Missed chances aren't something that you should feel sorry for. Maybe it's just bound to happen for a bigger reason.

Kagahapon, nisimba ko.

I expected to have a peaceful mass but then someone caught my attention. It was my crush of four years, Helena. Until now, I still have feelings for her.

I first saw her when I was still in my freshman year. That day, they were tasked to give a demonstration of the equipment we will use in our laboratory. She is a year older than me, and she graduated last year so it was really unexpected to see her again.

Gwapa kaayo siya while she explained that day. Not only that, bagtik pa jud ug brain. Unya nindot pa jud ug attitude. She was the perfect package. I thought of confessing to her to shoot my shot, but then, I always ended up backing out at the last minute.

It's not that I am torpe. I am confident when it comes to myself. Not to brag but I do get praises about my face, my grades and my personality. But the only thing that keeps me tied down from confessing is my health. I am afraid that if we ever get together, I would leave her young. I wouldn't be able to spend even half of my years with her. I don't want her to be torn. And I don't want her to grieve because of me.

And judging from my situation now, I guess it was a great choice to stay quiet about my feelings.

It never crossed my mind to see her within the remaining fifty days of my life, so I'm really happy kagahapon. It was enough for me to see her.

Of all the missed chances, I never really regretted it. Because maybe in this kinabuhi, we weren't just meant for each other.

— Presentio, the life changer.