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Harry spent the whole summer working at a restaurant and saving money for the expenses they were going to have for the next few months while Louis had gotten a temporary job working for Dr. Brady who was kind enough to help them out, he spent his days organizing files and scheduling appointments for her patients getting bigger and bigger as the months passed by.

By August Harry had started school and Louis was already on his seventh month and uncomfortable just wanting his babies out yet didn't knowing it wasn't time yet and they needed to stay in there as long as possible. When August turned into September Louis was ready to pop trying not to feel any kind of resentment towards his family every time Harry would leave for school as well as Zayn and a few of the people that he used to have classes with.

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"Ow!" Louis flinched in his sleep then sat up out of nowhere when he felt himself wetting the bed.

He quickly pushed the covers off of him feeling completely disgusting then turned the lamp light on gasping when he saw the yellowish liquid all over him and the bedsheet. He tried to get up but stopped when he felt a contraction ripping from his lower stomach all the way down to his upper thighs then back up to his lower back.

"Harry, Harry wake up!" Louis almost screamed trying to shake him awake relief flooding through him when Harry sat up.

"What? What's wrong?" Harry was quick to move over to Louis' side of the bed.

"They're c- coming, oh god! Harry, they're due in three more weeks...n- not now." Louis whimpered trying to get up.

"Its gonna be okay Lou." Harry helped him up wincing every time Louis would squeeze his forearms in pain.

He helped him into clean warm clothes then after he had everything they were going to need he drove to the hospital trying to contact Dr. Brady so she could have everything ready for them as soon as they got there. As soon as they got there she rushed him to the OR to get him ready for a C-Section only allowing Harry in when Louis wouldn't calm down wanting his husband there with him.

Harry spent the whole time whispering sweet nothings in Louis' ear to keep him as calm as possible until the roles switched as soon as they heard their first baby crying at the top of his lungs followed by their second one not as loud as the first one.

"Guys, I think you might want to see this." Dr. Brady cheerfully said as she and a nurse carefully lifted them up over the curtain so they could see them telling them which twin was baby A and baby B.

Harry and Louis gasped as soon as they saw their babies completely falling in love with them and even though they hadn't been cleaned yet they were still beautiful. The babies squirmed in their arms as they cried and that's when they noticed something they would never forget, they were holding hands never letting go of each other until they were separated to be cleaned up.

"I love you so much, thank you." Harry kissed Louis' lips wiping a stray tear away smiling when Louis kissed him back.

"I love you too." Louis said with as much passion as Harry.

As soon as Louis was stitched up he was taken to a recovery room where Harry wouldn't stop praising and telling Louis how much he loved him. His attention went back to their babies when two nurses walked in rolling two plastic bassinets and after carefully picking them up they placed them on Louis' chest after the babies were fully checked and wearing the tiny clothes they had brought for them.

"He is the oldest by two minutes." The nurse smiled fixing the blanket around the baby wearing a white hat then fixed it for the one wearing a blue hat.

"Are they okay?" Harry asked her.

"They are completely fine, the steroid shot Dr. Brady gave him three days ago helped." The nurse smiled then left with the other nurse following behind after congratulating them.

"Look Harry, they have your lips." Louis gave him a tired smile when he looked at him but quickly gave their babies all their attention when one of them cried.

"And your cute nose." Harry lovingly kissed the top of Louis' head.

"Do you want to hold them?" Louis asked handing the baby wearing the blue hat smiling when his husband took him in his arms treating him as if he was fine china.

"Hi there," Harry cooed at him feeling his heart filling with so much love when his son lifted his tiny arms up waving his tiny fists around barely opening his eyes before he closed them again, "I love you baby, and I love your brother too."

"What are we going to name them? It completely slipped my mind." Louis said holding his other son in his arms.

"This one is the youngest," Harry said looking at his son as he softly rocked him then looked at Louis with pouty lips, "Can we name him Elijah?"

"Elijah Edward." Louis nodded, "This one looks like a Jonah."

Harry carefully sat down next to Louis bringing their babies together who seemed to stop squirming too much when next to each other. He looked at both of them already memorizing their tiny features and when he removed their hats they were surprised to see tufts of thin blond hair on their heads.

"Jonah William." Harry finally said chuckling when Louis made a face, "Its only fair love, you want Elijah to have my middle name so I want Jonah to have William as his middle name."

"Fine, if it makes you happy." Louis playfully rolled his eyes getting a kiss on the forehead by Harry then leaned down to kiss both of his babies.

"I still have to call everyone but for now you need to rest and so do they." Harry said as soon as he noticed Louis yawning followed by Jonah.

"Okay, I love you." Louis waited for Harry to put Elijah in his bassinet then Jonah before falling asleep shortly after Harry had made his way to the couch to sleep as well smiling when Harry told him he loved him back.

The first one to visit Louis the next day was Zayn who teared up at the sight of the twins complimenting Louis and Harry on the names they had chosen for them. The first one he got to hold was Jonah spending the whole time cooing at him until he started crying then moved on to Elijah noticing he was smaller than his brother. He had taken many pictures of the twins, Harry holding them then Louis and at the end all four of them.

When Harry's and Louis' families got there Gemma pushed her two other brothers out of the way to get to the babies first grinning like a proud mother when she got to hold Jonah while Liam got to hold Elijah then gave him to Niall trying to convince Gemma to let him hold Jonah. Anne and Jay spent the whole time crying as they held them until they let the two proud grandparents hold them and Harry was surprised when his father Des showed up with presents for the new happy family.

Louis couldn't help but smile when he saw Harry so happy as he talked with his father hearing Des telling him how proud he was of him then started getting nervous when he saw him making his way over to him. It was his first time meeting Des and he was nervous but calmed down when Des introduced himself then hugged him congratulating him and thanking him for making his son happy and giving him two perfect and beautiful grandsons.

Three days later Louis was released from the hospital with instructions to rest and was glad Harry had a week off from work and school since he was still trying to heal from the C-Section. The first night at home was hectic when as soon as Harry had fed one of the babies and put him in his crib already asleep the other will wake up needing a diaper change or just wanting to be held. It had ended up in a light argument when Harry refused to let Louis get up and help him afraid of him getting hurt, in the end Louis had won and changed Jonah's diaper kissing his son's chubby cheeks as he did so.

~*~

"This one already ate." Louis said pointing to Jonah who was on the bed on top of a blanket happily kicking his legs while Elijah whimpered next to him.

It was already two weeks after Louis had given birth and Harry had gone back to school and to work the week before. Harry was still dressed in his work clothes as he happily nodded holding a bottle ready to feed one of his sons then picked Elijah up making sure to kiss Jonah first who startled at the sudden feeling of Harry's lips on his tiny forehead. Louis sighed waiting for it knowing what was coming when Jonah's tiny bottom lip trembled then his face scrunched up and seconds later he started crying.

"Oh I'm sorry baby boy, daddy didn't want to make you cry." Harry rubbed his tummy letting Louis hold him to calm him down while he settled down on the rocking chair he had moved into their room so they could feed the babies.

"How was your day?" Louis asked him sitting on the bed with Jonah in his arms, the tiny baby moving his head around a little then waved his arms around setting his right one against Louis' chest before closing his eyes.

"It was good. Yours?" Harry looked up at him smiling then went back to looking at Elijah as he fed him.

"It was the same as always." Louis said.

"I know you hate being cooped up here all day so I was thinking that this sunday you could go hang out with your friends if you want to while I stay here with the babies." Harry suggested.

"That's- babe that's not fair to you, you go to school then work and I do nothing." Louis said.

"You take care of two babies on your own, you deserve a break and I don't spend much time with them as I would like so its okay." Harry insisted.

"Okay then, but call me if you need something." Louis nodded.

The following sunday Zayn picked Louis up leaving to go to a football game but not before kissing the life out of the twins promising to come see them more often then left with a last kiss to both especially Jonah. On the way to the game Louis had teased him accusing him of loving Jonah more while Zayn denied and swore on his own future grave that that wasn't the case. Louis had a great time and when he got back home he gushed about his day while Harry listened with a small smile having Elijah laying on top of him upside down and Jonah asleep next to them.

As the months passed by things slowly started going from great to worse when Louis realized how hard it really was to raise two babies and care for them on his own while his husband worked and attended school. As soon as the twins were six months old he had made the decision of putting them in a day care and get a job to help Harry out but was left in a pissy mood when Harry had shot that idea down not trusting other people taking care of their sons.

Louis had listened to Harry and was a stay at home dad happy with his life watching their babies grow and learn how to crawl figuring out that out of the two of them Jonah was the one who seemed to get into trouble a whole lot more. Elijah was the calm baby choosing to quietly follow his brother around looking up at Louis with his big green eyes asking for help whenever Jonah would get too rough with him.

Their original blond hair had started darkening and curling up at the tips leaving them looking angelic and with the title of cutest babies on the block whenever Louis would take them out to the park sometimes with Harry when he had a day off from working and studying like a maniac. It worried Louis the way Harry worked himself to exhaustion only wanting to give them a good life and be someone in life to do so and to do that he needed to keep his grades up and get his law degree.

Louis wanted him to take some time off and spend time together but was left in a bad mood whenever Harry would ignore him in favor of finishing school work or a project. At that point Louis started feeling like Harry wasn't attracted to him anymore when he looked like hell with baby puke stains on his clothes. Sometimes he wished he could go back in time and stop himself from getting pregnant but in the end he always regretted it feeling awful because now Harry and their babies were his family and he loved them, he would do anything for them.

They thought it would be easy but when it got to be too much for Harry and the pile of dirty dishes and laundry kept growing whenever he would get home, it only led to pointless arguments ending up with Louis doing the dirty dishes ignoring one or both of the twins crying wanting his attention. Harry would separate their laundry into piles while holding one of them and after when they would go to bed they would shyly apologize.

When the twins turned eight months old Louis had the biggest scare of his life when he started having pregnancy symptoms again that turned out to be just a bug going around making him sick. Harry had stayed home and missed class and work to take care of all three of them when Louis couldn't even move resulting in his grades dropping and almost losing his scholarship. That night when Louis was finally feeling better they had the biggest fight resulting in Louis packing a change of clothes for him and the twins leaving to Zayn's when he had shouted at Harry about dropping out of school because of him and the twins and had ended up not coming back until the next day.

Their first year anniversary was spent alone when Zayn offered to babysit his now nine month old nephews and Louis knew they would be safe with him. Harry had organized a candlelit dinner in their apartment having cooked a fancy dinner and after they were done eating Harry made love to Louis making sure to use protection not wanting Louis to end up pregnant again at least until they were better off economically. Zayn had dropped both babies off the next day winking at Louis when he saw the red roses and the candles still on the table.

When Jonah and Elijah turned a year old Jay organized them a party inviting a few kids from the neighborhood as well as the whole family and friends. Before the party she and Anne had taken the twins to be photographed together for their first ever birthday, they had struggled to take the pictures but in the end both Louis and Harry were happy with them.

"Happy birthday to you, happy birthday Jonah and Eli, happy birthday to you."

They sung smiling when both babies happily clapped their hands then as soon as Harry and Louis had helped blowing out the two number one candles on top of the two small chocolate cakes Jonah reached for it covering his tiny hand in frosting and squealing at the feeling. Elijah watched him with wide eyes, drool running down his chin that Louis wiped away and followed his brother's actions grabbing fistfuls of cake giggling as he did so.

"They are growing up so fast." Anne commented heading to pick Elijah up and clean him up a bit.

"They're gonna be running around and getting in trouble before you know it." Jay nodded with Jonah in her arms while Louis sat on Harry's lap eating a slice of cake from a third and bigger one Gemma had gotten.

Everything went rather smoothly for two months until Harry lost his job, the bills kept piling up and Harry's grades dropped once again and with sacrifice brought them up again. Louis had gotten a job at a diner where he would always see his ex classmates making him resent Harry more and more everyday. He knew it wasn't fair to Harry but he couldn't help it when Harry wasn't the one that had to drop out of school feeling even worse because he had been the one to insist. Their fights kept getting worse and worse until the one day where Louis shouted the words he would spend the next ten years regretting.

"Well what the hell do you want me to do! Nothing I ever do is good enough for you anymore." Harry shouted after they had been arguing for almost an hour over expenses.

"I want the divorce." He finally shouted looking straight into Harry's eyes that went from angry to panicky in a fraction of a second.

"Wh- What?" Harry said not believing what he was hearing.

"You heard me, I want the divorce. I can't take it anymore and I feel like I'm suffocating here...like- like I have no future and I'll never be able to go back to school." Louis said, his heart breaking when Harry's eyes filled with tears.

"No, Louis please. We can work this out but please don't do this." Harry begged running to him and wrapping his arms around Louis.

Louis pushed him away and walked out of there and into the twins room to pack their stuff and go to his mum's house. When he walked out again Harry was sitting on the sofa crying his eyes out and as soon as he saw the bags in Louis' hands he got up rushing over to him.

"Louis please think about this. I love you, you can't just leave me and take my children from me." Harry begged.

"Sometimes love is not enough Harry."

And with that said Louis walked out with their bags in hand and a few minutes later walked back inside and into the twins bedroom coming back out with them perched on each of his hips. He walked out without so much of a last glance at Harry not wanting to see the look of hurt in his face he had caused. When he got to his mum's house she took them in without asking anything already knowing what was going on after Anne had called them when Harry had called her in hysterics.

Harry was forced to leave his apartment and Gemma who lived half an hour away had taken him in with open arms and the day Harry got the divorce papers to sign she had held him in her arms letting him cry until he fell asleep. Harry refused to sign until he was sure he would get to see his sons and after a judge decided he would get to keep them for the whole weekend he begged Louis not to go ahead with it. However, he watched with tears in his eyes the way Louis didn't hesitated to sign them after he was given the documents and when it was his turn he begged him once again signing them when Louis said there was nothing left to do but to sign them.

In Harry's mind Louis had realized how stupid of him it was to marry someone who had no future, someone who had him living in the shittiest apartment for more than a year and couldn't give him and their babies what they deserved. A week later the divorced had been finalized and if Harry cried in Gemma's arms with Liam and Niall trying to comfort him then no one had to know but them who had wiped every single tear away.

From that day on Harry would drive all the way to Doncaster every saturday morning to pick up their kids only to drive back sunday night to drop them off again. Everything was going okay until Louis started refusing to let him see them much less take them back to Manchester until Harry got tired and sued Louis leaving him with no choice but to let him see them.

"He's two hours late mum, he was supposed to be here at eight." Louis paced back and forth in the living room waiting for Harry to drop his kids off.

"Calm down sweetheart." Jay sighed still a little disappointed on the way Louis treated Harry who loved him with all his heart, she could still see it in his green eyes every time he would show up to get or drop her grandsons off.

"I can't wait any longer, I'm gonna go get them." Louis grabbed his car keys and left ignoring his mother shouting at him to get back.

An hour and a half later he parked his car outside Gemma's house seeing that Harry's car was gone and without thinking walked up to the door knocking rather harshly. Gemma opened the door holding who Louis was sure was Jonah wearing the biggest of smiles that vanished as soon as she saw Louis.

"He was supposed to drop them off three and a half hours ago." Louis said walking into the house and going straight to Elijah who was sitting in the play pen holding a stuffed bunny.

"Sure, you can come in." Gemma closed the door trying not to glare at him. "He got called in for work and since he has to pay child support for his kids and pay for your sorry ass too he had no choice but to go."

"I didn't know..." Louis trailed off.

"Of course you don't, you don't know anything. I tried calling you but you never answered but I guess its understandable since you don't have my new number." Gemma took a seat on the couch with Jonah still in her arms.

"Give him to me, we're leaving." Louis reached for Jonah already having Elijah in his arms frowning when Gemma got up and took a step back.

"They're not going anywhere until Harry gets back and says goodbye, that's the least he deserves you insensitive bitch." Gemma finally snapped seeing the way Louis' eyes widened then showed hurt but she could care less.

"Its getting late and I have work tomorrow." Louis said trying to keep his voice from trembling when Gemma who used to already love him like a brother now hated him and was glaring at him as if he was the scum of the earth.

"At least you got a job and no, they're not getting out of here until he gets back." Gemma ignored him.

"Gemma." Louis started getting angry then grabbed Elijah's bag heading for the door with her following after him.

"What are you doing? You can't just take them, haven't you already done enough!" Gemma shouted.

"I'm leaving, I'll come back and get him tomorrow." Louis said quickly buckling his son up in his car seat he kept in his car then got in the driver's side not wanting to leave his Jonah behind but it was one or none of them.

Halfway home his phone started ringing and he answered already knowing it was Harry. Louis wished he could still say I love you but when Harry had stopped saying it he had stopped too.

"Why would you take Eli?" Was the first thing Harry said as soon as Louis answered.

"You were already two hours late." Louis rolled his eyes.

"Louis...I got called in for work this morning and I didn't get to spend time with them so you better bring Elijah back. Now." Harry tried to keep his temper down.

"No. Your time with them is over, I'll go pick Jonah up tomorrow."

"I'm getting tired of your bullshit Louis, If you don't bring Elijah back by tomorrow then don't bother showing up. I'm not gonna let you take Jonah until I spend the day with both of them. You get to see them all week and live with them while I only get two days so stop being an asshole and bring him back." Harry snapped.

"Well you shouldn't have gone to work then." Louis spat.

"I have to work to support my children and even you! You can't even afford to get your own shit and if it wasn't for your parents then you'll be living in the fucking streets." Harry shouted hitting a nerve.

"You don't have to pay for my fucking stuff!" Louis shouted managing to wake up Elijah and started silently crying as soon as his son let out a wail.

"I do it because I fucking love you and want you to have at least something to wear, I love you but that isn't enough for you." Harry's voice cracked.

"Harry..." Louis trailed off pulling over on the side of the road.

"It wasn't enough for you and now I'm wondering if you ever loved me at all or if it was just the heat of the moment where you thought you were in love with me too." Harry said then paused to take a deep breath before trying once again to get him back, "Please Louis, I miss you. Please just come back, we could start over again, I love you so much and I want you here with me, I want us to be a family again."

Louis wanted so hard to turn around and go back to him, go back to what they used to have before but the thought of him never doing what he liked and going back to school to achieve it was enough for him to keep going.

"No, I'll pick him up tomorrow." Louis closed his eyes letting the tears roll down his face when he heard Harry's shaky breath through the phone feeling the ache on his chest.

"Then don't expect to find us here, I'm not gonna let you take him." Harry's tone was cold before he hung up.

When Louis got home Harry was once again calling him begging him to get back together and after the third call Louis ignored him. By seven in the morning Harry was still calling him until Louis picked up feeling exhausted and annoyed not even thinking before talking which at the time it had been his biggest mistake.

"Lou? We need to talk." Harry's voice trembled.

"Harry just save it, please. If you want to then keep Jonah, anything so you can stop annoying me and calling me. Keep him." Louis said then hung up before Harry could say anything else leaving Harry completely heartbroken.

A few days later Harry still had Jonah with him when he received the best news any law student could ever receive, he had been offered to study abroad in Harvard University with a fully paid scholarship. His family had congratulated him and for once ever since Louis had asked for the divorce Harry was smiling again but soon vanished when he realized he would have to leave his sons behind. His heart broke when he decided to give Jonah back to Louis and arrange a time for him to see them at least twice a year and when he told his family they promised to keep in contact with Louis and try sending him pictures of the twins.

That morning he had his son in his arms trying to call Louis but was left confused when a recording told him the service had been disconnected and that's when he realized Louis had been true to his words and had cut him and their son out of his life. The tears rushed down his cheeks feeling completely heartbroken and angry at the same time, was Louis really that heartless enough to give their son up. He tried to smile when Jonah whined wanting his attention but ended up crying more when his baby grabbed his cheek as if trying to comfort him.

"We'll be fine baby, we don't need him. I'm going to love you so much and be the best father I can, I'll work hard to give you everything you need and want." More tears rushed down Harry's cheeks kissing his son's forehead and hugging him tight.

When Harry told his family what Louis had done Anne regretted having encouraged Harry to go on that cruise because if she hadn't done that then Harry wouldn't have to be hurting and would have never met Louis. She regretted even more having agreed with Jay to that marriage that only ended up in disaster. Gemma was livid when Harry told them he wouldn't be able to study abroad like it had always been his dream and just like that she decided to move with him, later on his parents as well as Liam and Niall decided to move to Boston with him and start a new life so he could pursue his dream..

~*~

Louis couldn't sleep at all days after he had made the biggest mistake of his life, he wanted Harry and his son back when he realized it was where he belonged, he belonged by Harry's side. So what if he had to wait years for him to go back to school, so what if he had to stay at home with their babies. As long as they were together as a family he knew they would be okay. When he finally worked up the courage to call him after having turned his phone off a few days before he started panicking when he was told his phone was no longer in service. He was ready to complain when he realized he had forgotten to pay the monthly bill and after he had paid for it he called Harry back getting a no longer in service reply, that's when he started panicking trying to contact his family only to receive the same answer until he called Zayn.

"Zayn have you heard from Harry?" Louis asked not even bothering to greet him when he picked up the phone.

"What do you want with him now, Louis? Hurt him again? Turn your back on him and your own child like you did a few days ago." Zayn angrily said fighting the urge to hang up and never talk to him ever again.

"I was angry and so frustrated Zayn! I tried calling him but he won't answer and neither does his family, they- they changed their numbers. Do you know where he is?" Louis asked trying not to burst out crying while Elijah slept in his crib next to Jonah's empty one.

"I thought you were the one who changed your number." Zayn heavily sighed.

"What? No I didn't, I forgot to pay the bill and my service was interrupted." Louis started getting more nervous and nervous as the seconds passed by.

"Louis...Harry was trying to contact you to give Jonah back to you. Liam called me asking me for your new number but I was just as surprised as him when he told me you had changed it. Harry wanted to give him back to you and visit them at least once or twice a year." Zayn explained.

"What are you talking about?" Louis sniffled.

"He was offered to study abroad who knows where- Liam wouldn't tell me, he called you to give Jonah back to you before leaving but you never answered so he- he left Louis. And I think his whole family moved too because I went over to their houses and they were empty, I couldn't contact any of them." Zayn delivered the news hearing something breaking on the other side of the line.

"He left? No, please no." Louis started crying. "I- I have to find them. Zayn you have to help me find them."

"Where do we even start Louis? We don't know which country he moved to, its impossible." Zayn said trying to make him see reality.

"I was so stupid Zayn, I was stupid to let him go. I was so selfish." Louis sobbed moving to pick Elijah up and hug him close to his chest, the baby's cries reduced to whimpers and his big green eyes searched the room probably looking for his brother and it only worked to make Louis hysterical

"Louis calm down, crying isn't gonna change things." Zayn said already on his way out to go see him.

Louis was in his bedroom he shared with the babies when Zayn got there and as soon as Louis saw him he ran to his arms unable to stop crying. Zayn hugged him and when Louis calmed down he gave him a box Gemma's landlord had given him. Louis opened it finding old pictures of Harry and himself then his sobs got louder when he saw their wedding picture had been ripped in half and the only half Harry had left was a picture of himself having taken the half where Louis was in. He grabbed it carefully observing Harry, it had been taken after they had finished dancing their first ever dance as a married couple and his heart hurt just by seeing the look full of love Harry was giving him and now he had gone and ruined it all.

"I have to find them, Zayn. Please help me find them." Louis begged holding the half of the picture close to his heart seeing Zayn nodding before he hugged him again.

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