"I'm keeping this baby.. our baby", I firmly say staring at Jason nothing, but seriousness in my voice and face expression.

Jason's eyes almost bulge out of their sockets taken back from what I just spat at him.

"Aleysa you can't be serious?", he huffs.

"I'm dead serious.. it's my baby", I say while placing my hand on my belly.

A smile forms on my lips feeling some type of warmth and little electricity run throughout my body.

Jason warily watches me fear in his eyes. I can tell he's struggling with something far deeper than he has led on.

"Why are you so against me having your child?!", I scold feeling hurt very hurt by his behavior ever since I told him about being pregnant.

I absolutely understand a guy being shocked by the news of their girl being pregnant especially in the situation we are in, but still if Jason loves me like he says he does. Why is this pregnancy such a horror to him?

"I don't want to be a father", Jason mutters pacing back and forth like a crazy person.

"WHY?!", I scold no longer having the patience I've had this entire time with him.

"we're not ready Aleysa stop being so naive"

I abruptly stand up clenching my fists anger rising in me, "NO ONE EVER IS JASON!"

"Why are you fucking yelling?", Jason rolls his eyes.

"BECAUSE I'M PISSED AT YOUR BEHAVIOR TOWARDS ME BEING PREGNANT WITH YOUR BABY! I THOUGHT YOU LOVED ME!", I scold my arms flying all over the place like a mad woman.

I didn't expect this from Jason at all. I honestly believe after the unexpected news sunk into him. He would actually be happy about our love creating something beyond this world.

Shit, we had a lot of unprotected sex. Jason should of known what was the risks of doing that right? I honestly didn't even think about it whatsoever. I was completely lost in the lust of the moment every time.

But at least, I've accepted this pregnancy and to be honest, I'm starting to feel happy about having a bun in the oven.

"I do love you you fucking know that! It's just it-"

"DON'T YOU DARE CALL MY BABY AN IT ANYMORE!", I shout cutting Jason off.

My heart breaks every time he uses that word to identify our child.

Jason stays silent clenching his jaw as he walks away from me walking towards the closet to pull out a white shirt.

"WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU JASON?!", I roar losing my shit completed.

"I'M FUCKING SCARED ALEYSA! I'M SO TERRIFIED OF BEING A FATHER TO AN INNOCENT CHILD! I'M A PIECE OF SHIT, A CRIMINAL, A MURDERER! I RUINED YOUR LIFE! JUST LOOK AT US WE'RE ON THE RUN TOGETHER BECAUSE I'M WANTED BY THE FBI! SINCE DATING ME YOUR ALWAYS IN DANGER! DON'T YOU DARE EVEN FUCKING LIE ABOUT THAT! WHAT KIND OF A FUCKING LIFE ARE WE GOING TO GIVE THIS CHILD HUH?! I'M SO FUCKED UP!", Jason roars his veins popping out from his neck. His light brown hazel eyes three shades darker looking so cold.

I take two steps back completely terrified of Jason. This is the first time he's ever yelled at me.

However, I listened to every word he's speaking and I finally understand Jason's behavior. I take a moment of silence thinking about how right he is about what kind of life we're going to give our baby under these circumstances we're currently in.

"Jason", I mumble stepping towards him.

"Stay away from me.. I'm out of here!", Jason grumbles putting his shirt on.

I take a step back completely speechless just watching Jason put his shirt on. As much as I want to run to him and hug him not letting him go to wherever he's thinking of going to.

I can't stop him, I have to give him his space to think about everything. So I just turn around going into the restroom shutting the door.

I lean my back against the door sliding down slowly until I hit the tile floor of the restroom. My mind drifts to what Jason said a few minutes ago and I completely break down crying feeling so bad for Jason.

I had no idea this is what was going on with him in the inside. It's so sad to see how badly he talks and thinks of himself.

Why can't he see what I see?

As I sob, I think back to a quote. I came across when Jason and I were struggling to be together while working at Grey Global.

He was trouble
Chaos really
But his smile
His smile
Dared me to fall in love with him

-Atticus

I cradle my belly and immediately feel this sense of strength almost like if my baby is telling me to stay strong.

And so I listen smiling down at my belly loving my baby that's inside of me. I always knew I wanted to be a mother, but never at this age.

However, the best adventures of life are always unplanned. That's what my mother has always told me. She always let it be known that I was the best accomplishment she did her life.

So this baby I'm carrying inside of me is going to be my best accomplishment in my life as well. I can already feel it.

Jason's pov

I couldn't be in the same room as Aleysa after I spluttered my inner fears to her.

The way she looked at me with fear in her dark brown eyes made me feel like shit for yelling at her like a crazy person.

It was my first time ever losing my shit with her and I feel like complete shit for that.

Aleysa really knows how to push my buttons I swear. But I do understand why she lost her shit with me.

What kind of a person calls their own kid an "it"? What kind of a man doesn't support his woman after getting her pregnant?

A coward

That's exactly what I'm being right now.

A fucking coward

A part of me is angry for spluttering everything to Aleysa, but a part of me feels relieved for finally letting her know how I feel.

I close my eyes and let out a deep breathe feeling like a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders.

I hope Aleysa forgives me for being afraid of being a father to our baby.

Our baby

My baby

I repeat those words a few more times in my head almost as if I'm finally coming to the conclusion that's Aleysa is really pregnant with my child.

We're bringing a child into this world. Half of Aleysa's DNA and mine are coming together as we speak.

Which is a bit scary, yet incredible at the same time.

I never once thought about ever having a child. The thought of my bad genes running around possibly being bad like me or worse scared the shit out of me since I am not proud of the criminal life I chose to live.

However, I can see how Aleysa is happy with carrying my child. The way she cradles her belly protectively and smiles beaming down at her belly makes my heart beat fast and slow at the same time.

At first, I was mad for ruining her life even more, but she's happy with this pregnancy, so it means I didn't ruin her life right?

The last thing I want to be is a dead beat father like my own father is. I won't lie I am still afraid about becoming a father to my innocent child.

But I love Aleysa with all of my heart. She's my reason to live.

Everyday that passes by, I love Aleysa more and more because she loves me back, I honestly didn't think I could be loved or deserved to be loved, but the more broken I became the more she seemed to love me, and the more I love her back for that.

From all of the deep thinking. I barely realize it's now night time. I stand up from sitting on the concrete standing still looking up at the dark sky.

The beautiful stars are shining so brightly tonight giving me some hope for my future.

As I think about Aleysa and my child. I know what I must do. The day my mother passed, I was left with nothing.

Absolutely nothing.

No family just on my own at a young age, but after meeting Aleysa, she became my family.

And now she's giving me a baby.. my baby, the only human being from my blood.

I smile at the thought of Aleysa and my baby that's inside her womb realizing from having once nothing to now having everything.

My little family