Its currently 4:50 am. I can't sleep. This was just too traumatic.

Me and my boyfriend were planning on spending the night together. Ya know, we both wanted to lose our virginity because we were far enough in the relationship to want this. (This was mostly true and was happening tomorrow) We were going to use my friends apartment to do the deed. But when we got there we noticed barely anyone was there, which was odd because its a pretty good size complex. Then, all of a sudden, my sister pulls up with my friend and drops her off. We get inside and then,  as if on cue a whole round of shots go off. These 3 boys, one in the arms of their father, were traumatized and the youngest one was shot through the face bleeding out. We started running screaming that we have to get the fuck out of there. Everyone was panicking and rushing to the cars.

Then i woke up crying.

I dont know whats the point of this but im hoping this will help myself... im not sure if ill post this... i just wanted to take note of this because i had a dream about 2 nights ago that included rounds of gunfire too.  Its just racking up so id thought ill put it on paper... like i said its 5am and i bet everything is confusing and grammatically incorrect. But ya... theres my nightmares....
(Also i chose not to lose my v card quite yet... i kinda took this as a sign...)