lying in the darkness,
head full of nothing,
my eyes full of something,
heart hurting missing you though you're right next to me

what have i done?
nothing
my mind plays games,
constantly and forever

so when you're sleeping soundly peaceful,
i silently weep in bed next to you,
tears falling naturally like a waterfall

i constantly ask my self why my mind does this,
it never answers.
why do you play and torture my head though my day was good?
why do i hurt and yet feel happy?

what is this game?
i don't understand...
please explain to me the rules.

my heart, head and mind hurts.
please stop the torture