I stumbled and the man with the short white hair turned around. I rolled on the floor and just hoped that he wouldn't attack me cause I'm not that good target rolling around. I sprung up and jumped behind the pillar but couldn't stop myself from peeking around the edge. There he was still standing, looking at me. His smile was sweet and his dimples deadly. He waved at me and I waved back. I heard screams of pain right behind me. Wait. This is wrong. He shouldn't wave and smile at me in that situation. "Sidney could you please stop just standing there like you're a Greek statue? You look amazing, we know that, but some of us are trying not to die so please a bit more respect." Shit. I took a step back and helped to carry out Seungkwang who's arm was got by a bullet. On our way out of the hall we were completely defenseless but... Nothing happened. "You okay? Is the bullet still in there?" The young man sitting outside in front of me clenched his teeth. "Yes..." I looked around. We were alone. I unbuckled my belt and shoved it between his teeth. "Bite down. I don't want you to loose your teeth because of this." The cold blade of the knife cut into his skin and the warm blood covered my hands. I heard him whining. "Shhh. It'll be over soon." The bullet fell onto the ground and I dropped the knife. I ripped the lower part of my shirt off and wrapped it tightly around his arm. "Don't move. Just let the pressure do it's thing." I carried him to a dark spot behind the hall. "Again. Don't move. If someone comes at you..." I put the rifle down next to him. "Good luck Sidney." "We'll both survive that. I'm sure." I jumped up and ran back into the hall again where the fight was still going on. "Where the fuck have you been?" "Saving Seungkwangs life?" "Yeah sure. Where are you with your thoughts?" I stood there in the middle of hell and Mingyu didn't have anything better to do than yelling at me. "Get the fuck out of this hall and leave the main quarter or stay here and fight. And put the other thoughts away." "You're about to kick me out, am I right?" "If you have to behave like that: yes." The bullet hit the ground in front of me and I jumped back. "Mingyu? It has been 10 years. And NOW you're noticing that this is not working." "This will be our last mission. You're a bad influence on the whole gang and..." He dropped down in front of me. It was silent. All I could here was a silent "swoosh" trough the air and bodies dropping down. I looked around and saw everyone lying on the ground but me. I startled as a tall thin man landed next to me. I looked up and started to understand. There was a net of pipes over the hall. He must have been sitting on one and... He dropped his long rifle. "They are unconscious for the next 20 minutes. You have 20 minutes to explain what happened. Time starts now." I looked around once again and was just confused. I searched for help but there was no one to help me. "Okay if you don't want to talk freely just answer my questions." A talk man with black hair walked into my direction, followed by 5 other men. The one with the white hair was with him too. "Whose girl are you?" "What?" The black haired man rolled his eyes. "Whose girlfriend or wife are you?" "No ones." The guys turned n around and mumbled stuff I didn't understand. "So normally no one would take a girl or a woman on a mission. There are done guys taking their moll with them but..." I straightened my back. "I'm not the Moll of anyone. I am or... at least I was a totally normal gang member." The red haired guy with the big muscles started talking. "So you know there are some rules. Stealing someones Moll is okay. Cause a Moll belongs to the strongest and most powerful leader but..." "But I'm not a Moll." "Yeah. And that's why we're asking you. What is your status at the moment." "I got thrown out of my gang after being a member for 10 years." The white haired guy stepped in front of me. "Why? And how old are you?" I looked down. "They were doing things that didn't feel right to me anymore. I don't like gang fights and I don't like robbing people that could need the money too. Back in the days we were robbing rich douches or stuff like that. But it was just getting out of control. I'm 21." The white haired guy opened his eyes as wide as possible."You're in a gang since you're 11? How...?" "My parents died when I was 10. They were killed by an assassination where two gangs fighted each other. In the orphanage I got treated poorly and yeah I just had to get out of it. Since then I lived here." "And now you're getting kicked out for... Your opinion?" I nodded my head. The black haired man kneeled down in front of me. "What's your name?" "I'm Sidney." "Listen Sidney... What do you want to do with them?" He threw his head into the direction of the others. "I don't want to be with them anymore. I don't want to die too. If you have a heart just let me run away." The black haired man started laughing. "Do you really think that?" I looked up. "You won't kill me. You wouldn't have spend the time to talk to me if you intended on killing me. So just let me run away." The white haired guy started to talk again. "Where do you want to go?" "I don't know. Just somewhere I can live without being in constant fear to die." "We can't let you go." My lower lip started to shake. "Why? Why? Please! Don't kill me... I don't deserve this." I hadn't had the energy to cry so I just went down on my knees and closed my eyes waiting for something to happen. Next to my ear there was a silent "Shhh." I heard the handcuffs klicking and felt the sack over my head. Big hands helped me standing up and I stubled a long time and a long way... The room I was locked in had blank brick walls. But the bed was comfy. I wrapped the fuzzy blanket around my shoulders and looked at the clock. Tick. Rock. 2pm. I was locked in this room for several hours now. I wasn't handcuffed anymore. But I didn't know what would happen to me. I was just sitting there and waiting. And waiting... Someone knocked against the door. "Yes?" The white haired guy came in with a big bag in his hand. He locked the door behind him again. "Can I sit down next to you Sidney?" "Yes..." He smiled softly to make me feel more comfortable. "Can I ask you for your name? It feels weird not to know it..." "Jooheon. I'd like to say something like 'nice to meet you' but the asks for a 'yeah, same' but I find think you find it nice to meet me..." I smiled softly. "Nice to meet you Jooheon." His dimples were stunning. "I brought you some clothes and yeah... I didn't know your size so I had do guess and... Shit. I'm sure you're hungry." I nodded my head. "Actually yes..." "Come, follow me. We can talk about the rest later." He stood up and opened the door. The hallway was long and cold. "I'm sorry that we had to lock you in the basement but... Yeah. You understand." I followed him upstairs to a pretty stylish loft. "Wow... It's nice here..." The tall man was sitting in the kitchen and doing something on his phone. Jooheon coughed slightly. "Hyungwon? Won't you say hi to our guest?" He put his glasses down and waved at me. "Sorry for scaring you earlier." "I'm grateful that I'm alive and I just hope that it'll stay like that." The black haired guy who I assumed was the leader appeared out of no where. "You won't get killed. At least not by one of us." Jooheon brought me a plate with vegetables and noodles and made me sit down on the dining table. "You'll have to stay with us, sorry. We can't let you go. You know too much." I looked at the white haired guy and put the fork with the steaming broccoli into my mouth. "I understand that. But what will you do to me?" "We think it's the best if you stay with us in the house for a while. Then we can see how things will develop and yeah... You can move freely in the house but when you go to bed we'll have to lock you in." "That's it?" "You're not mad?" "Listen... I lost my home a few hours ago. My whole life is just shattered. I don't have anyone in my life right now. I'm actually glad that I'm here. I mean... At least I am not alone and have a roof to live under." Jooheon smiled at me softly. "I'm sorry." I closed my eyes and leaned back. "Just not seeing my life in danger is refreshing. I think I'll enjoy the time here...""Do you really don't mind sleeping here?" "No Minhyuk. The room is way better than the one in the basement." "Yeah but it's loud and... We could renovate the room in the basement if you like it more." I fell down onto the bed. "No. This is my room now." "Well... If you like it I'm happy too. We can later order some new furniture off IKEA if you'd like too." "Can't we just visit it in person? I mean you took me out grocery shopping and to the doctor and..." "We'll see about that, yes?" Minhyuk ruffled through my hair and tried to cheer me up. He left the room and it didn't take too much time till Jooheon visited me. "Hey, nice new room... And so close to mine." "It doesn't have a lock." "You don't need a lock, do you? You won't run away, am I right?" He sat down next to me on the bed like he always likes to do it. "No. This is my home now." I looked out of the window. "Sometimes I just wonder if the others miss me..." "I'd miss you if you'd go now." I turned around to him. "Really?" "Yes." I hesitated for a second. I looked at him not knowing what to do but his arms were already open for me. Hugging him made me feel really calm. In all this trouble I actually found peace. The 7 boys were totally different from my old gang. They actually didn't even rob people or stuff like that. They were more into hacking and stuff. Very little violence usage. I actually felt kinda useless at that time. There was nothing that I could do for them. I was just living from their money and doing nothing all day. I helped Kihyun in the kitchen but that was it. I didn't sleep very well locked in that room. It kinda have me anxiety. Many nights Jooheon spend sleeping in front of my door in case I needed to come out quickly in case of a fire or something like that. That's why I moved into the actual loft. My room was next to Jooheons and I loved it. He became the best friend I ever had in my life. And this first hug just changed everything...
"I'm glad that you're here with us Sidney. I'm very glad. " His throat was vibrating while talking and his big hands slowly stroked my back. I closed my eyes and just enjoyed the moment of complete peace."So that's the plan." I took a deep breath. "I got it." "You don't have to do it if you don't want to." I shook my head. "Shownu... I want to be all of you a help." "I know. Just be honest about how you feel about it." "I feel good. I wanted to be you a help and I have the chance to do so and so I'll do it." "Great. So I put you in a Team with Jooheon. You two are the closest and I think that'll work good. You just wait for him to get the data and give him backing if needed." Jooheon grabbed my hands. "Don't let me die, yes?" "Sure. That's my job." "Just your job or more?" "Way more." "Good. Let's take a nap before the mission. You need that. And I could need that too." I nodded my head and went to my room. I crawled under my blanket and closed my eyes while Jooheon lay down on the sofa. I heard his regular breath and felt his warmth but somehow it didn't calm me down like it always did. "Are you nervous Sidney?" "Yes..." "You don't have to. We are there for each other." I closed my eyes and prayed that the next thing I would say wouldn't be too weird. "Can you come to me? Please?" "In your bed?" "You don't have to if you don't want to... Sorry for asking." "Shh. Be quiet." His broad shoulders appeared next to me in bed. The warmth of his body calmed me down and I searched for his hand under the blanket. He grabbed my hands and turned around to me. "Are you so scared of the mission? You don't have to go with us if you don't want to." "Ahh... I'm just scared that you will get hurt because I do something wrong..." "You can't do anything wrong. Okay. If you take out your gun and shoot me right into the face that will probably hurt me. But besides from that I don't know what could go wrong." I sighed loudly and Jooheon came closer to me. "Hey, I trust you. Don't worry." He started stroking my left cheek and I hid my face on his shoulder. "Now sleep princess... You can't disappoint me. I promise.""Everyone ready?" "Yes Shownu." "Okay Sidney. There's your gun. And take the knife too. But don't cut yourself." I attached the 'tools' to my belt and grabbed Jooheons hands that pulled me into the van. "Okay. So you just stand right behind me while I delete the data from the main server. No one will see us. It's totally not dangerous." I looked down on the belt and the weapons. Not dangerous. Right. "What if someone else wants to do the same thing? Or wants you to stop deleting the data?" "Then you know what to do. But even in that case you have me. And I won't let you do the dirty jobs." I swallowed my fear down. I wasn't like that on missions normally. But today I couldn't help myself but be worried. "Okay. Were there. I'll park the van here. When you're done give me a signal and I'll come and pick you up." I nodded into Wonhos direction and followed Jooheon through the dark. He moved loudless. He was so silent that I asked myself if he's even breathing... His muscular legs and his broad back looked even good in a situation like that... The door wasn't difficult to unlock. Some faked Iris scans and more faked finger prints and we got into the large building. "Okay. Left, right, right, basement, room 256." I just nodded and followed him silently. He was fast and I felt like I'm in a trance following him. Somehow things felt wrong to me. Totally wrong. But there was no turning back right now. I kneeled down to unlock the door with one of the tools I had with me but Jooheon grabbed my hand and helped me up. "It's already open. See? Someone must have forgotten to lock it last night. How nice of them." He smiled to comfort me and I felt even worse. "Something about that is fishy." "Shhh. No negative thoughts from your side while I'm working." I stood right next to him doing stuff with the main server. He was hacking vs looking busy. I didn't really understand what he was doing but he looked concentrated and way too handsome.​ The only thing that destroyed that moment for me was that he was doing criminal hacking and I was standing there with my gun targeting at a potential attacker. "Are you done soon?" "Wait, just one more..." I wasn't concentrated for a single second. And that was the worst mistake that I could make. The man's gun was already pressed against his head and I wasn't able to change that anymore. "Mingyu... Why?" "Why? Why the hell did you change sides? That's the question I have!" I looked at Jooheon not being able to move because of Mingyus tight grab. "Mingyu. Leave him alone. He had nothing to do with that." He started to laugh loudly. "Yeah, sure." I began to panic for real now. "What do you want me to do? What do I need to to l do to make you let go off him?" "Kill him." I started bizarre laughing. "No. Never." "Man, what's your problem? You treated her like shit and now... What do you want? Do you want her to come back? Now? After all this time?" "That's exactly what I want." "For fucks sake that's bullshit." Mingyu hit his head with the handle of the rifle and hot tears started to build up in my eyes. "It's your choice. Kill yourself or kill him." I startled. "That doesn't make any sense..." He pressed the gun even tighter to his head. I pulled up the gun and held it against my head. "No. No. No." Jooheon started yelling. "It's my fault. I didn't believe you when you said that it's not save here." The metal against my head was cold. "You're innocent." "He will kill me if you kill yourself." "He wouldn't." "I wouldn't." "Sidney. That's stupid. Put that gun down." "I won't kill you." "You have to. See... if you're working in this job there's a high risk that something like that will happen and... It's time to go for me." Tears started dripping from his face. "Don't say things like that... You're young. It's not time to go now." "And so are you. Please just do it now. I don't want to wait any longer." I didn't put my gun down. I just started to bawl loudly. I didn't want to hear Jooheon sob anymore. I didn't want these tears to run over his soft cheeks. "You need to choose now Sidney. Or I'll kill both of you." "Do I have a last will?" "Jooheon... I won't kill you! You need to understand!" "Yeah you can have a last one." "Let me kiss her goodbye." I started to lose my sight. The tears made my eyes dull and I was losing my mind. "She has to come to you." I took a step into his direction and my eyes met his. Between a curtain of tears our both eyes met and from that point on I knew that there must a an escape out of this nightmare. "I can't kiss you Jooheon." His sobbing became louder. "Why? Why? It's my last will." "I won't kiss anyone that I don't love." I dropped the gun and walked straight up to Mingyu. "Babe..." "Mingyu... Why did you take so long to find me?" His grab around Jooheon became less tight and I threw him onto the ground. "Great play Sidney. I almost thought that these tears were real." Mingyu wrapped his right arm around my waist and pulled me closer. "Sure... They we're real." In the corner of my eye I saw how Jooheon got up, anger in his face. I needed to hurry."Come Mingyu. Give me a kiss and then let's go..." His lips felt sticky and gross. "Why did you never tell me that you loved me when you we're still living with us? Why did all this have to happen?" Jooheons face just went even redder and I was getting scared of his anger. I needed to finish this now. "You know Mingyu..." The cold knife entered his neck. "I never loved you. Never. And if there was a possibility that I could have ever loved you you killed that 15 minutes ago like I killed you now. " Jooheon stood right behind me with his mouth wide open, his eyes still filled with the tears he cried because of me. Mingyu spat blood on me. The sound of him breathing his own blood made me stumble back. His dying body coated the floor in red blood. Jooheon turned me around and I started crying more. "Why?" I grabbed his shirt. "I could never kill you. Never. Ever. Never." "What was that?" "Don't be angry please..." "You wanted not to fulfill my last will... Why? Tell me why? Why? What did I do to you? Did I misinterpret the looks you have me? Did I misinterpret the way you held my hand? Why?" I swallowed my tears. "You wanted to kiss me goodbye." "Yes! Of course I wanted! I fucking love you! I thought you'd know that!" "I didn't want to kiss you goodbye. I don't want to say goodbye. I want to kiss you good morning when I wake up next to you. Every day from now one. I didn't want to kiss you goodbye cause it would have been forever and I wouldn't have survived that. You're the only thing that's important to me. You're the reason why I breath. Without you I would be dead or homeless. When I look at you I'm just aching. I never wanted to see that look of betrayal in your eyes. I never wanted you to feel like that. But I failed. Maybe it's the best if I just go now. I destroyed too many things tonight. I don't want to destroy you as well." I let go off him and was about to run away but he grabbed me and I feel onto the blood covered ground. He picked me up and looked me into the eyes. "Jooheon looking at you feeling like this is worse than killing a men that I knew for 12 years. I'm dying looking at you. Please..." With his sleeve he swiped over my face to make the blood go away. His tears met me before his lips did but I just wrapped my arms around him and didn't let go off him anymore. "Are you still achin?" "Take me away from here... I can't..." I lost my sight. The last thing I remember was Jooheon holding me tightly and carrying me out the ugly building.

His bare chest felt warm under my head. "Did you sleep tightly princess?" "I had a nightmare." Jooheon made me sit up and grabbed my shoulders. "About what?" "I dreamed that you weren't there anymore when I woke up." "Maybe I was just... preparing breakfast?" "I missed you so much and..." His pulled me onto his lap and kissed me. I looked up to him. "No chance that I'll leave you. You know that." He smiled and I reached out my hand to touch his soft dimples. "I'm afraid that I'll wake up some day and everything was a dream." "If it feels right it should be alright, right?" His lips met mine and I didn't wake up.