Playlist for this chapter:
Coldplay - The Scientist
Coldplay- Fix You
Ron Pope - A Drop in the Ocean
Little mix - Think About Us

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I decided to spend my afternoon walking home. Yep, I said that right. I was walking home.

With my earphones on and my hair let down, the best way to muster up my courage was to take the longest way home. Gosh, I'm such a chicken. I crossed by the park and took a seat on one of the old, iron benches. I leaned back and watched the people move around, the birds flying above me and the endless amounts of cars that loitered the streets. But they all seemed far off as I was consumed completely by Coldplay on repeat.

My music paused suddenly and my phone vibrated in my hand, signalling an incoming call. Well, FaceTime.

Ashton.

My heart sunk as his name appeared across the screen. I contemplated on picking it up but I eventually did, letting it ring a good four times before I did.

I swiped to answer and stared into the screen, looking at the person I hurt.

"Hey" He greets me, followed by a small wave. I nodded and quickly looked at his background, it was a hotel room.

"You aren't going to say something?" He asks, looking at me with furrowed brows.

"Uhh" I began, trying to put myself together. "Where are you?" I managed to ask.

"I'm in Berlin, but not for long though. I have to leave again soon" He tells me with a sigh, running a hand through his messy hair.

He's frustrated. But what about?

"Look, I'm sorry for not calling you sooner to tell you I'll be away for longer. I realise now that I should've just said it. It could've prevented all this" He apologizes, staring deeply at me. 

That's when it began. My heart began to run it's own race in my chest. It was gonna burst sooner or later. I felt like I was going to throw up.

"Angel, are you okay?" Ashton asks, looking worried.

"Ash... I, I've got something I need to say. It's been weighing heavy on me all day and I just--"

"Don't" He stops me, suddenly. He moves to sit on the bed and exhales deeply, his eyes looking sad. "There's something I need to tell you, and it just can't wait."

My fingers went numb as Ash mentioned those words. My mind was going around in circles, wondering what it could be. A million thoughts in a second and I didn't know which one it could be.

"I've messed up this time, Kaia. Badly" Ash tells me, causing me to sit up and listen carefully. Tears formed in his eyes and he blinked quick to try and hide them. He was crying.

"What happened?" I forced myself to say, bracing for what was to come. Whatever it was, I know it can't be as bad as what I've done. This I know is true.

"Kaia, just know that it meant nothing. It was a mistake, a huge one and I wish it never happened" Ash continues, wiping away a few tears.

I stared curiously at him as tears began to form in my own eyes from seeing him tear up. He's already upset, imagine how he would react once I tell him about Axel and I.

"What is it? just tell me" I said, growing impatient.

Ash went quiet for a second before responding, the tears still flowing down his face.

"I slept with someone else, Kaia."

Oh, I gasped in my head

And then I went numb.

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I slept with someone else, Kaia..... slept with someone else... I slept with..

His words kept ringing in my ears as I continued my walk home. I almost got hit twice for having my earphones on while crossing the street. First by a car and the second, a bus. Everyone stared at me weirdly but I didn't care anymore.  I didn't want to hide the fact that I was crying. A few older ladies gave me a sympathetic look and I tried to smile just to let them know I'm kinda okay.

I reached the apartment well after seven and I took my time up the stairs, not eager to see this place at all. Just as I pushed the door to open, there was a white envelope laying on the floor. I picked it up and saw it was addressed to Ashton.

After seeing it said 'urgent', I wiped away my tears and tore the envelope open, reading it's contents.

The letter was from the landlord and he was giving us two days to move out of here.

Two days?!

"This can't be happening?! Whaa" I searched the papers for the reason why and in bold printing was the amount of rent overdue for the last two months, totalling over five thousand dollars.

"Why hasn't he paid the rent?" I wondered to myself, thinking of how much he's been working. It made no sense.

Crumbling the letter, I walked inside and dropped my bag on my bed. The door to the guest room was open so I figured Axel might be here now.

I was ready to tell him all about this when I noticed the room was empty. All his clothes, shoes and helmets were gone. Sighing, I went into the room and sat on the bed. He left already.

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My phone vibrated in my hand and I took a look at the screen. It was a text message, this time from Axel. I unlocked my phone and read his text, feeling a little better after hearing from him.

Axel:
K, I've just moved into my new place. Was gonna wait for u to get home but I didn't think u would wanna c me. I'll send my new add. Come by anytime

Axel:
Apt. No 7
Skylodge Building
422 Harley Place

Wow, Skylodge is pretty pricey. I guess Axel signed a pretty good deal. I laid back on the neatly made bed and began to cry. I was so frustrated with myself for complicating things even more with Axel. I hated Ashton so much right now and I didn't know where to go. Where would I stay? God knows I can't even afford to pay half of the overdue rent. Why did we even move here if it was so expensive? Another thing I hate Ash for right now, he didn't even bother to tell me how much is the rent. I would've made him choose a cheaper place to stay if I was aware.

The thought of Ashton sleeping with whoever he slept with crossed my mind. I was so shocked after he confessed that it took me a while to let it actually sink in that wow, Ash, my Ash, slept with someone else.

I don't remember much from the walk home, my mind was absolutely blank. I didn't know what to think anymore. Everything he said to me was a lie, a fricking joke. Why ask me to move in when it's so easy to cheat on me?

I felt like trashing this place but it would only make things worse. The only thing I can do is move the hell out of here and disappear out of Ash's life for good. I don't want to hear the sappy apology and explanation. I don't want to hear anything.

After packing my bags, I raided the fridge looking for dinner. Might as well eat everything here since I'm moving out anyway.

I cleared out the fridge, discarding everything that could give me an upset stomach. I really haven't cleaned the fridge out in so long and here's  the proof. Left over takeout from a week ago, half empty bottles of water and rotten veggies. Great. I tossed everything into the bin and grabbed a packet of chips, left over ice cream and a coke for my dinner.

Planting myself on the sofa, I found the most comfortable spot and decided to watch a movie. And what better movie to make me feel even worse, Titanic.

Helloooo** 😉 I hope you guys are ready for the dramatic Rollercoaster 😂😂 cos if you aren't, buckle up! It's just getting started***