Jason's pov

Since Aleysa told me that she's pregnant. I haven't moved from this spot just shocked by the whole situation.

The entire time Aleysa was gone. I was losing my shit going crazy especially when I couldn't find my car nor her bag.

I knew she was leaving me in that moment. I felt vulnerable not knowing what to do even though I must admit I deserved for her to leave me after what I did.

She has ignored me for three straight days and that hurt my feeling a lot, but what got me so pissed off at her was the day of the carnival. When that moron was hitting on her in front of me and she didn't push him away.

That shit screwed with my head, so I did what I do best and invited some chick to the house that I meet at the carnival.

I just wanted to make Aleysa jealous and feel what I felt, but I knew that shit was too far. I wanted to press her buttons like she did to me, but instead I just managed to hurt her which is not what I intended to do.

But who am I kidding that's exactly what was going to happen. I just didn't expect for her to leave like she did and that shit broke my heart that I fucked up so bad that she was trying to go home.

Does she miss New York that much?

When I got the call that my car was tolled due to a car accident. My heart dropped down to my stomach fearing the worst.

It was the worst not knowing if Aleysa was alive or not just like that time, she got into a car accident with that bitch ass fool who left her in a coma.

But this time, I'm the bitch ass fool who pushed her to drive off. It's all my fault.

If something happened to her I would of never forgiven myself for it.

And now I just ruined her life more than I already have. I got her pregnant, there's nothing good coming from that.

I never thought in a million years about being a father. My genes are just too fucked up nothing good can from me.

"Where is she?", Jacky barges through the door with the rest of the gang.

"She's okay I just seen her", I mutter.

"Thank god", Tiny huffs.

"Then where is she?", Jacky furrows her brows peering at me.

"They took her to the examination room"

"For?"

"B-Because she's pregnant", I mumble dropping my gaze down as if I just heard it for the first time myself.

I'm so shocked by it all still and I just want to pinch myself from this nightmare, but every time I just wince in pain still sitting in this very spot realizing it's not a nightmare it's my reality.

Everyone gasps baffled by the news.
"Man I'm so sorry is the baby a-alive?", Isaac nervously asks.

That hasn't even crossed my mind whatsoever. This entire time all I've been doing is processing what Aleysa said about being pregnant.

I didn't even once think about the baby being affected in the accident.

"Maybe it's for the best if it isn't", I blankly respond.

"Are you fucking serious?", Tiny sternly says evilly glaring at me.

"Yes I fucking am.. I can't ruin Aleysa's life more than I already have", I grumble.

"Ruin? Jason your such a fucking dumbass no baby ruins shit instead it's a blessing"

"Don't you get it? I'm fucked up.. nothing coming from me can be good"

"Jason McCann", the nurse from earlier steps inside her dark eyes beaming at me.

"Yes, where's Aleysa?", I stand up from the chair walking towards her.

"How's the baby?", Jacky chirps worriedly.

"Aleysa is in perfect condition.. she's on her way as we speak"

I let out a breathe of relief knowing everything is going to be alright with her.

"As for the baby, the baby is completely fine as well.. the accident wasn't life threatening to the fetus", the nurse smiles.

Jacky and Tiny huff both so worried about the baby. I on the other hand, sit back down not knowing what to exactly think about it all.

Should I be happy that this baby is safe?

What's wrong with me?

"Like I said McCann the baby is a blessing", Tiny splutters rolling her eyes at me.

Is it a blessing?

Aleysa and I have to have a serious talk about this situation. Only she can make me understand what the fuck is going on with me.

But first, I must make things right between us.

Aleysa's pov

"The baby is fine right?"

"Yes the baby is fine nothing to worry about",
the nurse smiles.

This must be the third time I ask making sure it's the same response for reassurance.

We enter the room where I was earlier and the nurse starts to plug all of the wires into my bed. I frown not seeing Jason in here.

I wonder if he possibly ran off since telling him I'm pregnant.

Did I scare him off?

"Aleysa", the familiar deep voice I adore so much splutters causing me to look towards the door frame.

There he is standing firm beaming at me and the nurses.

"I thought you left", I mumble dropping my gaze down from him onto my fidgeting fingers.

"Why would I do that?"? Jason furrows his brows.

"I don't know what you'll do or won't anymore", I sigh.

"Aleysa, I'm sorry for what I did"

"Let us know if you need anything alright hun", the nurse smiles at me before walking out of the room giving Jason and I some privacy.

I nod grateful for how nice she's being with me. She reminds me a lot of Eloisa.

"Which... killing that blonde or for fucking with that brunette at the house?", I mutter crossing my arms across my chest narrowing my eyes at him.

"Both", Jason huffs standing near my bed clutching my hand into his.

As much as I want to swat his hand away, I can't. His touch is everything to me.

"I was so angry for that bitch hurting you and our relationship. For fuck sakes, I almost lost you thanks to her"

"Jason I understand, but taking her life away taking her away from her loved ones isn't right.. you just can't do shit like that", I let out a breathe thinking about how much her loved ones must be hurting right now.

"I know Aleysa it's just that's how I've always handled shit.. my temper takes over.. I get it I fucked up", Jason sighs not breaking sight from my gaze on him.

"You need to work on that temper if you want to better yourself and who's that brunette that had her hands all over you?", I raise a brow remembering about that nasty scene at the house.

"She's some chick I meet at the carnival after I ran off pissed at your bullshit.. plus I wasn't so fond of you leaving the carnival the way you did by the way", Jason firmly says giving me a serious look.

"I'm sorry I just wanted to be far away from everyone I guess and how dare you do that fucked up shit having a girlfriend basically living with you", I scoff rolling my eyes at him.

"I know I'm fucking stupid for doing that. I just wanted to make you jealous get back at you for how you made me feel at the carnival when you were flirting with that retard", Jason tightens his jaw as he mentions the word 'retard'.

"First of all I wasn't flirting he just complimented me and I said thanks that's all"

"What did he say?", Jason grumbles clenching his fists.

"He said I'm beautiful"

"I should of punched his face"

"It's just a compliment it's normal Jason", I roll my eyes.

"Your mine Aleysa", Jason mutters.

"No one is trying to steal me from you relax"

"Guys are dogs"

"Like you", I scoff.

"Aleysa st-"

"I fucking hate how bad you hurt me having that bitch at the house especially you letting her place her filthy hands on you knowing your mine Jason.. this relationship isn't a high school shit anymore.. we're practically somewhat married now", I scold cutting him off.

"Married?", Jason says licking his bottom lip beaming at me with those adorable light brown hazel eyes of his.

I swear, I melt every time by his seductive gaze it's just so sexy. Everything is so sexy about him.

"Well we live together you know", I nervously respond feeling my cheeks redden as I squirm on the bed.

Jason chuckles at my little girl behavior before saying, "I get what you mean".

"I'm sorry for being such a brat these past days and for ruining your car.. I'll fix it"

"Fuck the car babe, I'm just happy your okay"

"I shouldn't of ran off the way I did", I sigh regretting my actions that have only brought me trouble.

"Do you miss New York?"

"What? No"

"Again, do you miss New York?", Jason bluntly asks.

"No"

"Don't lie babe I know you do.. I know you miss your parents", Jason drops his face down to the tile floor.

I feel so torn between Jason and my parents. I miss my parents mostly my mom, but I know if I don't have Jason with me I would just miss him more than anything.

It sucks that we're in this situation. It sucks that I can't have the best of both worlds. It sucks that everything in New York threatens our love.

"Your right Jason, I do miss my parents mostly my mother. There isn't a night I don't think about her. Yesterday at the carnival I saw this mother and daughter laughing with one another and I just wanted to cry because I just miss my mom so much", my voice cracks.

"Brat, why haven't you told me any of this?"

"Because I just don't want you blaming yourself for any of this like you do already"

Jason stays silent, he sits on my bedside and drapes his arm over my shoulder pulling me into his chest as he strokes my arm comforting me.

"You know you can go back to New York right? I'm the one they want", Jason sighs.

"Never, your my home Jason I already chose", I firmly respond hugging Jason by his waist.

"Were you actually going to leave to New York?"

"That was the goal until I found out.. I'm pregnant with your baby"

Two minutes pass by as silence fills the room up. It's just Jason and I hugging on each other like our lives depends on it.

"Babe?", Jason breaks the silence.

"Yeah?"

"When did you find out?"

"Before the accident"

"At the house?"

"No, at the dollar store"

"What are you thinking of doing with it?", Jason croaks.

"It?", I push Jason away feeling a bit hurt by the word.

I know this whole pregnancy news is shocking and so unexpected, but still calling a baby especially our baby an 'it' just isn't nice.

"I meant fetus"

Even though fetus is an appropriate word. It just pains my heart that Jason isn't saying 'baby'. It's like he isn't at all feeling some type of way towards this baby.

His baby.

"I don't know"

I have no idea what to do or think about this unexpected pregnancy. I mean I barely found out a few hours ago about being pregnant. It's only natural for me to not have a clue on what to do or think about it right?

"What are you thinking?", I let out a breathe nervous of what Jason is about to say.

I can already tell he isn't so fond about this unplanned pregnancy.

"Honestly, I think it's best if we don't go through with it.. I mean the fetus"

For some reason, Jason words sting like a bee. I know this whole situation is so shocking and isn't as easy to process the whole thing so fast, but I didn't at all expect to hear this.

"W-why?", I stutter sadness in my heart.

"Three reasons, one.. I'm too fucked up nothing good can come from my genes. Two.. we're too young and three.. I can't ruin your life more than I already have", Jason stands up off from the bed as he paces back and forth.

I take a moment to think about all three reasons Jason just mentioned about not going through with this pregnancy. Only one make sense about us being young. However, it isn't a reason for me to not go through with this.

"Jason you are not fucked up.. just because you made bad decisions in life that doesn't make you a bad person and stop saying that you didn't ruin shit in my life", I grumble peering at Jason.

"Aleysa you had a perfect life before I came in and now your on the run with me away from your family and home", Jason rolls his eyes.

"Answer me this"

"What?"

"Did you murder Alessandra? no bullshit"

"No, what the fuck!"

"See you didn't ruin anything"

"However, I have put you in danger let's not forget how you were shot on the foot"

"Stop it"

"It's like something is always happening to you because of me", Jason grits his teeth.

"Jason please just stop"

"Now your pregnant because of me"

"It takes two"

"I knew it.. I should of wrapped it those times"

"Jason just shut up! I don't want to talk about it anymore I just want to rest", I mutter no longer wanting to hear negativity.

"I'm sorry Aleysa"

"Let's just not talk about it. I just want to rest for now okay", I sigh laying back down on the bed feeling so overwhelmed by everything.

"I understand", Jason responds sitting on the chair near me.

The room becomes silent as I stare at the ceiling. I have no clue what to do or even think about this whole situation I just walked into.

All I know is that when I was getting rushed into the examination room to check on the baby.

The only thing I cared about was about the life inside of me.

I close my eyes shut thinking about how I cradled my belly protectively.

I remember feeling fear of losing this baby, losing Jason McCann's baby.