm. Someone behind you was able to spot the little moment you just had, kastuki's ruby eyes narrowed in suspicion and curiosity. He watched your pained looked face, he didn't let his eyes travel anywhere else but your form.........that is until you decided to turn around due you feeling eyes burning into you. Bakugou became flushed when his eyes met with your (e/c) ones, he was so flustered he couldn't even muster up all his pride to hiss a sour insult but now that he actually had a good look at your face he was able to notice some things. There were dark bags under your eyes that were very visible, your face looked very pale, and not to mention the exhausted look on your face."Is something the matter Bakugou?" your tone made him flinch, this made you raise an eyebrow you were rather confused since you didn't really give off that cold,bitter, or scary feel unless you were angry (which was rare). You hesitantly raised your hand, Bakugou seemed to be in to much of a daze to realize you placed your hand on top of his. It started to frighten you, his eyes didn't blink and his face was just flat out red. Not really knowing what to do you moved your hand to a higher point.........by his face, i mean fuck the boy hasn't been moving for a few minutes now. Your hand sat on his face for a good few seconds before Katsuki seemed to have been back in his right mind you thought this when he roughly pushed your hand away. You weren't fazed by his action cause it was Bakugou you knew he wouldn't really like the small bit of affection you were showing him, but Katsuki on the other hand was very confused and astonished by you. Before Bakugou could ask what the hell kind of gesture was that Aizawa entered the classroom, the whole room fell silent "All right, today were going to be going out to the hero course the reason why is because i haven't had the time to actually form some time of assignment for you guys" everyone shouted in excitement happy that there would be no actual work today. You just kept your straight lined expression continuing to stare out the window, you were so caught up in your thoughts until Midoriya woke you up from your day dream informing you everyone had already left to switch into their hero costumes. You stood up and followed him out the door like a lost puppy, until you walked your way towards the girls changing rooms. You rushed past the other girls making sure that they would not bring any attention to you whats so ever, you quickly threw on your costume (Picture it however you like) no matter how hard you tried to lessen the pain around your arms the pain didn't stop. It hurt to the point you had to put your hand around your mouth to blur out the hisses of pain, you scavenge through your locker trying to find something that could at least keep your cuts from being visible since your quirk would take up to much time to activate. Your eyes met with a roll of medical tape, you did your best to wrap it around your arm decently without letting of the cuts show. "(Y/n), there you are!" the sudden voice behind you made you jump, you whirled around to face were the voice came from Uraraka's smile soon drifted into a straight line. "What's the tape for (Y/n)?" her tone filled with curiosity and wonder, fumbling with the words in your head you  couldn't make up the right words to form a sentence "Oh!, is it for extra protection?" she asked. "Yes!, i-i-was just making sure f-for extra protection purposes" you stuttered sweat starting to build up in your palms, your female friend however simply sent you a cheeky smile and reached to grab your hand. Your heart race exhilarated very quickly, but soon your heart seemed to have calmed down once she interlocked her fingers with yours (When your questioning your sexuality while writing). "C'mon (Y/n), the others are waiting for us" she cheerfully dragged you towards the hero course, not giving you the chance to break your hand away she pulled you towards Midoriya and Iida. You spaced out  for eighty percent of the conversation, your gaze was focused on the ground not bothering to let your eyes wander to the familiar scenery. The usual deep and rough voice of Aizawa filled your ears, everyone gathered around the pro-hero you stood in the back your arms folded across your chest. Once again your distant and rather dark aura didn't go unnoticed by the red eyed blond,  he knew something was up and he was determined to figure out what was wrong.

TIMESKIP (last one XC)

You immediately rushed out the changing the rooms, running down the dimmed hallways you sprinted until you made it the front of the school. You finally noticed that your parents should have returned home by now, you definitely didn't want to risk the thought of them seeing your marks. You figured that if your gonna come home to a bunch of bullshit you might as well take a stroll while your at it, you walked down the same route as you normally do but instead of taking the right path you decided to go down the left that led to the small park nearby. When you arrived you took note of the few people that also decided to spend their time at the park, sighing in disappointment of not having the park to yourself you traveled further down the path. The orange light pink sky started to fade into the dark blue that absorbed the sky decorated with stars. You sat on a rather large rock by the pond, rolling up your sleeves and unwrapping the bandage that was tightly wrapped around your arm, the bleeding seemed to of stopped but instead your (s/c) arm was furiously red. "So, this what you've been hiding shit face"  an all to familiar voice boomed behind you, you gripped the rock tightly attempting to keep yourself from falling in. You shakily turned around to meet the blond's gaze; surprisingly his face showed no aggression whats so ever "W-what are y-y-you doing here?" you decided to take the chance and to question his sudden presence. He clicked his tongue in annoyance before making his way towards you; you positioned your body were you had the opportunity to escape if he was to try anything. But the closer he got it was like your body refused to move in fact that's what your body didn't want to move a part of you wanted to desperately get out of the situation but for the majority of your thoughts you were curious. You were curious as to why the blond decided to follow you and why in the world would he care about what was going on in your head, you flinched at the contact of him putting his hand on yours similar to what you did the same morning. He moved his hand further and ran it gently over your cuts before whispering "Why?" his bangs covered his eyes before looking up to you "Why the fuck would you do this shit?!" he roared at you. You felt tears form in your eyes but this time you didn't wipe them away you just let them fall, all those pent up and blocked off emotions that were held up by the chain of your mind were let loose and snapped easily. You quickly latched yourself onto Bakugou, you roughly pushed your face into his chest "I-i don't know, i'm t-tired of all these thoughts running through m-my head every time i try to block out all the noises the voices j-just keep coming back" you whimpered stuffing your face even further into him. It seemed to of took him a moment to process your words before wrapping his larger frame around you hiding you from the cold of the dark. "Look, i'm not good with shitty words so hear me out" you lightly pulled yourself away to let him know he had your attention, "You have to learn that those fucking voices aren't going to leave your ass alone, so you have to train your mind to block all that bull shit out" he spoke before lightly starting to lift you on your feet. "But, that doesn't fucking mean you should keep all those feelings inside and decide not to fucking tell anyone about it" you nodded before wiping your red puffy eyes. He took your hand in his and walked back towards the park "W-where are you taking me?" you instantly noticed that he was taking you somewhere that you didn't know of. He didn't answer you though the whole time both of you walked, until you came across a very pretty house but it was a shame you couldn't admire the structure of the home before being dragged in against your will. He opened the door with no intent of silencing the door from hitting the wall and dragging you in as well, he slammed the door aggressively before speaking "Oi, sit your ass on the couch i have to get something". Before you could reply he was already upstairs, you decided to follow his instructions timidly placing yourself on the couch and fiddling with your fingers. Storming down the stairs he stood right in front of you, you sent him a questioning look before feeling his large hand cover your eyes "Oi, ready?" he asked "Yes" you quickly replied. When he retracted his hand you saw something that made your heart flutter, it was a medium sized stuffed doll of a (f/c) (f/a) you impatiently grabbed the toy and just stared at it then looking at Katsuki. You lunged at him hugging him tightly, "Tch, its just a stuffed animal shit face" he scoffed but he was happy that you seemed content with his gift. You plopped back down onto the couch "H-how did you know i liked (f/c)?" you asked sweetly he blushed "I didn't fucking know i just assumed that you did!" he barked. You giggled at his flustered words, you moved the stuffed (f/a) to the side before asking "Bakugou, where are your parents?" he raised an eyebrow "Out, they wanted some fucking alone time together or some shit like that and also just call me Katsuki okay? shit face".  You hummed in approval before getting up once more and snuggled close to him, "Thank you Katsuki, i'm sorry i made you go through the trouble" he scoffed his cheeks still flaring with a blush. He pushed you back onto the couch, you shyly squished into the cushions and covered your face with your hands Bakugou took one of your hands away from your face and bent down. You tightly closed your eyes until you felt something soft touch your cheek, you looked at the blond with so much confusion "Good night shit face" he smirked hopping off you and heading up stairs you just stared at the ceiling in awe at what just happened. You snuggled back down into the furniture and hugged your (f/a), drifting into a deep sleep all you could think about was the blond upstairs.

OOOOOOOOOOO SHIT DAWG damn its been long since i've updated i'm surprised you all still read this shit XD but sorry if this wasn't the perfect way to say hey im back after five fucking months but i'm so sure that im going re-do this one-shot but anyway HOLY FUCK 500 VOTES AND 14.5K READS my god why XD im not complaining but wow i didn't expect my story to be in any way enjoyable but im down with it if it makes you all happy so to conclude like i said in my authors note i am going to come back but im kinda lacking inspiration and motivation so i will update but they may be kinda slow but i promise that i will do my best to keep updating anyway thank you all im honestly so happy~~~Fox051