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(Taehyung's pov)

Practice was difficult today. Right now I am laying down on my bed, scrolling through weverse. I am exhausted to be honest, but I cannot show that right? I have to be okay.
While scrolling, I came across some comments directed towards me. I started reading them..

Taehyung should leave BTS
Taehyung why don't you kill yourself
Taehyung you are bringing down the band
You think you are pretty, duh, lol.
Let's kick him out of BTS.

Surprisingly, I did not stop. I continued to read them. Anyways what they all said is true. Why am I like this? I deserve pain. I need to be punished.

I switched my phone off and grabbed my blade and I started cutting. I wanted to feel something. But why was I feeling so numb today?...MAYBE I should cut deeper. I pressed the blade across my skin with more strength.
Once.
Twice.
Thrice.
Shit, I looked at my thighs. There was a  lot of blood flowing out. I tried stopping it but I could not. I had cut really deep this time. A huge puddle of blood had formed beneath me and I started to feel light headed, probably from the rapid blood loss. I didn't know what to do. I hurriedly got up and picked my phone, with all my energy cause I didn't want to die, not yet.
I rang up the first number that popped  up.

Jungkook.

After few rings, he picked up the call.

"Hey jungkook, I am so sorry.."
I said.

And I felt myself swaying.

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(Jungkook's pov)

I had just finished with my daily workout routine when I heard my phone ringing. Quickly walking towards my gym bag, I opened the chain and took out my phone.

Taehyung hyung was calling me.

I picked up the call and I swear I could feel myself shaking when he said,
"Hey jungkook, I am so sorry.."

Before I could ask him what's wrong, I heard him gasp painfully and I heard a loud thud. I knew something was wrong.

I gave myself a second to think and with all probability, I guessed that he was in our dorm. I quickly called the others informing them about what happened.

I started walking towards our dorm cause if I took the car, I would be late because of the traffic.

I could feel it. I knew something was terribly wrong. Was Taehyung sick, why did he not tell us? But then, why was he even sorry? I was in a conundrum and the silence was suffocating me so instead of walking, I started running cause I had to save Tae hyung no matter what. My mind was swirling into all possibilities but I tried to shut that phantom voice out.

After running for five more minutes, I reached our dorm. I quickly went up the stairs to his room and thankfully, it wasn't locked.
As soon as I opened the door, I felt myself going stiff. There he was.

Taehyung.

He was lying there, on his bed.

A puddle of blood beneath him

Cuts all over his thighs and wrists.

Looking completely pale.

I could not react for a few seconds. I forced myself out of the shock and ran towards him.

Shit, so much blood.

I checked his pulse and it was slow but steady. I bandaged his arm as fast as I could.
I started crying. Why would he do this. I tapped his cheeks but he was unresponsive. 
I could not do this alone anymore. I called Jin hyung,

"J-jin hyung, uh, hyungie, T-taehyungie, please c-come home fast, he cut h-himself and he's not waking u-up hyung" 

And I sobbed into the phone, holding it as if my life depended on it.

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(Jin's pov)

We all left the studio and we were all heading back to the dorm because of Jungkook's phone call. We could not help but worry about Taehyung. We were just outside our dorm when I received another phone call from Jungkook.

"J-jin hyung, uh, hyungie, T-taehyungie, please c-come home fast, he cut h-himself and he's not waking u-up hyung" 
I could not move. I could not understand what was happening. I felt sick to my stomach.
I could hear Jungkook sobbing.

"Hey, Kookie, sweetie, we are here, we will be there in a minute, just breathe okay, everything will be okay."
I tried comforting him.
I could see concern written all over the member's faces.

We quickly got in and ran to his room and what we saw, I swear we could never forget.
Jimin broke down, crying. Hoseok held on to me and I did not know any better either so I held him tightly. Suga tried talking to Jungkook and tried to calm him down. Namjoon called for an ambulance.

Now, all we could do was wait.

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My notes:
Hi lovelies, I am so sorry for updating so late, but I am going through a lot so please forgive me. I am really trying to be better.
There is one last part left for this chapter, which will consist of the recovery part. I promise I'll update as soon as I can.
Also, requests are open so please feel free to do so.
And, you all, stay safe, I care for you, if you ever want to talk about anything I am always here for you.
I love you all. I am sorry for the delay but I will do better.
Thank you so so much for your love and support .
I purple you all.