not random at all, nahhh

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•Kajy
-main nickname since 2020 (or technically since 2019)
-i love it very much, it just feels extremely comfortable
-basically pseudonym
-short for 'Kazuki' (again: my pseudonym)

•Jake
-general nickname since 2019
-used to be short for Jacob, which used to be my chosen name, but i don't like it anymore, soo-
-its okay...

•Jonah
-most recent nickname, will maybe be my chosen name though
-very comfortable

•Indigo
-my chosen 2nd name
-since 2019
-comfortable :)
-i chose it cuz indigo is my fav color

•Luckie
-since 2018 i think
-not that present anymore but i still like it
-used to be my pseudonym before 'Kajy'
-comfortable

•Kaoru
-basically a varient of 'Kajy/Kazuki'
-it's nice :)

•Hana
-used to be a nickname in 2020 for some time when i was questioning my gender again lol
-i don't use it anymore, but i wouldn't really care if you'd call me that or not lmao

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and about my former name:
i don't really care abt who knows my deadname, as long as it's not used or even mentioned towards me lol. and i don't hate it, i don't even dislike it. in general, "Kay Luna Cheyenne" is a really pretty name, gotta compliment my mom there for that idea. but it's just not me, ya'know. my mom said probably a million times that i could simply just continue using Kay as a name since it's gender neutral (more commonly known for males), but she doesn't really understand my issue with that name (no misunderstandings here pls: she does only use my chosen name by now).. i don't dislike it. but, whenever someone called me that back then, i didn't feel called. i didn't (still don't) feel comfortable wearing this name. it didn't feel right. i only hated that name for myself, not in general. sooo... i like it, but it's just not me :)

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