After a lot of thinking and many people who made suggestions and wanted this, I decided to make a part 2. Hope you all like it.

Kanan's pov

Cold. All I felt was cold. Right now I am surrounded by darkness. The last thing I remember was Ezra being thrown to a wall by the inquisitor.

What happened after that?

I suddenly start to see light. I feel myself waking up. When I open my eyes fully, a bright white light blinds me.

I'm in the medbay. How did I get here? Did I get injured badly? Is Ezra ok?

I was brought out of my thoughts by the sound of a door opening.

Hera.

She looks like she lost something important to her. I could feel her emotional vibes and sadness.

"Hera?" I say trying to get up.

"Your awake. I was so worried. I'll help you up." She says walking towards me.

Hera then takes my arm gently and pulls me up from the bed. I wobble at first but soon find my balance.

"Thanks. What happened?" I ask her.

"We found you passed out on top of a house. I don't know how you got up there, but you looked pretty beat up so we brought you here."

"Where's Ezra." I ask. Hera then looks at me with a sad expression on her face.

"I'm sorry Kanan but....." She trails off and tears form in her eyes.

"What? What happened to Ezra?" I ask getting worried.

"H-h-he's......d-d-d-dead...."

That's when my heart stops. My padawan, my son, dead.

No, he can't be. When Ezra was thrown to the wall, it shouldn't have been that major. Only a concussion or something.

I try to feel Ezra's force signature, but find none in result.

He's dead.......he's dead.....he's dead.....he's dead.....he's dead......he's dead.....he's dead.....he's dead......

Before I knew it, I was on my knees. I felt like my heart was breaking into pieces. My head is spinning and I can't seem to get my vision to stop being blurry.

I could hear Hera try to tell me something, but I only continue to hear the words that tore me apart.

He's dead......my padawan is dead.....MY SON IS DEAD!!!!!

I felt like shouting, but I heard no words come out. Tears were falling, but I couldn't feel the wetness. Instead an acid feeling replaces it making my eyes burn more.

I could tell that Sabine and Zeb came in by the feeling of arms surrounding me taking me into an embrace.

It only made me feel colder.

By now my eyes were closed, darkness was around me again. But this time I saw images. Not just images......a vision.

"Kanan?"

Ezra?

"Kanan no!!!"

Ezra?!?!

"Kanan!!! Don't do this!!! Please!!!"

Ezra!!!!!!!

Suddenly, an image comes up of Ezra dangling from a rooftop shouting and holding on as tight as he could. Towering over him.......

Was me.

I had yellow eyes instead of green eyes and I was taking Ezra's hands off the rooftop. He tried to talk me out of this, but I didn't listen and I sent him falling to his death.

No.....

I killed him.....

He's dead because of me.......

I killed my son.......

I KILLED MY OWN SON!!!!!!

"I love you dad."

I then heard a loud thud and see Ezra's lifeless body.

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I wake up screaming my head off. At the same time, I was grieving over the death I caused of my beloved son.

Hera came rushing in and tried her best to calm me down.

All I did was keep repeating the same words over and over again out loud.

"I killed him.......I killed him.....I killed him......I killed him....."

"Kanan you didn't kill him." Hera says.

"YES I DID!!!! I USED THE DARK SIDE AND KILLED EZRA!!!!!" I shout.

Her eyes widen. I'm not sure if it's because I yelled at her or because I told her I used the dark side.

"Ezra's death is very devastating to all of us. I'm still hurt by it...." She stops to wipe a few tears away. "I know your hurt by it too, but you can't blame yourself."

I don't say a word. I just sit on my bunk with my head in my hands crying softly.

"Just get some rest Kanan."

I then hear her leave and I just continue saying the same words again.

"I killed him......I killed him......I killed him......I killed him......I killed him..."

Before I knew it, I fell asleep again. But this time instead of the usual darkness, I saw a light approaching me.

The light became bigger when it came close to me. It made me feel......warm and safe.

That's when I'm eye to eye with the light and I could see more clearly that it was a person. A boy with electric blue eyes and long navy blue hair.

Ezra.....

"Kanan...."

I didn't hesitate to hug him. As soon as my arms were wrapped around his thin body, I melted into tears.

"I'm sorry!!!!! I didn't mean to do that to you!!!!" I shout holding Ezra tight. I could feel him hugging me back.

"It wasn't your fault Kanan. I forgive you."

I break out of the hug. "But I'm the one who killed you. How do you forgive me?"

"Because I know that wasn't you. I knew that was only the dark side of you. You didn't kill me Kanan."

I was still shaking my head with disbelief. Ezra sees this and takes my hand.

"Kanan promise me you won't spend the rest of your life thinking you killed me."

"I........I.......I can't....."

"Please Kanan!!!! My only wish for you to do while I'm dead is to be happy!!! Don't waste your life being sad!!!!! Enjoy it and live life for me!!!"

Ezra was starting to cry too. I hate it when I make him cry.

"Ok.....I promise."

That's when a light appears behind Ezra. He turns around and smiles sadly.

"I have to go Kanan."

Wait what? No he can't leave me!!!! Not yet!!!

"Wait Ezra don't go!!! Stay with me!!!! Please stay!!!" I shout trying to stop him.

"I'm sorry I have to leave. Remember your promise. Take care of the crew. Make sure you take down the Empire and restore peace to the world."

Ezra started to walk towards the light, but I still wasn't ready.

"Ezra, you were always like a son to me. You will always hold a special piece of my heart. I will never forget you." I say with tears still in my eyes.

That's when Ezra turns back to me and runs straight into my arms in a warm embrace.

"You were and still are like a father to me. I will always be there with you even if you can't see me. I will always be in your heart. I love you dad."

Ezra then walks away from me and goes fully into the light. I wanted to stop him again, but then I felt happy vibes come from Ezra.

He wants to go into the light.

So I step back and let him go. I could feel Ezra's presence disappear and also myself waking up.

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I woke up started a little. I look around my room feeling no more sadness. But.....happiness.

That's what Ezra would've wanted me to feel.

One last tear slid down my cheek as I said my goodbye to Ezra.

"I love you too my son."