I used to have a planner before.

Para saan ba yung planner? Bakit ang dami-daming nagbebenta ng ganoon lalo na kapag malapit na yung Christmas or New Year?

Most of the people think na kapag may planner ka, well-organized lahat. Nakasulat doon yung mga dapat mong gawin, mga schedule, minsan nga yung planner nagiging diary din. I did that to my planner before, ginawa ko rin yung diary.

Each day, isa-summarize ko yung mga nangyari, minsan isusulat ko lang yung nararamdaman ko at the end of the day. That's why that planner-- my planner is really important.

Having a planner means planning ahead and scheduling things that needs to be done. I must say, well-organized talaga ako noon, nung may planner pa ako.

But now, i plan not to have one. Ayoko na ng planner.

Yung mga importanteng bagay noon nagawa ko ng maayos, yung mga schedule ko nasunod naman but there's just one thing happened.

Last year before it starts, kahit wala pa akong planner I've already planned things ahead and it includes avoiding you. I really thought na mangyayari, since nasusunod naman lahat ng nasa planner ko. But then again, sinisi ko yung 'coincidence' instead of blaming my damn schedule of subjects during that semester.

As that semester starts, everything was smooth sailing, everything was according to my plan. I didn't see you, not even your shadow nor a glimpse of you.

Akala ko maayos na, akala ko ok na, akala ko tatahimik na ang lahat. But just like most of our 'akalas' akala ko lang talaga yun.

The next thing i knew, nakikita na kita, nakakasalubong, nakakasabay and damn! That was not what I've planned?!

I was expecting a quiet semester without an encounter with you, but of course 'coincidence' didn't let that happen. Yung nakikita, nakakasaluong at nakakasabay nag-level up! Umabot pa sa point na sumasabay ka sa amin mag-lunch, minsan you'd stay just to play with us during your break time.

Midterms, i knew hindi ko na nasusunod yung plano ko, i obviously can't avoid you! I can't seem to think of a back up plan that time, my mind seemed to be corrupted all i can do is to remain silent when you're around. As if you care, right?

Hinayaan ko na lang but the worst thing happened is that nasasanay akong kasama ka namin. Everytime na naaalala ko yun, damn! I wanted to punch myself so hard, baka sakaling magising pa ako sa katangahan ko.

Of course, we're students. It was finals week back then masyado ng naging busy, deadlines ng projects, reporting, thesis and final exams. Hindi ka na namin nakakasama. I would just found myself searching for your presence.

And that hit me! Over-thinking things made me realize everything.

I've planned of avoiding you, but it didn't happen. Nagulo lang ang lahat, hindi na nasunod yung schedule, hindi na nasunod yung iba pang mga plano.

Why am i avoiding you? Nah. I know you wouldn't care. Let's just say prevention is better than cure.

And because of that i stopped using my planner, para saan pa? Hindi din naman nasusunod yung mga plano ko.

I remembered, i doodled something on my planner. It says 'stop'.

See? I've also planned on stopping that whatever foolishness that i was doing back then. And as usual, it didn't happen, i didn't stop. That wasn't part of my plan, it says 'stop' dapat tumigil ako pero hindi eh.

Yes, I've planned of avoiding you.

Yes, I've planned of stopping myself.

Lahat yan nakasulat sa planner.

Unfortunately, kung ano pa yung hindi nakasulat at hindi naka-plano yun pa yung nangyari.

I have no plans of liking you.

I have no plans of falling for you.

I have no plans of getting hurt by you.

Well, I'll be damned. I actually did. Ha-Ha-Ha.

What's the point of having a planner when unexpected things happens in my damn life?
I will just sit here and wait for the 'coincidence' do it's job.

Unplanned moments are the best.

I say, fck you!

Some of unplanned moments may be the best but obviously mine was not. One thing i learned about this-- this unplanned and unexpected shts.

Expect the unexpected.

To: Coincidence

Come on beach, surprise me. Love you xoxo.

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