The sun was so bright
But i surrounded by the dark

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~ Last Night ~

I walking downstair to the living room, my mother and sister sit on the couch awaited me. I sit down on the floor in front of them, the worried draw on their faces.

"What's wrong mom?" My eyes turn back and forth between them, they look each other and a bit hesitate. "Please say something, what's wrong with you two?" I get impatient.

My mother intertwined her hands and pressed it to her mouth, "here son, me and your sister want to asked dad for come back home again. What's your opinion?" They waited my answer, they look afraid since my reaction is shock and grew my eyes bigger.

"Why you must bring him back? We're okay with just three of us all this time" i'm grumbled. They aren't so surprised with my reaction, i guess they anticipated this.

"I know you are still mad at him, but he have apologized to us sweetheart. He has nobody except us, we're family. We belongs each other, he need our support" my mother took my hand and patted it softly.

"You know he isn't a bad person, everyone doing a mistake sometimes.  What he do next is for our sake. He put our safety first, he take all the blamed. You know it hurts several times more than what we're going through, to resist the longing. You know the reasons, i know it will take a time for you to forgive him. At least give him a chance Hoseok~a" my sister tried to convince me.

I'm still hesitate to open my mouth, a part of me want him to back home again but i still can't accept his reason for leaving us back then. We can through it all together, like every family does.

"Then let him back alone, or begged us for that" sarcasm in my word make them sad. "I bet he wouldn't do that, he's too ashamed just to put his eyes on us" i can't believed my sister look so mad at me, then she look at me like i was out of my mind to say something bothered her.

"We have to bring him back and asked him for that Hoseok~a" my eyes wavering, "okay you two can do that but i won't do it, i won't beg him" i stood up and walk upstairs again to my room. "Thank you Hoseok~a" i still can hear them cheered.

The question is what is wrong with me? It's not a big deal to forgive him, and i know exactly i want him to come back home again from 3 years ago until now.

He always support me, he said that he's my number one fan. He never scolded me, my mother who does it. I told everything that bothered me, he is open minded person and never judge me. If i do wrong he will just talk to me face to face, but he always forgive me then. Why i can't do the same thing to him, i can't blame him for what happen to his company. It's his friend who deceived him, his friend who's take an advantage from him.

Maybe times will heal all my wounds, like my sister says that i have to give him a chance.

One more chance.

I know that he won't do it again, he regret it all.

When he came back all this atmosphere will be different, it will be like before he gone away or i just assume that he's invisible.

*****

It's a long sighed, why this happen to me in my first day work? This kids is just like a minions, they louder than i thought. Are they the elementary student for real? There is 12 kids in my class.

I have said to the members that i will come late, i told them about my part time job and they agree since it's just 2 - 3 hours and just 3 days in a week.

How can i handle this minions? I clapped my hands "attention please, now sit down and make half circle" their eyes focus on me now, and do what i said. "i am your new dance teacher, my name is Jeong Hoseok. I'll teach you a freestyle dance, you can call me oppa and hyung not mister. i have introduced myself and now your turn. Start from the right side" they start introduced themselves to me, they are listened to what i say and what i do more than i thought.

My first day being a dance teacher is going smooth, i thought it would be much harder. Since the first time i saw them, they look like a minions. But look at they now, they obeyed me so good better than Yoongi hyung. I didn't have troubles to teach them, they are smart students and talented.

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I go to practice with my members after i finish teach dance as soon as possible, i opened the door slowly because i still heard they step from inside the room.

I rush my step but still manage to keep silent, then throw my bag to the side room and follow they step. They just look at me and continue the practice.

"Hyung.. how's your first day?" Jungkook asked me, "great.. i like it more than to teach Yoongi hyung" i grinned but yoongi gazed drill my skull.

"I want to watch you teached them, they must be so adorable" Taehyung face suddenly look so bright.

"Yeah.. they listened me so well, woah i really underestimated them at the first place" i look like a proud father.

"Ah.. maybe we can show them our cover dance so they can learn to synchronized well and be a good team, how's that?" Now their eyes turn bright and nods in excitement.

"But what if i make a mistake?" Jin feel worry, "it's okay.. it can be a good example for them to not give up easily and try harder as much as they can" Jin patted my back hard.

"Wooaaahh you are awesome hyung" Jimin give his thumbs up.

"How about your girlfriend? Did she know about this?" Yoongi open his mouth now.

"I told her first" i became shy, "Yaaa.. now we're in the second place? Love change you bro" Jin push my shoulder, and they just laughing.

"She invited us to her villa in the village this sunday, are you all will coming?" They look each other and agree to come while screaming in happiness.

Namjoon is a little bit quiet now, i took a glance to him but i feel like he hide something from me.

I approach him, when i link my hand on his shoulder he seems surprise.

"What's wrong bro? Did you have a problem?" He look hesitate and give me an awkward smile.

"Nothing, this choreography is worry me. I make much mistake" i try to believed him.

"You always like this but you end up make it good bro, you can make it up too like usually. If something bothered you, you can tell me anytime" he smile again.

"Are you coming with us?" He said "yes" as an answer.

Someone tapped my shoulder, now i face Taehyung.

"Hyung.. are you have Hyeri's phone number?" He whisper to me and i furrowed my eyebrows.

"Of course i have, why?" A little bit agitate in my words.

"She said that she don't have a boyfriend, can i give it a try? What kind of boy that she like?" I feel like a little bit upset but i don't have an authority to feel that way.

"I won't give you her number" Taehyung mouth agaped, "but why hyung?" I asked the same question too in my mind.

"Because she..she just like a sister for me, i have to protect her" i'm stuttered, it's look like i'm making an excuse.

"Okay, if you won't give me her number then i will asked by myself" Taehyung leaved me with anger in his eyes.

Why you do that Hoseok? It's not a big deal to give him Hyeri's number, and why you have to make an excuse for her? That questions make my mind blow away.

I'm sorry Taehyung, i didn't even know why i act like that.

When we gonna went back home i approached Taehyung to apologize to him, "Taehyung, wait a minute" he stopped and still pissed off.

"I'm so sorry that i act rude to you before, but it's not my authority to give you her number. I'm affraid that make her uncomfortable, you can asked her yourself. Are you still mad at me?" He smile and shook his head.

"Okay.. see you tomorrow and good luck" I patted his shoulder and walk away home.

*****

~ Hyeri's POV ~

"Okay.. i will go to hospital this evening, is it okay?" I asked the nurse that call me at my lunch time. "Okay..thank you" i bowed without i realized and laugh to my stupidity after i shut down the phone.

Time pass by and now is 6 pm, i have permitted to DongGu oppa that i will came late to the store.

I'm in front of the Asan Medical Center, my heart thumping fast and wish that it's just an anemia.

After nurse called my name, i stand up and walk into the doctor room. I feel like knowing his face, after i look again at him for sure and his face remind me to the man with Mari back then. 'Ah his name is Lee Youngmin, what a tiny world' i say in my heart.

"Kang Hyeri~ssi" i nods in front of his smiling face and he stretch his arm to shake hand. "Pleased sit down, i'm your doctor Lee Youngmin" i just nodded again.

"You came alone? Where is your parents?" He interogated me, "my mom is still working right now, i don't know about my father because my parents are divorced" he gave me a sad look, i hate it but i don't have a choice.

"Okay.. so i have to do several physical check" he put his finger at the haggard location between my neck and my left shoulder and press it several times. He return to his seat.

"Can i asked you something?" I nodded, "are you fainted very often this day?" I just said "yes" to him.

"Did you have bleeding out from your body so sudden?" He waited for my answer, i gulp and nodded. "Where?" He asked me again, "i've got a nosebleed several times" he write it again on my medical report.

"Now i have to tell you about your disease" he take a deep inhale and intertwined his fingers, it's make me nervous.

He give me a photo of my blood test result, which is i don't get it. "This is your white blood cells result and it turns to an abnormal cells. And that called leukemia cells, that's why you fainted and have a nosebleed back then" i got a shocked so sudden, it's like a nightmare for me.

"What do you say?" I asked for reassuring myself, "you have a leukemia, Hyeri~ssi" i can't believed what i heard, it's like an announcement of my death day.

"Tell me this is just a joke doctor" i scream in desperation, he came to me and hug me tight. "I'm so sorry to tell you this bad news" i cried louder and louder in his embrace.

'God, if you did exist pleased wake me up from this nightmare' i pray and screamed inside. My tears flow free from my eyes, why me? Why me? I'm being a good daughter, a good sister, even a good friend. Why destiny is so cruel to me? I'm only 16 years old girl, i have a dream and got so much to do.

I'm never complained before but why you give me this disease God?

I still cried, he just patted my back. I didn't care where it is or who he is, i just want to let the sadness fly away.

When i stopped crying, he's back to his seat. "We have to make sure what type of Leukemia that you have, so you have to comeback for further checkup. Next time bring your mother, you must have your family and friends support" i still cried and bowed my head.

I can't hear clearly what he's saying about, i'm still like out of my mind now. I feel like my mind will blow up in a minute, and my chest thightened.

I'm out of the room, i drag my feet with all the strength i have. I squeezed the result paper in my hand, and put it in my pocket. My tears still falling down to my jaw, i have to wiped it again and again. I don't care someone look at my miserable look in disgust while in a bus, i just wanna layed on my bed and forget this all.

How do i tell mom about this?