2 months later

It's been two whole months since the day Jason McCann broke my heart into a million pieces.

Every night I sit by my window looking at the stars wondering where Jason could be, what is he up to, is he doing okay, and the question that brings me into tears most of the time is.. Does he even miss me like I miss him?

I've never experienced heartbreak before and now that I know how it feels like. Let me just say it's terrible your literally sad all of the time. Nothing nor anyone can make you feel not even slightly better.

Sadness and hurt is what consists of my life now.

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Today is my first day back to work since being released from the hospital to recover at home from my injuries.

At home all I did was lay around like a bum since I had to rely on crutches the entire time I did any sort of movement.

My mother took time off from her work to take care of me. I haven't talked to my father since the day he demanded the nurses to inject me.

He hasn't really tried visiting me either most likely busy with his gold digger whore.

"Welcome back Miss Grey", Ruth smiles at me as I walk in my office.

"Thank you", I respond.

You would think I would be happy being back to my company in my office I've always decorated with my favorite things, but now I just feel distant from it all.

"Aleysa!", Jacky bursts through the door excitement on her face to see me.

The two months I was at home recovering. Jacky visited mostly everyday to check up on me. She knows how much I'm hurting without Jason.

I love Jacky so much for being there for me even though she was also injured having a twisted ankle. She always still managed to visit me comforting me in anyway she could as I cried on her thigh while she ran her fingers through my hair.

"Jacky!", I smile standing up from my chair embracing her presents into a tight hug.

"How are you feeling today?", she asks peering at me.

"Well my bruises and foot are recovered now so I'm good and you?"

"Same", she grins.

"How's Isaac?", I mumble.

Besides everything that went on Isaac and Jacky are still together. These two are really unbreakable if only Jason thought the same way.

"We're good.. we are still dating behind my father's back though", Jacky slumps her shoulders.

"I'm sure your dad would like him"

"He would, but not the criminal part", Jacky chuckles falsely.

I force a half smile as my mind drifts of to Jason like it always does.

"How's Jas-"

"Aleysa, don't do this to yourself", Jacky cuts me off giving me a stern glare.

For two months I've been trying to get information from Jacky to see if Isaac knows anything about Jason's whereabouts. It's like Jason literally disappeared from the face of the earth since the last time I saw him.

"Jacky, you know how much I'm hurting because of him.. why are you torturing me this way?! I'm your best friend why would you do this to me? Just tell me!", I mutter losing my patience with her keeping shit from me.

I mean Isaac is best friends with Jason. He should know what's going on with him right?

"Aleysa, it hurts to see you like this suffering over him.. I'm just trying to help you move on from him", Jacky sighs.

"Jacky, I will move on well at least try, but I need to know what has happened to Jason please", I practically beg a tear sliding down my cheek.

Jacky's grey eyes softens as she stares at me then let's out a loud breathe.

"Isaac hasn't heard from Jason either.. The last time he saw and talked to him was when we were both in the hospital.. Jason and Ace bought tickets to leave out of New York and asked Isaac if he wanted to tag along, but he refused because of his mom and well me.. Aleysa, Jason is no longer here he left far far away from here with Ace. He didn't tell Isaac where to nor has he communicated with him since that day which is two months ago", Jacky sadly frowns.

I say nothing at all completely silent from the shocking news Jacky just confessed to me. Now I know why she didn't want to tell me, but it's better for me to know rather than keep wondering.

Even if it kills me

However, I will admit I'm more broken than before. After two months I finally know. I honestly thought he would avoid me, but I never thought he would leave New York.

Where ever he is in this huge world we live in. I hope he's okay and safe from all danger.

"Are you okay?", Jacky croaks.

"Yes thank you", I forcefully smile trying my hardest not to have another breakdown especially at work.

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As I schedule everyone's appearances my door squeaks open Satan making her way inside my office.

"What do you want Assandra?!", I scoff.

"How's work without that sexy ex of yours?", she evilly smirks.

"Fuck you!", I grumble.

"I just thought I should let you know that your daddy knows everything"

"What are you talking about?", I furrow my brows.

Alessandra grins throwing a tannish envelope on my desk.

I look down at the envelope grabbing it quickly opening it as curiosity sets in. I pull out a huge stack of Jason's files along with his mugshots from juvie.

My eyes widen panic setting in. My stomach twists making me feel nauseous all of a sudden. My heart starts to thump faster feeling the room suddenly hot.

"How?", I croak out.

"I'm no messenger", Alessandra scoffs walking towards the door.

"Answer me you stupid bitch!", I scold abruptly standing up from my seat.

Alessandra chuckles casually beaming at me.
"Liam", she blankly responds walking out of my office.

To say I'm mad is an understatement. I'm fucking furious. I'm fuming wanting to beat the crap out of Liam. After he promised to keep this secret between us. He betrayed me by snitching on Jason to my father out of all people.

I decide to leave work early today to cool off from the horrible news stupid Assandra threw at me.

However, I find myself outside of Jason's condo. I'm not sure why I'm here. I guess I just had to see for myself that he's really gone.

I knock on the door nervously hoping that Jason would answer. I know I'm stupid for hoping this knowing that he left New York two months ago, but my heart is still being stubborn.

A few seconds pass by when the door opens slowly. My heart thumps fast and my palms feel sweaty from the anxiety I'm currently feeling.

An elderly woman peeks her head out of the door. A smile forming on her lips as her blue-grey eyes meet with mine.

"How can I help you dear?", she softly says.

My heart falls down to my stomach as sadness takes over the little ounce of hope I still had in me of seeing Jason again.

"I'm sorry I must have the wrong address", I respond.

"Oh okay dear have a nice day", she smiles closing the door.

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I'm now in my room after leaving Jason's old condo. All I can feel is heartbreak heartbreak heartbreak.

I'm leaning on my bedroom wall as realization of Jason being gone out of New York out of my life forever sinks in destroying me completely.

Suddenly, my legs give up on me dropping to the floor not being able to hold in this pain and tears anymore.

"Where are you now that I need you!", I shout as loud as I could sobbing in tears.
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My heart screams for him

My body aches for his touch

My eyes searches for his light brown hazel eyes

My lips craves the warmth of his soft lips

I miss him so much

How can a complete stranger come into your life and completely turn your world upside down.

I deeply and madly fell in love with Jason McCann.

Despite of all the heavy baggage he had behind him. I didn't care I still loved him for him. Despite of all the shit that happened and my life being almost taken away from me I still love him and want to be with him.

However, Jason must of not loved me the way I do since it was easy for him to give up on me and on our love. He left me behind like I was never important to him.

After how much I begged and yelled for him at the hospital. He still left me.

It was so easy for him to throw everything away and move on with his life without me.

And so I know what I must do.

I'm going to move on no matter how much it hurts.

I will move on