KHUSHI

I was seated absent mindedly in Arnav's room, just staring at the computer screen, everything had been going on so well between us for the past couple months.

We were so much in love with each other, we went for beautiful dates, we did a lot of things together, even had arguments just like every other couple but in the end it always made love each other more, that is why this was going to be difficult for me.

The time had come, for me to quit this job just like I had planned for it since the beginning and now that I had made the decision, I was scared to tell Arnav about it. I dint know how he was going to react.

I mean since our first date together, which I would never forget, I mean it was so perfect, it was the best date he could have planned for me. Anyway since then he had become so attached to me, before it was just a professional relation and then feelings came in between and right now we were at a point where we knew staying away from each other was going to be much difficult.

At least we got to see each other daily because I was working here, but if I stopped, I would get busy with my studies and we would rarely meet too. I had always thought I would do my further studies just here in Mumbai, that was because I knew I could never afford to go abroad.

But I had been working here for so long now, my salary was raised after three months and doubles so I had saved quite a lot of money which could pay my fees, and also my brother's. and if I was ever going to have a problem, I could always take a loan from Arnav and pay him back once I started earning. I had always wanted to become a chartered accountant and it was only a two year course in Canada, which was the place I could think of studying and finishing soon, if I did it here, it was going to take much longer.

I know what that meant, it meant a long distance relationship, which meant I would get to see him on holidays only, of course we would video call and all that but it still sounded pretty crazy.

I mean not that the long distance relationships not working out worried me, I knew Arnav and I would work, we both spent much of our time on dates and just talking, we dint really get into a physical relationship.

Not that we dint want to, it was just that we both thought it was better to wait until we were married. I know sounds strange because of the stereotypes we have about celebrities, but Arnav had always waited to find true love and when he did, he dint want to rush into things, neither did I.

So we decided to wait until we were married, so this long distance wasn't really going to change much, but I was still kind of nervous to talk to him about it.

"Babe!" Arnav waved his hand in front of my face bring me out of the trance.

"Yeah, sorry I was thinking."

"I realized, I called you out like three times." He smiled as he sat down opposite me and smiled at me, I just smiled back awkwardly, this was the time to tell him but I dint even know how to begin.

"So... What were you thinking so deeply about?" He asked.

"Nothing... Just future. I still have to get back to my studies. So... I was..."

"Why do you look so nervous Khushi, it's not like I'm going to stop you from doing what you want, and since when did you start being nervous in front of your boyfriend?" He asked.

"It's just big. It scares me too so..."

"I can handle it. Tell me, what have you decided." He held my hand into his and pressed it slight and he smiled at me assuring me he was going to be okay.

"I was just thinking... it's time for me to finally quit this job. I mean the only reason I took it was that I could earn enough to make sure my family was stable and then continue my studies, and thanks to the salary you paid me, I got there quickly." I smiled.

"Well it was nothing compared to the work you did. Professionals get paid double or even more than you do."

"Yeah... so I was just thinking of moving to Canada. The course I want to take is going to be shorter there and I just want to begin with my career as soon as I can, and I dint know how to tell you. I mean all this time we've been together, we've seen each other daily, but this changes that to us seeing each other in months or even after a year, who knows."

"Oh..." He looked confused like he dint know what to say. I knew this was difficult but it was really needed too.

"Can't you do it here?"

"I could but it would take me like four and a half years. I just feel Canada is a good option and I know it's going to be difficult but I know we can make it work."

"Yeah... I understand. You are right, I promised I would be supportive of the decisions you make and it is a right decisions, it's just that I love you so much, how am I going to spend two years apart from you? It scares me."

"It scared me too Arnav, but we knew I had to do this at one time. Don't you want me to finish my studies, start working and finally be ready to get married to you?"

"Of course I want that." He smiled.

"Then it's high time I did it. I have to leave Arnav, soon."

"I know babe... I just don't want to spend any minute without you." He pouted as he cupped my face.

"Neither do I. but think of it this way, once I come back, I'm going to be with you forever. This is a tiny bit of sacrifice we need for our forever." I tried to smile, though in real it was quite heartbreaking. A part of me wanted to go to Canada, a part of me just wanted to stay here.

He just looked at me silently for a moment and then nodded.

"You should go. Go fulfil all your dreams. That's all I've ever wanted for you. You to be happy, to fulfil all your dreams and I'm not going to stop you from doing anything you want." He said.

"Thank you so much, I was scared on how you were going to react. I mean I knew you wouldn't tell me not to go or anything, I just dint want to hurt you." I pouted as I moved closer and kissed him on the lips slowly.

"Have you applied or not yet?" he asked breaking the kiss.

"I did, a couple months ago and then I received my confirmation letter, I'm in. and that's why I decided to talk to you. My classes start after two weeks so I have to leave from here in a few days so I can get settled down there." I said.

"I'll take you. I'll come help you get settled and make sure you are okay then come back."

"You don't have to."

"But I want to. Look I am not telling you what to do and what not to do so you aren't either okay? I have all the rights to go with my girlfriend and make sure she is okay." He looked at me seriously for a moment and then smirked making me smile.

"God! I love you so much." I said as I pulled him into another kiss once again. This time he picked me up and took me to the bed, laid me down as he came over me, still kissing me, on the lips, on my cheeks on my entire face.

"You're going to miss my kisses so full of love." He said.

"I really am." I looked at him sadly. I knew he was sad too, the thought of staying away from each other for so long was really sad but we both knew we had to do it anyway.

"Hey babe, this isn't the time to get sad yet. Come on smile. We can cry later." He laughed.

"I will miss you." I pouted as I wrapped my arms around him and hugged him tightly. Despite trying so hard to control my tears, they somehow escaped my eyes, but it was okay.

"Don't worry, I'll call you daily, we'll video call also, and sometimes I'll take pictures with my fans who are girls and send them to you to make you jealous." He said as he broke the hug.

"Then I'll also find a hot guy in my class and take pictures with him and send it to you to make you jealous." I giggled, we both laughed a little for a while and then went back to being sad again.

"Oh God! This is so difficult." I cried.

"I know babe." He said sadly, I could notice how hard he was also trying to control his tears but after a while he broke down and so did I.

We just hugged each other and let our emotions flow. Maybe with time it was going to be easier or I would get used to it, despite the fact that even the thought of not seeing him for so long was breaking my heart into tiny little pieces.

Why did distance have to be so tough?