Here's another long-ish one! Enjoy my lovelies!! YuY

-Sam

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Kageyama couldn't breathe, his whole body shook as he finished reading the letter. Tears poured out of his eyes and down his cheeks like waterfalls as he covered his mouth with his hand "H-Hinata..I-I'm so sorry. This-this is my fault, I could've s-saved him..I could-I could've sa-saved him-" He slouched to the floor as he let himself cry, all of his senses shut down as he basically shut himself off from the world.

Everything about Hinata from the past months, how distant he'd been, how he didn't get involved in practise as much, he never smiled like he used to. Why was he only realising this now? When it was all too late-?!

He lay there for what felt like minutes when in reality it was hours, sat there, alone, nothing yet at the same time everything flooding through his mind at once, his mistakes, what he could've done better and 'what happens now's. By the time Kageyama actually realised this, Hinata was found by someone on the streets.

He was identified by his suicide note, school identity and bus pass in his bag...and the man that found him. He's the man that Hinata used to get bread from each morning to make lunch.

Hinata was a well known boy around town, the only people that really had anything against him, or 'hated' him even, were just people who lost to him or play against him- just because they envy him or want to win.

Kageyamas senses finally came back to him as he felt his phone vibrate and heard the repeated dings of notifications. It took everything in him to pick up his phone and look at the notifications, when turning on his phone he was greeted by a bright screen and the first message he saw being

TANAKAAA: Oh my god..was it really Hinata? On the news I mean

Upon seeing the notification Kageyama went onto the group chat to see the whole conversation and what they knew about what Hinata did.

10:52 Pm

Saltyshima: Have you all seen the news?
Gucci flip flops: No-? What about it?
Mum: ^^
ROLLING THUNDER!!: Do I look like the typa' person to watch the news to you?? :v
Saltyshima: Fair enough, just check. It's about Hinata.
TANAKAAA: Ooooh, did one of my lil' kohais incredible spikes go viral again? I'm so proud of him!! :')
Saltyshima: If it were something like that I wouldn't care, nor would I feel the need to tell you to go and watch it.

Kageyama quickly raced downstairs and put on the TV, turning up the volume so he could hear what the reporter was saying

"A 16 year old boy, Shouyo Hinata, also known as The Karasunos Boys Volleyball Teams' No.10, was found dead beside an abandoned building in xxxxxx. There were no witnesses of the death, although further investigation shows that he left his shoes, bag and what appears to be a suicide note where he is suspected to of jumped.

Due to finding evidence of a suicide and nothing else to say otherwise, there will be no further investigation. His belongings will be left at the police department in xxxxxx for family to collect if they'd want to.

If his family is watching this then I am so sorry for your loss. His face was well known around town and he will be missed dearly.

Now ba-"

Kageyama turned off the TV, he pulled his knees closer to his chest and buried his face into his knees as he started crying again. He didn't care if Hinatas mum came in, she had already previously given him permission to come over whenever he needed so he saw no point in worrying.

Then he heard it again, his phone going off.

11:24 Pm

Dadchi: My god..
Gucci flip flops: I don't believe it..
Jesus: There must be some mistake here-
TANAKAAA: Oh my god..was it really Hinata? On the news I mean
ROLLING THUNDER!!: No, it couldn't of been! If Hinata was feeling like that in any way he would've come to us!
ROLLING THUNDER!!:..right?
Dadchi: Apparently not
Jesus: It couldn't of been suicide, Hinata he- he can't of been able to do something like that! It must've been set up or something
Jesus: Hinata wouldn't leave us..
TANAKAAA: Yeah, Hinata wouldn't just leave us like this!
Bakageyama: It was suicide.
Dadchi: Kageyama..
Bakageyama: No, we shouldn't lie to ourselves like this. We all failed him. Didn't anyone notice how distant he'd been lately?! Barely ever at practice and when he was he was basically teaching Tanaka-Senpai how to replace him! Never changing with us. He never even ate lunch with any of us anymore! Did you really not think about any of it?!
ROLLING THUNDER!!: Hey! Don't just go pointing fingers at everyone when you're no worse than the rest of us!
Gucci flip flops: Yeah..you don't think we feel guilty enough?!
Bakageyama: I know. I know I'm not, I'm worse. I knew about his problems, I knew about it all yet I was too stuck up in random bullshit that I didn't even notice that he was practically begging me for help. Today, when he said goodbye, did none of you think it was a little dramatic for a goodbye?
Bakageyama: Any of you?!
TANAKAAA: ...
Jesus: I did think it was a bit of an odd goodbye, it did feel like it was more of a going away speech.
Dadchi: It did..
Mum: Kageyama..guys I- I'm so sorry. This is all my fault!
Jesus: Suga, don't say that!
Mum: But it's true! I'd caught him crying in the bathroom countless times over the past months and I'd always just sit with him until he stopped then we'd talk about whatever either of us could think of. He normally told me about why he was crying but one day he just stopped and I thought nothing about it! If I did a better job then I could've stopped him! He would still be here and NONE of this would be happening!
Bakageyama: Sugawara-Kun, it isn't your fault. You couldn't of done anything.
Mum: You don't know that! I'm his senpai for christs sake! I should've actually done something!
Bakageyama: Yes, I do. None of you could...just me, and I didn't. This is my fault and I'm not going to let anyone else take the blame for it.
Dadchi: Kageyama, I understand what you're trying to say but you can't be sure, none of us can.
Bakageyama: I am sure, it'll be more clear tomorrow. Can we please just stop talking about it for now? I haven't heard from his mum yet but I'm sure she's going to get his stuff tomorrow from the police department so I'll just bring that in so you all understand.
Dadchi: I- alright. Just please, no one take this too hard on yourself. Hinata he- we couldn't of seen this coming. Practise isn't on tomorrow, please try and get some rest.
Gucci flip flops: Alright..See you guys tomorrow?
Mum: ..Okay
ROLLING THUNDER!!: Got it
TANAKAAA: I'll try,,
Jesus: Alright..
Bakageyama: ..Night.