fearnaaraSo this is dedicated to one of my best friends. She inspired me to write this and actually made me keep writing when I wanted to give up. Thank you so much!!!! I hope you guys like it.

Reader's POV

I turned to look at Kageyama, he immediately glanced away from me. Something he has been doing lately. It hurt badly but I couldn't tell him that. Not with what happened last year, everyone abandoning him. If he knew he hurt me it would destroy him. I was his best friend, I've been next to him since we were five years old.

Snapping out of my thoughts I looked around the gym. Instantly noticing many of the boys surrounding a beautiful girl. Even Kageyama, who was madly blushing and staring in awe. Why, why did he notice her? Why couldn't he look at me like that? When I try so hard to be what he wants. That's when the realization hit me; Kageyama would never love me the way I love him. I was only his friend, nothing more.

I stood up, feeling my heart break in two. It hurt so much to know that. I could feel the tears building up in my eyes, I wouldn't let them fall here. I wouldn't cry in front of the team. I quietly slipped out of the gym. No one noticing me slip past the group and bounding down the steps. As I made it past the school gate I let the tears fall down my cheeks. Silent sobs racking my body as I walked home. A small whimper escaping my lips. It hurt so much as I thought about the beautiful blue eyes, and the silky raven locks.

****Time Skip****

I haven't talked to Kageyama for a few days. He hasn't even tried to contact me at all. Which just means that he doesn't need me. If he did he would have tried to call or talk to me. I walked through that school gate, changing into my school shoes, slipping my outdoor shoes into my cubby. Silently walking to class and taking a seat. Thus leading me to suddenly being pulled from it, dragged through the halls. Stopping at the school doors I pulled my wrist away shouting, "What are you doing?!" Looking up I saw it was Kageyama who violently pulled me away from everything.

"What are you trying to achieve? We're best friends!! So just talk to me, you can tell me anything," he exclaimed. He was mad but so was I.

"You haven't tried to talk to me either!!! You know it a two way street right?!" I could already feel the tears building up, but I refuse to cry here/

"Well I'm not gonna deal with you when you're being a bitch! Plus you left practice the other day when I wanted you to meet everyone. So get over whatever is bothering you!!" I felt the tears spill before I could even stop them, he has never called me that before. Never told me to just 'get over' it. He's always helped me, so what was different now?

I looked up, seeing the shock upon his face as he saw me crying. "Y-Y/N"

"Shut up just shut up! I don't want to hear anything from you! I wanted you to talk to me! I wanted you to run after me! The last 5 days were hell for me, all because I couldn't see you or talk to you!! Because I wanted you to notice that I was gone, to come after me like I always do for you!! But you didn't. You don't care at all do you? You know what? I don't care anymore, I don't even want to see your face anymore. I'm sick of being hurt by you." The hurt look on his face was enough to make me turn on my heel and run. Run away from everything. I couldn't handle anymore. I could feel the sobs run through my body. The tears unstoppable as I run to my house. The only comfort I have now.

Kageyama's POV

'I'm sick of being hurt by you' Those words replayed in my mind. I hurt her? I've been hurting the one person that has been by my side for most of my life? Y/N was the one person I promised to never hurt, but now that I have I don't deserve her. NO! I'm not going to let her be alone! I threw all of my insecurities behind as I ran after Y/N.

Reader's POV

I can't believe I said that to him. What is wrong with me? I'm horrible, I know for a fact that Kageyama is going to think about what I said all day. I should've just kept my mouth shut, but I just couldn't hold it back anymore. I was too hurt. But now I can't fix it, he was never going to know that I love him. I hugged the pillow tighter to my chest, letting my tears soak into the cloth. I let myself cry, letting the sobs take over my body. No one would hear me anyway. Mom and Dad were both at work and Yukio was at school. The wails being the only thing heard in the house. Until the front door slammed open. Frenzied footsteps coming up the stairs, that's when I saw the head of black hair peeking above the top step. Panic filled his eyes as he looked for something, his eyes finally landing on me.

"Y/N I'm sorry!!!! For calling you a bitch! For not talking to you. And for whatever else I did to hurt you! I just needed to say that before I leave for good."

"Wait! Why would you run all the way over here then just leave?"

"Because I don't deserve you anymore. I promised to never hurt you, but I broke that promise."

"You're just gonna leave? Just like that?!" My voice becoming louder with every passing second, "You don't get to decide that! Not on your own! You didn't even ask what I want! If I want you gone!"

"You told me that! You told me you never wanted to see me again Y/N! Th-that's what you said." I could see the hurt in his eyes, on his face, and his sloping shoulders as well. It hurt me too, but I have to tell him, I have too.

"I-I didn't mean that. I was hurt, but it was because seeing you look at another girl like that made me extremely sad. Because you've never looked at me like that," the tears flowing freely down my face. " I need to tell you something and I know that right now is probably the only time I'll have enough courage. But I love you, so so much Kageyama. I have since our first year of middle school." Against my will I met his eyes, seeing a sight I never thought I would see directed towards me. He was deeply blushing, his mouth open wide in shock, and his eyes wide open. The only emotion visible was surprise. My heart dropped when he was silent.

"This is why I didn't tell you. I knew you wouldn't feel the same. I just had to tell you otherwise I would regret it for the rest of my life. Now please just go." I turned back towards the wall, covering my face with a pillow.

Waiting for him to leave, I laid there. Finally hearing footsteps, I thought he was leaving; until the pillow was pulled from my face and lips smashed against mine. They were slightly chapped but soft. They were wonderful, wait was Kageyama kissing me?!? He was! I mean he was attached to my face!! Not wasting this chance I wrapped my arms around his neck, pulling him on top of me. One of his hands caressing my face while the other one was resting by my hip. Our lips moving in sync, perfectly. Until we had to pull apart for air.

Kageyama spoke softly as he said, "I love you too. I love you so much. I've been waiting to do that for so long." His eyes were darker than before, his pupils much bigger as well. My breathing hitched as what he said sunk in. Throwing all my cares away I smashed my lips against his.