I came home and closed the door. Home sweet home. Tired and cold from the wintery air outside I let myself fall onto my bed. Puhh. Finally some time to rest. The week was actually very stressful. I had a lot of clients to work on and a 7 day work week. Now it was Sunday evening and I was finally alone and had time to relax. I opened the first drawer of my bedside table and took out the Mac Book and turned it on. While I was waiting for it to boot up I walked to the small kitchen unit I had and went on my tiptoes to get the tea out of the cupboard. While boiling the water I thought of the many times my beloved one laughed at me for being too small to get my favorite tea out of the cupboard without his help. Before he left me he placed the small box of raspberry and woodruff tea right on the edge so that I could reach it. I sighed and took out my phone to open Kakao Talk. As expected he hadn't had the time to text me till now. But his sweet good morning message still warmed my heart. I had texted him a lot of messages after that. He wouldn't read them soon and I knew that. But it always made me feel better about the situation of not being able to see him that often. But it was okay. No rainbow without rain they say. I put the phone onto the bedside table and enjoyed my tea. I wasn't that great of a tea drinker to be honest. But on the first dates I went with him I always ordered black coffee and was confused about his pouty face. He ordered always a double espresso although he didn't seem to enjoy it that much. "Oppa, why are you always ordering espresso even though you don't like it?" "I like it." "You're a liar." "It just looks better." "How... what? You don't make sense." "See... You always order black coffee like a rich and well-mannered grown up and how would it look if I would be sitting there sipping on my strawberry milk? That's not manly." I had to smile about that very first memory of him and me. "I don't care about what you drink... I only have my eyes on you. You could literally drink tomato juice with chocolate syrup and I wouldn't care." "I know that but it's okay. I'll carry on drinking espresso too look good in front of you." His looks when he is all pouty... Just by thing about it my heart started to beat faster. "Excuse me Mister?" "Yes madam?" "Could you please bring us strawberry milk and a tea?" "Of course." I leaned over the table to finish my loves espresso and chugged my own black coffee. "I am a tea drinker from now on. Is that fine with you?" His cheeks began to glow in a soft pink and he stumbled something like "You didn't have to do that..." The strawberry milk and my tea arrived and my boyfriend started smiling at me. The dimples appeared on his face and I looked down onto the table. "Are you okay Jagi?" "When you smile, I get dizzy. That dimple is illegal." He started smiling even brighter. "I know what you want to do. Just do it. I'm waiting." I jumped off my chair and leaned over the table to take his face in my hand and kiss his soft cheek. "I love you Sidney. I hope you know that." "How could I ever forget about that?"
The sound of my Outlook made me woke up out of my daydream about days in the past and I concentrated on the bright display. Tuesday 2:20 am Monsta X Showcase. I picked up my phone from the bedside table and it instantly began to ring. I picked up and heard a lot of noise and a sigh. "Kihyun could you somehow manage not to scream around while I'm on my phone?" "Sidney! Hello! I'm annoying your beloved one! What are you doing?" "Ahhh... Kihyun. Don't be too hard on him please. That's my job!" "Oh, you already picked up? You're fast I have to say. Wait a second till we get out... Yeah. It's way more silent here outside." Jooheon screeched in the back. "I missed you. How has your day been?" "A lot of stress. We were doing a photo shoot for that face mask company and..." "If this face mask makes me as pretty as you I would totally buy it." His tired laugh made me worry. "Is everything alright with you?" "We haven't seen each other in 3 weeks... I just miss you a lot. That's everything. The fact that I don't know when I can see you again is just scaring and it makes me tired." He was whining around in such a silent and deep voice and it really hurt me. I looked at my schedule again. "We will see each other again soon." "Is that a promise?" "Yes. It is." I heard how he got into the Van and how someone closed the doors. "Listen. I don't have much time left. If I don't see you by the end of the week I don't care anymore. I'll leave the dorm and stay with you overnight. We'll have a date night at your place and we'll drink tea and do everything we want. I don't get more than 5 hours of sleep per night usually so it won't make a difference if I stay up with you for this one night." "You're already overworked and you're getting sick more and more often... please look after yourself. I'm worried..." "Hush. I'll see you next week. No matter what." "I miss your soft cheeks and your warm hugs... I miss you so much that I sometimes can't think about anything else but you and..." "Hey... don't start crying now because of me. We'll see each other next week. That's a promise. Now close your eyes and dream of me, yes?" "Okay..." "Remember that I always love you..." He ended the phone call and I wiped away the tear that rolled down my face. I drank my tea and tried to stop the other tears that were falling down my face. I felt even worse. I knew exactly that he knew that I was crying now. And that would make him feel even worse. I tried to follow his words and turned off the light. I would see him so soon. I should be more excited than sad because he can't be with me at the moment.
"Good morning babe, I hope you're still sleeping tightly when I text you this. I also hope that you fell asleep very soon after I had to hang up last night. I know that you must have been really sad and upset after that call but so I am. If you didn't laugh at this I have officially failed as you boyfriend... We have a Showcase tonight... I mean tomorrow morning... You know what I mean my love, yes? We'll see each other soon. I promise. And now have a good day, yes? I want to be the reason you laugh and not the reason that you cry alone at home."
I rolled to the side and opened Netflix. Somehow I had to kill the time till I would see him again. I don't know why I didn't tell him yesterday that I would see him tonight. Maybe I wanted to surprise him, I couldn't really¬ tell anymore. I watched some more episodes 13 Reasons Why and ate some ice cream with chocolate sauce cause I needed and deserved it. It was about 10pm when I got up and took a hot shower. I put on some light makeup and a pink skirt paired with one of my boyfriend's shirts I had lying around. I took the heavy belt and attached it to my waist. I grabbed my phone and the big case next to my door. Now or never.

It was 1am and in front of the studio it was already full. I didn't need to show them my staff card. They already knew me and let go into the building through the back entrance. I walked through the one long famous hallway. On one side Twice, on the other side a small Woozi yelling at his bandmates. Jae and Wonpil where there too. I didn't get myself to talk to him for more than half a minute because I felt like I was on a hunt. And there on the other side of this way too long hallway there was my pray. I saw Jooheon facing towards me and he started smiling brightly. He didn't say anything tough. I began to walk faster and faster; in the end I was just running. I hugged Changkyun from the back and went on my tiptoes to kiss his soft cheek. "I gave you a promise." The other members started to laugh loudly but Changkyun just turned around and kissed me. He kissed me one, two, three and even more times without saying anything. His sweet 'hello' kisses became more and more passionate from kiss to kiss. It didn't take a long time till my back was facing the wall and he was standing so close to me that there wouldn't have fit even a sheet of paper between the two of us. "Wow. Stormy Welcoming." "Hey babe. I missed you." He gave me a soft kiss on the forehead and grabbed with one hand my suitcase and with the other hand my hand. "Come. The others are waiting."
It wasn't actual work for me to do the boys makeup. I knew them all for a long time and I exactly knew what skin types they have and what products I had to use. The Dramarama comeback didn't ask for a lot of technically difficult make-up looks and so I was done pretty quickly. The second last one was Jooheon who, of course, let me do his eyeliner three times because 'It was not perfect enough'. Of course it was as good as I did it the first time as I did it the last time. I knew he was just messing around with me because Changkyun was waiting for me. "Aaaah finally you have time for me!" While I was beating his face with the cushion he constantly tickled my stomach. "Poor girl has to wear her boyfriend's shirts..." "Aaaah Im Changkyun... why so playful today?" "Get yourself a hotel room!" Kihyun was screaming through the dressing room. I kissed Changkyuns plump lips a last time before they had to go to their stage. "Wait here for me. I'll be back before the others. We'll have some fun before they come back, yes?" "God, Changkyunnie... why you gotta be like this?" "Don't behave like you don't want it Jagiya... you're a bad liar." He turned around and followed the others. I stood there next to the open door for a full minute and wasn't able to move before I decided that it would be the best if I would clean up all the stuff before my loved one would come back to me. I finished refilling my makeup case soon enough and watched the whole Monsta X stage on the TV in the dressing room. I saw them performing Dramarama plenty of times before but it just never became old to me. The stage was finished and not more than 30 seconds later a sweaty Changkyun was standing right in front of me. "I said I'll be there." "You're sweaty babe." "You don't mind that, do you? Cause you will be sweaty in a few minutes too, for sure." He grabbed my hand and walked up to the sofa and sat down. "Make yourself comfortable. On my lap." I climbed onto him and looked into his deep brown eyes. "You're not wearing contacts." "I don't need them around you, do I?" "You look even more like a puppy when you're not wearing them." Changkyuns hands wandered under my skirt. "Don't be that cute when I'm trying to do naughty stuff with you." "Naughty puppy?" His hands wandered between my legs and my reaction was instant. Changkyun smiled at me while biting his lower lip. "I know you fall for me at least at that point... or should I say spot?" I hated Changkyun for the fact that he exactly knew what he was doing. "God... Changkyun..." "I'm not God. I'm just your boyfriend fingering you." He took my face in his free hand and kissed me so slowly that it was basically killing me. Until I heard some noises from outside the dressing room. "Babe, did you lock the door?" "You can't look these doors. You know that." "Gosh... we shouldn't do that here..." "We're equal partners in a relationship but I can't take you serious when you say things like that while your hands are hectically unbuckling my belt." I didn't even talk back to him anymore. He won. "You can stop. I am not forcing you to do anything." He stopped kissing me. He stopped touching me. "God, Changkyun. Don't stop. I want you so bad..." He gave me a dirty smirk and his irresistible dimples popped up. "I know that you'd change your mind." He pulled my panty by side and made me sit down on him. "Just imagine one of the other members would walk in right now... what a mess!" His hot breath and hard movements made me go crazy. "God... don't tell me you're into that kind of stuff..." "Don't tell me that you don't like it too." "I hate you so much Im Changkyun..." "You're a moaning mess. And you're riding me with too much pleasure to hate me. I would actually guess that you love me and that you need me and that you want me more than anything else in this entire world." He went down to kiss and lick the sweet spot on my neck and had to cover up my mouth a few seconds later. "Woah. Seems like I wasn't wrong about what I said like a minute ago. But just carry on. You can moan as much and as loud as you need to when I cover your mouth like that. No one can hear how much you're enjoying fucking with me in an unlocked room where everyone could find us at any time besides me. The only pity is that I can't kiss you anymore when I hold you like that. But looking at you while you're completely losing your mind has some perks too." I hated him and his stupid dirty talk that made me lose control over myself so much. If he would treat me like that in a 30 minute break literally at work... how would he treat me when we would be alone at home and... His lasts thrusts into me finished me completely. After our climax I just fell onto him with no power left to do anything anymore. "Who's the sweaty babe now?" "I am." He chuckled softly. "God, they should have chosen my name more wisely."  He closed his eyes and looked to the side smiling softly. There was my puppy Changkyun again. "I missed you a lot Sidney." "I missed you too. Pancake puppy." I kissed his softly appearing dimples and lay my head down on his chest and fell asleep to his soft regular heartbeat...